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Full time music teacher
Loves God's creation, Loves travels, Loves beaches........
+ 04 Jan
+ elenatan@gmail.com
Full time music teacher
Loves God's creation, Loves travels, Loves beaches........
Tuesday, May 29, 2007
I feel like i've a time bomb ticking inside me. It's a matter of time that it'll go off. But i also believe God knows my limits and how much i can be stretched, He knows the areas that i want to be strengthened and equipped in, so He opens more doors to responsibilities which are just weighing me down now, thinking abt them.
On a happier note, yes, He knows my needs. It's the JUNE HOLIDAYS! Gonna take this month to catch up on what i need to do and breathe. From july onwards, i've no rest, prob just living to catch my breath.
Thank You Lord for the 2 miracles You did this wk. All these suffering and labouring is worth it because You so freely gave.
i just came back from my dance rehearsal for GDOP. i'm high inspired and i'm very excited. Initially i thought GDOP might just be another christian-gathering for a time of prayer. Today, i was proven so so so wrong, and i feel so ashamed of myself.
Today, we were shown a video of last year's GDOP. In there, i watched how the two heads of two different denominations, Methodist and Charismatic came together to apologise and reconcile with each other for the differences they had as a denomination. To mark the repentance and reconciliation, they even publicly in front of the entire stadium wash each other's feet. Such humility. My heart really softened at that moment when i saw that.
This year, the focus will be very much on family. As someone said just now, it all starts in the family, that unity, before we can have unity in the community, before we can have unity as a nation.
i believe this will be a special event, it's prob the last christian event in the national stadium before it's being torn down..the significance? We as christians take hold of God's territory and declare to our enemy that this land is the Lord's. Don't worry about the crowd, the stadium is big enough to accomodate all of us!
Though i'm physically exhausted from the practices, i'm excited as the day draws nearer, it's the day where God will really be lifted High and glorified, in that stadium. I believe on that day, there will be issues that i'll be struggling thru. i believe that God's message to me will come like a double edged sword and it'll pierce right into my heart. It's time for me to prepare myself to face all these.
Will u be there to rally with me?
i know if i dun go, i'll regret it...and so my colleague also reminded me. Then again maybe God knows betta. i really need one, to prepare myself for the coming half-year. The past week has been ok, busy everyday, every night, but i'm still sane, because God has been faithful all this while.
I just had a 4-5 hr dance pract yesterday. i was watching a dance yesterday, 'As David did', and tears just rolled down my face..it was very heartwarming to see pple dancing with the tambourine, giving their all. Really all. Thank You Lord for bringing support.
i've a book review due this wk. And i'm not even halfway thru the book. Jiayou to myself. =)
"i just want to be where You are, dwelling daily in your presence..."
Wah! U mean i haven't blogged for a week?! Ok, evidence shows that i've really been so busy that i don't even have time to sit and write something decent. The last of what i wrote was my stressed out period, during my lesson ob. Things has gotten a lil better, at least i'm trying to be strong thru this period.
Wanna give thanks to the Lord for seeing me thru last weekend. Thank God for allowing us to worship him thru the offertory item last wk. I believe all Glory has been given back to Him, and His blessings have fallen upon the group of us who danced. Praise reports have been so positive, and what repeatedly has been mentioned was the unity and love within the group. Praise be to God.
Last friday, went to fav island. Sat my fav ride. With my fav...Sunday went to MR. Where else in Singapore have i not been to?
These few days, have been consciously walking in the Spirit. Learnt to be more relaxed, desire less control of my life..just allowing God to guide me each step of the way.
Though my long awaited plans and wishes were put to a stop on tues, i was quite calm abt it, no, i had no anger, just pure pain. She was probably not feeling too good abt it as well..Lord i trust u in this, i'm still waiting to see how u will lead me thru.
This morning i quarrelled with Mum, oh well, God i leave it to u as well, in guiding me how to be a good daughter.
My lesson Ob is over, so i'm now bored..
Stretch..Stretchhhh....Stretttchhhhhhhhhh...
Thank you for your snail mail. It was a pleasant surprise, i forgot i asked u to send it to me..till i saw it lying on my comp when i got home! Everyday i get letters but they are nothing but bills and more bills. Bleh. Thanks to all those who dropped a note or sms. And dear nana who smsed me in the wee hours of the morning..(i personally have a liking to read morning messages first thing when i get up..so when i've morning inbox messages, it's doubly well-received.) Thank you for praying, my prayer warrior, pray so hard until fell asleep right? =)
I'm feeling better, but i know i need a break quite desperately. So on the next most possible date, i'm leaving this place. On my own or not i dunno..i'm just leaving. Just need to recharge in the right way before i enter the next half of the year, full swing.
Right now, i'm preparing myself for lesson observation today. My first ever lesson ob, especially i'm untrained..so i've no benchmark to compare to know if i'm doing the right thing. i just do what i like.
Lord, make my heart secure, help me remember that you will make things right for me.. In you i trust, with all my heart, all my mind, and all my strength. Amen.
Been feeling very down all day today. Sparked off because of some irresponsible pple. And that got me feeling quite mad. Later on, the pressure of preparing for lesson ob tmr came in. And there, spirit is low, everything is low. Just so low. Anyway, i think i'm having PMS. That's why. It's good anyway, when u have support alongside to hear u rattle and get it off yr chest. My colleague also accompanied me down for a drink. He suggested i punched a pillow. But nah, i desire to maintain that quiet spirit within me. Glad Dallas' back.
Tomorrow is my lesson ob, and one of my colleague's last day. I'm sad, because he sits next to me, and he's my faithful meal khaki. Just when i got so comfortable, God takes away. It'll be so different when i get up each time and realise that his table is empty, phone's stops ringing..well his phone is the busiest amongst us, students forever looking for him......
Tuesday - Labour Day
It was good news to have a public holiday right smacked in the middle of this busy period. Went to church for Psalmist gathering aka spring cleaning that has long been due. It was another time of human bonding.
Later part of the afternoon, went to ubin for a short walk. Obviously we read maps without looking at its legend. We chose the shortest route, but didn't realise that it was an earth trail surrounding mangrove swamps!! Yikes, so yes, we fed mozzies, walked on mud, saw small crabs..etc. Though it was drizzling, it was still manageable. =)
Changi village really sells one of the best food in Singapore!
Wednesday - Errands day
Went to run errands and got myself three new pairs of footwear. Had myself a great company running my errands with me. Thank u =)
At night went to catch up with Xinyi over dinner. Yes, it's been a long time. And we do miss our secondary school days...and friends...
Thank God for providing our cell retreat location. It's really heaven sent, knowing that it's so hard to book accomodation nowadays..
On a happier note, yes, He knows my needs. It's the JUNE HOLIDAYS! Gonna take this month to catch up on what i need to do and breathe. From july onwards, i've no rest, prob just living to catch my breath.
Thank You Lord for the 2 miracles You did this wk. All these suffering and labouring is worth it because You so freely gave.
at 10:51 PM
at 1:05 AM
Today, we were shown a video of last year's GDOP. In there, i watched how the two heads of two different denominations, Methodist and Charismatic came together to apologise and reconcile with each other for the differences they had as a denomination. To mark the repentance and reconciliation, they even publicly in front of the entire stadium wash each other's feet. Such humility. My heart really softened at that moment when i saw that.
This year, the focus will be very much on family. As someone said just now, it all starts in the family, that unity, before we can have unity in the community, before we can have unity as a nation.
i believe this will be a special event, it's prob the last christian event in the national stadium before it's being torn down..the significance? We as christians take hold of God's territory and declare to our enemy that this land is the Lord's. Don't worry about the crowd, the stadium is big enough to accomodate all of us!
Though i'm physically exhausted from the practices, i'm excited as the day draws nearer, it's the day where God will really be lifted High and glorified, in that stadium. I believe on that day, there will be issues that i'll be struggling thru. i believe that God's message to me will come like a double edged sword and it'll pierce right into my heart. It's time for me to prepare myself to face all these.
Will u be there to rally with me?
at 12:35 AM
I just had a 4-5 hr dance pract yesterday. i was watching a dance yesterday, 'As David did', and tears just rolled down my face..it was very heartwarming to see pple dancing with the tambourine, giving their all. Really all. Thank You Lord for bringing support.
i've a book review due this wk. And i'm not even halfway thru the book. Jiayou to myself. =)
"i just want to be where You are, dwelling daily in your presence..."
at 10:36 AM
Wanna give thanks to the Lord for seeing me thru last weekend. Thank God for allowing us to worship him thru the offertory item last wk. I believe all Glory has been given back to Him, and His blessings have fallen upon the group of us who danced. Praise reports have been so positive, and what repeatedly has been mentioned was the unity and love within the group. Praise be to God.
Last friday, went to fav island. Sat my fav ride. With my fav...Sunday went to MR. Where else in Singapore have i not been to?
These few days, have been consciously walking in the Spirit. Learnt to be more relaxed, desire less control of my life..just allowing God to guide me each step of the way.
Though my long awaited plans and wishes were put to a stop on tues, i was quite calm abt it, no, i had no anger, just pure pain. She was probably not feeling too good abt it as well..Lord i trust u in this, i'm still waiting to see how u will lead me thru.
This morning i quarrelled with Mum, oh well, God i leave it to u as well, in guiding me how to be a good daughter.
at 11:00 AM
at 2:16 PM
Thank you for your snail mail. It was a pleasant surprise, i forgot i asked u to send it to me..till i saw it lying on my comp when i got home! Everyday i get letters but they are nothing but bills and more bills. Bleh. Thanks to all those who dropped a note or sms. And dear nana who smsed me in the wee hours of the morning..(i personally have a liking to read morning messages first thing when i get up..so when i've morning inbox messages, it's doubly well-received.) Thank you for praying, my prayer warrior, pray so hard until fell asleep right? =)
I'm feeling better, but i know i need a break quite desperately. So on the next most possible date, i'm leaving this place. On my own or not i dunno..i'm just leaving. Just need to recharge in the right way before i enter the next half of the year, full swing.
Right now, i'm preparing myself for lesson observation today. My first ever lesson ob, especially i'm untrained..so i've no benchmark to compare to know if i'm doing the right thing. i just do what i like.
Lord, make my heart secure, help me remember that you will make things right for me.. In you i trust, with all my heart, all my mind, and all my strength. Amen.
at 9:17 AM
Tomorrow is my lesson ob, and one of my colleague's last day. I'm sad, because he sits next to me, and he's my faithful meal khaki. Just when i got so comfortable, God takes away. It'll be so different when i get up each time and realise that his table is empty, phone's stops ringing..well his phone is the busiest amongst us, students forever looking for him......
at 6:02 PM
It was good news to have a public holiday right smacked in the middle of this busy period. Went to church for Psalmist gathering aka spring cleaning that has long been due. It was another time of human bonding.
Later part of the afternoon, went to ubin for a short walk. Obviously we read maps without looking at its legend. We chose the shortest route, but didn't realise that it was an earth trail surrounding mangrove swamps!! Yikes, so yes, we fed mozzies, walked on mud, saw small crabs..etc. Though it was drizzling, it was still manageable. =)
Changi village really sells one of the best food in Singapore!
Wednesday - Errands day
Went to run errands and got myself three new pairs of footwear. Had myself a great company running my errands with me. Thank u =)
At night went to catch up with Xinyi over dinner. Yes, it's been a long time. And we do miss our secondary school days...and friends...
Thank God for providing our cell retreat location. It's really heaven sent, knowing that it's so hard to book accomodation nowadays..
at 11:26 AM
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