+ Elenana
+ 04 Jan
+ elenatan@gmail.com

Full time music teacher
Loves God's creation, Loves travels, Loves beaches........
Saturday, March 31, 2007

Ok, i'm finally free, to continue building some sandcastles in the air.

I've 2 wishes at this juncture, of which only God can fulfill.

1. X XXXX XX XX XXXXXXX XXXX X, XX XXX XXXX XX XXX XXXXX....

2. XX XXXX XXXXXXXX, XX XXXX XXXXXX...

People, once bitten twice shy, i once bitten, still not enough, still got 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9.....50 times. When will i wake up my ideas?

i'm feeling slightly better now, i have less than 6 hrs to recover my voice at tip top condition.


Dance-An expression of LOVE that flows from my heart
at 11:50 AM

HOW GREAT IS OUR GOD, SING WITH ME! HOW GREAT IS HOW GOD, ALL WILL SEE HOW GREAT, HOW GREAT IS OUR GOD!!

God, u know me, from the inside out of my soul, u see my pain, u see my tears, u see that cut, but i believe, u hold my world in your hands. I trust u Lord.

Amen.


Dance-An expression of LOVE that flows from my heart
at 12:34 AM

Thursday, March 29, 2007

Well, i was warned before i watched it (Bean), ok, it's not really that impressive, but there were parts that were really crappy, i laughed quite hard. Thank U for watching it with me, for sitting in the cinema though it's not really your favourite activity. Dinner was heavenly, especially that i didn't have my lunch. (See i told u i am easily satisfied) =)

i was reminded again, abt the things i'm doing in life. Am i just chasing after successes? What's success anyway? Who will be the one judging end of the day whether you're successful or not? Anyway, i learnt that what matters most is whether ur putting in LOVE in all that u do. i guess that's success. Being able to do something without growing tired because there's LOVE and God's strength.

Next week's Good friday wk...it's gonna be a different weekend.

What's happiness? To find that indescribable divine positive spirit in the midst of a difficult time.

Thank You my avid blog readers who tag after reading my entries, i appreciate it =)


Dance-An expression of LOVE that flows from my heart
at 12:39 AM

Tuesday, March 27, 2007

Yesterday, whilst i was still in school, i was just reflecting upon my job. I was also speaking with a colleague who's abt to resign. i know that i dun have a natural flair of music knowledge, neither am i really talented to teach as well. But one thing for sure, i wanna make a difference in the lives of the students i come in contact with.

I'm already entering the 4th month of the year there. i haven't developed feelings of attachment there yet. Probably because i know that i've only a one-year contract. But i can say for sure, that i trust God.

Yay, i'm gg to watch mr bean soon. I'm beginning to feel tired teaching at home nowadays, very tired...to be exact. After school come home, still must teach.


Dance-An expression of LOVE that flows from my heart
at 4:04 PM

Saturday, March 24, 2007

Today, i finally got to play ball. Fantastic. Haiz, yeah, something i've been longing to do for a long time, but nv got a chance because of sat night commitments. Today, i told myself, i have to play, if they're playing. Well, i got to "exercise" a lil, though i ran barefooted, no good, got blisters le.

At night, went to have dinner with family, celebrate nette's birthday. Whoa, mum actually went to see see look look at shoes with me, amazing. Anyway, yeah, i bought new shoes, with the blessing of my mum. This is seldom the case. But a month ago, she also went shopping for a bag with me.

Sian ah. This week is really different, even the weekend. She says i didn't laugh/joke and crap as much as i usually do. How to? Next wk will be a better week, it will be.


Dance-An expression of LOVE that flows from my heart
at 11:26 PM

Thursday, March 22, 2007

Looks like this week is gonna be a full wk of self-entertainment. It's been so the last 3 days. Only another 4 more days to a new wk. It hasn't been that bad actually, and i know i'm getting better. Though things aren't the same as what i expected, but come on, what's expectations man? The art of learning to adapt to changes is something that every person has to learn. i aspire to master this.

Poor u..get well soon. =)

i went for dance on monday, wow, how amazing when God knows that 'enough is enough' and He takes away that agonizing monday blues from u. Though i had a surprising staff mtg, but well, i still survived, plus a car ride to school and back home, it was heavenly. Well, it seems that mondays for the next two months are gonna be packed with dance. Thursday too starting from april. Well, u only have one life, live it to the max man.

This has been the most slack two days of break that i had. i only had one student. Hopefully the rest has been enough to recharge me for the next two days of war that i'm gonna fight in school. Heavy timetable.

May God's strength be with me...


Dance-An expression of LOVE that flows from my heart
at 12:15 AM

Monday, March 19, 2007


What do u do when u feel for something, and u truly desire it?


Pray.


Dear Lord,

U see what i don't see, u know what i dunno. I pray that u will open more opportunities for me to be a testimony for u.

Amen.


Dance-An expression of LOVE that flows from my heart
at 2:21 PM

Thursday, March 15, 2007

I have quite a bit to update u my dear blog.

Just last weekend, i went to Legends, JB, for leaders' retreat. This year, things were rather different due to the addition of many more pple. Brought a really different dynamics. Also, i guess everyone is growing older. This year, i took every rest time seriously. i really slept! Anyway, i learnt couple of new practical lessons during the retreat. Time to apply!

These few days have been very busy. It's supposed to be my school holiday lor! Nana has left, haiz, no more easy access, but there's still sms, just that it's a lil more expensive, yeah, just a "lil" more.

i love my new ipod, because there's no more such things as no space for my songs. Now it's freedom of transferring my songs from my cd collection. i just need couple of hrs to transfer another 10 discs worth of songs. Thank u for the ipod, it's indeed a pleasant surprise.

Next wk, back to school, i dunno how...but one thing for sure, i know that i've not started preparing for my lessons next wk. i'm so dead! But i think i need to get a life for now.


Dance-An expression of LOVE that flows from my heart
at 12:26 AM

Friday, March 09, 2007

Today is the last day of school! Woei wee!!!!!!!!!!!! Haiz, today i gave up my all and screamed in class at the top of my voice, to my very max. Now my throat is sore. Boys are really noisier than girls! Argh!!!

Anyway, it's gonna be a relaxing afternoon, i postponed my private teaching classes, so that i can have a gd rest. Next week's holiday is gonna be so short, it's only 5 days - 2 days that i dun teach...haiya....ok, i shan't complain. Somemore i need to catch up with my lessons prep during the holidays, what holiday??


Dance-An expression of LOVE that flows from my heart
at 12:01 PM

i kept them all in my head, waited for this time of the night.

The only way - deal with it, say goodbye, and hold my peace for the night. I've clean forgotten every lil detail i tried so hard to remember, because i decided to just flush away these unimportant stuff.

Went to St James Power Station just now. Ok, look here, I DIDN'T GO THERE TO CHIONG. i only went there for dinner. Visited the station kitchen. The food portion was kinda huge. I couldn't finish my food, prob had too much for the other meals today.

Wat's that cafe in vivo called? Nice drinks...

Thank u for always being there to answer my calls of distress, of boredom and ranting. i've thanked God for this easy access that i will never take for granted. Anyway, you're just an sms away. Yay!


Dance-An expression of LOVE that flows from my heart
at 12:49 AM

Thursday, March 08, 2007

It's been a long time.

Haven't been stuck to my computer all day this wk. This wk, apart from being super busy with things and errands, i managed to squeeze in two buffet dinners in 3 days. Yes, i'm so putting on lotsa weight. Especially the periodic eating in school when u have nothing better to do. Ah, that doesn't help at all. Anyway, this wk has been quite good, heart not strained. It's quite cool also, because there are things which are supposed to strain me more but apprarently doesn't hurt me at all, hahha c-na quick faint!

I lunga-ed my car again, have been feeling kinda gek, never felt so gek b4, but i think this was such an innocent accident??? i wonder what was up my head. Eyes and brain just didn't connect??

Am looking forward to this wkend. I trust that the Lord will inspire and put new things in my heart for His work on earth.

This is your last wkend. Make the best use of it my dear. We have a very impt show to watch, are u ready??

Anyway, Lord, i thank u again for how u choose to bless abundantly in that particular area that touches my heart and means most to me. I trust u.


Dance-An expression of LOVE that flows from my heart
at 10:49 AM

Sunday, March 04, 2007

It's a full moon.

Mr Bean movie is coming out soon. Anybody?

i finally completed my keying in of marks for my 9 classes. Insane job. Tmr is monday. It's monday blues again. I'm feeling better on a sunday as compared to last time. But i dun guarantee i'll be alright when i wake up tmr. i have not looked at my diary for next wk. i dun dare too. But i will, tomorrow.

It was a great weekend, though a tiring one.

Today was a full day of church, guitar course and nothing else. The day's incentive was the time at daily scoop. i hope the SIP campaign doesn't restart, otherwise i'll really deem myself as pathetic.

VERY.


Dance-An expression of LOVE that flows from my heart
at 11:36 PM

Saturday, March 03, 2007

Tonight, as i sit here typing, i'm reminded about the time where i was made to sing that song on my own during cell retreat in the midst of the storm that was rocking my boat to the point where i was breaking. Today, i stand firm on the decision that i made months back, to walk forward, never desiring again that kind of emotionally screwed up life, a life that drained pple ard me, a life that depended so much on living things on earth but God.

I'm weak, but i believe God has given us power and strength to remain calm on the boat that is constantly rocking in the storm. So being weak is NOT an excuse to live a life that is pathetic. It's interesting coz the devil really knows how to rock the boat, he knows what buttons to push. Now i'm going thru another round of test. And it's just like the games u play in the arcade. Round 2 fight!

It's crazy, we humans really spend too much time thinking and being upset abt things which are less impt than what's impt. HELLO????? Say goodbye to crap and say hi to more impt things in the Lord's kingdom!

The new week is coming. This time i've no guts to look at my diary. Wakey wakey.....


Dance-An expression of LOVE that flows from my heart
at 11:54 PM

Friday, March 02, 2007

I'm mad. I feel like i am a blood sucker. I drain pple of their blood. Am i a vampire? Tell me i am...

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