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Loves God's creation, Loves travels, Loves beaches........
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+ elenatan@gmail.com
Full time music teacher
Loves God's creation, Loves travels, Loves beaches........
Wednesday, February 28, 2007
The S-I-P campaign starts now.
I'm so screwed up.
How have i been managing my friendships?
To the point that i've been asked that question?
I'm so sorry.... =(
Maybe it's really time to re-evaluate what's really impt and what is worth yr time. Setting aside time intentionally to really spend time with someone is important. The famous phrase goes...Action speaks louder than words... Otherwise, when u start drifting further and further, be prepared to say your goodbyes.
To my emo-coaster: enough is enough.
Why???
It takes two freaking hands to clap!!
Test again ah??
i cannot already....always chasing after the wind.
Blow wind blow.
I love swings. Swinging, swinging home, swinging, swinging home...
Someone came and nudged me today not to give up. Yeah it helps, i'm gonna consider it once more. And i know i need the strong conviction to follow thru and see it come to pass.
i lurve this. So nice.
What Right do u have?
Basically no rights.
Life seems unfair. But God did guarantee fairness - eternity. He'll equalize the books in eternity. Leave the outcome to Him.
Reflections for the CNY
Aiyo, what do i like abt CNY? Actually it's just like another holiday break to me. No house visitations = No angbaos. It's ok la, the money's a bonus anyway. i'm probably fated to work hard for money all my life. No free lunch u call that.
CNY's eve, went to sentosa. CNY first day was erm....Went to church in the morning, and then to clarke quay/esplanade in the afternoon. Finally got a life on the 2nd day of CNY. Woke up late, and then went out to do some grocery shopping with sister. After that, the life begins, all the way till late at night.
Today, woke up late again, went to Shir's place. The company was fun, the food was YUM YUM! We had our chef with us la. Highly entertained by Janice's dog, yeah, the dog loves me, kept kissing me. Obviously my energy level wasn't as high as Bube, started dozing off.
Argh, 3 days of CNY just passed like that! Time to get back to work. Brace brace brace myself up. Anyway, i dun think i've the "right" to feel depressed abt tmr. God has already done His part. It's time for me to learn abt contentment.
It's a new day afterall,
it's a new day afterall,
it's a new day afterall,
it's a new, new day!
Jiayou!
i need to get a life. Tmr will be the time of my life. I'm gg outdoors again!
i know when i need to take my dose. And i've already reached the empty line in my cup. Need God to fill it up again. I know it, when i start to get less peaceful within me.
Pro-actively go find yr own happiness. Sometimes, sitting there and waiting for something to happen will take eternity.
No, enough is enough.
Girlfriends are the Bestest Gifts Ever!
I love them. Lunch went to some cafe, which obviously offer pretty poor service. Oh well, since it's vdae, I didn't make any noise.
Spent my afternoon at macs, ooh, i love that place, coz i just have to buy half a drink, i can use free internet and also bring my own snacks to party. Hee Hee, yeah... did what i had to do, with my bestest company by my side. We were there to brighten each other's day.
An evening, with a cart, yeah, our indoor picnic, but with company which u can't find elsewhere. My two precious angels.... Laughter that no one else could get out of me..yeah, indeed i'm contented. Looking at the streams of couples with flowers walking down the lanes as i was on my way back, i didn't feel anything. I guess God knows better the season for me. =)
Slept at 2 plus, ended my day with a conversation that has been waiting to take place for days. Thank You for sacrificing sleeping time.
Now..it's time to relearn how to deal with life, God's way.
I feel totally like a fool. But take comfort, that i'm not trying. I'm not even waiting.
Yes, i'm upset, again...argh crap, i asked for it. Who asked me to be so KAPO???
Anyway, i think it's better that i do it now than be hurt further. U stay over there, dun come near me!
Anyway, u devil, ur another one, trying to break friendships up, u try, u continue trying...buzz off! Nana is right, for this, ur not gg to get yr way. Try harder.
And that nonsense problem too...How? Self-inflicting pain? How long can that last? One week? Two weeks? At the end of one wk, i probably would have cried myself to sleep like 7 days in a row. I'm weak, so so so weak.
See? So fast and i've another huge stone weighing me down my back.
THIS IS C-R-A-P.
Happy Valentine's Day to U.
i am struggling. But also, i know i am embracing the struggling. The more the pain hurts, the more i will persevere to struggle thru. The more i dun get it, the more i'll avoid it. If it comes, i'll still avoid it so that my strength of perseverance can be tested. I dunno if it's really an issue, or issit a natural feeling that i have because of my nature and character. If it's nothing wrong, then i'll just continue living with it and try to be happy, otherwise, i think i'll need a breakthrough because it is really becoming too much for a human being to handle.
Retail therapy is always gd. It has since been one of the most effective ways of relieving pains. U just need unlimited and endless supply of money to keep u going.
HAHA.
Yesterday was talking to a good friend on the phone, and we agreed that i need to get out of this monday blues syndrome. And what's the real reason that i'm like that? Only my heart knows. So get out of it. This is life, and u said u didn't want control over it. So deal with it.
This week and next wk is CNY week. Everything seems to come to a halt during this festive season. But after CNY i reckon i'm gg to start getting down to kicking some asses. But first, let me kick my own. The goodies are yummy, and i've started feasting. Looks like i've to make a lose-5kg resolution again soon!
Yesterday went to sentosa for a time of nature-inhaling. That is my life. Played the luge again. This time, haha, i wasn't a tortoise. Sentosa has nice stars! I've never left sentosa that late b4, that's why i've never seen stars there. But yesterday was really a sight! Lord, give me ONE star...just one star please???? I love darkness, i love quietness, i love the serenity. And i so needed that.
Yawn...i'm ultra sleepy. My 'pi qi' has been rather short recently. Rubber band has lost its elasticity. I can't be stretched. I'll just snap. Immediately. Maybe i've been too patient that i'm being crawled on all over. But i have my limits.
This Chinese New Year's gonna be interesting. Primarily because it's gg to be a repeat of last yr's Chinese New Year. Basically won't be doing any house visitation to my relatives on the first two days. So if any of u would like to invite me over to yr house, u may do so, just prepare an angbao for me..thank u very much. =) i remember last yr i was at Shirley's place mahjonging on the first day of CNY.
Long day today. I finally settled my hair, after mentioning abt wanting to do it since last yr. Finally i've found a solid afternoon to spend at the salon. Yeah, it takes quite abit of effort to get myself down there, coz it's just tiring to sit there for 3 full hrs. But i can't wash my hair tonight b4 sleeping???? Oh yucks....
Went to chinatown at night, to breathe in the CNY air. Erm, ok lor......liddat lor..the things there weren't that exciting except for the fact that we managed to eat where we wanted, buy what we needed and wanted.
Lord, let tmr be a day that i rise beyond my own strength and depend on u. i could never survive on my own.
Once i have made up my mind...there no turning back...in my dictionary, there's no such thing as to try out and then give up halfway.
All my life, i've been pretty confident whenever i make a decision, because if i'm not confident, then i will not make that decision. This time, it's really a test of my faith. How many times do i have to be reminded to trust God and not trust myself? The fear of being overly stretched? This time it's a time span of 7 months. The last time was only 2.5 months. Having to reorganise my priorities sucks. And though it's a passion, i dun particularly excel in it. $$ is another factor. Just when i think i am gg to start saving some money, every cent of it will go into this.
Lord, i asked for the opportunity, now u opened the door for me. Now, if this is yr will, i need a double portion of yr affirmation and strength, the perseverance and determination to follow thru what has been started.
Take my heavy heart.....
Someone nice came to pick me up today, bring me for breakfast and then drive me to school. At 7.30am in the morning. Neat. It would be even better if i could bring u to work with me. But i shall learn to be contented. =)
i can't believe this...i haven't blogged for a week???
Sigh, i've been sick all week. Down with flu. Serious flu this time, so sick that i've to see a doctor. Usually i'll just rest and recover. But because this time i've to work, and i dun wanna take MC..so i guai guai went to see a doctor. i hope i recover in 2 days' time..can't stand being sick for so long.
Went to sentosa last tues...yeah in my sick state. Spent half my afternoon chatting, the other half lying in the sun, hoping that i'll feel better from that runny nose of mine.
Had a very interesting and cool dinner on friday. Just when u think that everywhere is boring....someone discovers interesting stuff...
Anyway, today is sunday. Another new week coming up. I'm so not looking forward to it. Nowadays, my sundays are like that...the moody feeling gets into me once the clock hits 6pm. This takes alot of brain and mental effort to brace myself up.
i've been having far too many mood swings recently. My PMS is far too early and premature. Just what's wrong with me??? Sigh....
at 11:01 AM
How have i been managing my friendships?
To the point that i've been asked that question?
I'm so sorry.... =(
Maybe it's really time to re-evaluate what's really impt and what is worth yr time. Setting aside time intentionally to really spend time with someone is important. The famous phrase goes...Action speaks louder than words... Otherwise, when u start drifting further and further, be prepared to say your goodbyes.
To my emo-coaster: enough is enough.
at 1:11 AM
It takes two freaking hands to clap!!
Test again ah??
i cannot already....always chasing after the wind.
Blow wind blow.
at 11:05 PM
Someone came and nudged me today not to give up. Yeah it helps, i'm gonna consider it once more. And i know i need the strong conviction to follow thru and see it come to pass.
at 4:50 PM
i lurve this. So nice.
at 2:59 PM
Wow, it's been some time since i wrote abt what's happening. Whatever written here is for my own archiving purposes, so for those of u avid readers out there, u may choose and select what u wanna read.
Well, had to pick up the momentum for work again, after that CNY holiday dream. Was Esther's birthday last sat, Oooo...happy birthday! Haha, backdate ok...
Anyways, we went to Night Safari last friday. Love that place manz...uber nice. The whole place is practically dark, feels at one point that i'm in some survival camp. Super fun! I enjoyed looking at the bats, which at some point started flying above my head. Fortunately i'm short, not like someone...HAHAHHA.
Sat was cell visitation. Sian...i wasn't supposed to get emotional. All that listening 50 times a day, and rehearsing...n still i screwed it up. Mad.
Sunday went to Escape theme park with chris-neh and Esther-neh. Sat couple of vomit inducing rides but haiz, that place is not nice la. Except for the Go Kart aka daytona that i was really very scared of initially. Imagine running out of gas when i was going uphill??? Ok, but i think that was the only enjoyable thing. Later, went Pasir Ris Park to chill, wah i so needed that man, to prep myself for the new week.
Well, had to pick up the momentum for work again, after that CNY holiday dream. Was Esther's birthday last sat, Oooo...happy birthday! Haha, backdate ok...
Anyways, we went to Night Safari last friday. Love that place manz...uber nice. The whole place is practically dark, feels at one point that i'm in some survival camp. Super fun! I enjoyed looking at the bats, which at some point started flying above my head. Fortunately i'm short, not like someone...HAHAHHA.
Sat was cell visitation. Sian...i wasn't supposed to get emotional. All that listening 50 times a day, and rehearsing...n still i screwed it up. Mad.
Sunday went to Escape theme park with chris-neh and Esther-neh. Sat couple of vomit inducing rides but haiz, that place is not nice la. Except for the Go Kart aka daytona that i was really very scared of initially. Imagine running out of gas when i was going uphill??? Ok, but i think that was the only enjoyable thing. Later, went Pasir Ris Park to chill, wah i so needed that man, to prep myself for the new week.
Ok, this wk is gonna be crazy. I mean it - CRAZY. i've 10 classes of work to mark and complete, worst thing is i'll only get the last 4 sets of work on friday. How to make it u tell me??????? But God is really teaching me how to let go of things that will cause me more stress than joy. And i need to get on with my book reading.
"Our relationship is worth more than earthly pleasures or treasures...."
Amen.
"Our relationship is worth more than earthly pleasures or treasures...."
Amen.
at 11:41 AM
Basically no rights.
Life seems unfair. But God did guarantee fairness - eternity. He'll equalize the books in eternity. Leave the outcome to Him.
at 10:41 AM
Aiyo, what do i like abt CNY? Actually it's just like another holiday break to me. No house visitations = No angbaos. It's ok la, the money's a bonus anyway. i'm probably fated to work hard for money all my life. No free lunch u call that.
CNY's eve, went to sentosa. CNY first day was erm....Went to church in the morning, and then to clarke quay/esplanade in the afternoon. Finally got a life on the 2nd day of CNY. Woke up late, and then went out to do some grocery shopping with sister. After that, the life begins, all the way till late at night.
Today, woke up late again, went to Shir's place. The company was fun, the food was YUM YUM! We had our chef with us la. Highly entertained by Janice's dog, yeah, the dog loves me, kept kissing me. Obviously my energy level wasn't as high as Bube, started dozing off.
Argh, 3 days of CNY just passed like that! Time to get back to work. Brace brace brace myself up. Anyway, i dun think i've the "right" to feel depressed abt tmr. God has already done His part. It's time for me to learn abt contentment.
It's a new day afterall,
it's a new day afterall,
it's a new day afterall,
it's a new, new day!
Jiayou!
at 11:27 PM
I LOVE THE BEACH!!!!!!!
What are u laughing at ah, c-neh.....
Look at this!
What are u laughing at ah, c-neh.....
Ok i admit i was vain, but i really love the sand....lurve it lurve it luuurrrrve it!
Is your moustache the source of your knowledge? u think i was flirting?
Look at this!
I love the sun, the sand, the sea. LOTS.
Thank God for good weather. Woke up this morning and saw rain, but there was peace in my heart. Because i know God is good, and He'll make it possible for us to go for our outdoor activity in the afternoon. =)
Quick lunch at fong seng, been a long time since we went there. Drove into sentosa. Had quite an adventure getting there. At pasir panjang area, i went up this flyover looking thing which actually leads to ECP (the expressway). Too late...i couldn't change direction. Next exit was Brani Gate. Well done to me. Only the huge container trucks take this exit. i didn't care la, i went, made an illegal right turn in front of their cc tv camera and then i was on the right track to sentosa! Phew! The lady didn't charge me for my car entrance fee, think she was too blur. By the time we realised, i already drove off! YAY!
i was right, sentosa's visitors today were mainly made up of tourists and non-chinese singaporeans. Prob the rest of the world was doing last min shopping. We found our perfect spot, believe God chose that place for us. Took only 1 second for us to spot that shelter. And then the time began. Initially the weather was cooling, no sun... Later the sun came out, scorching hot!
For more information about the day's happenings...pls log into my beloved Partner in crime's account http://6um5hak1n--p1san9.blogspot.com/ where everything was so beautifully captured by my camera (Thank you thank you!) and her photographic memory!
Anyway, i really thank God for the time there. It was an afternoon well spent, and a precious time i longed for. You made it possible gal, thanks. =)
Had reunion dinner this evening, really thankful for my darling mummy who put in the effort to whip up those dishes. Yay, round 2 two days later!
at 1:50 AM
i know when i need to take my dose. And i've already reached the empty line in my cup. Need God to fill it up again. I know it, when i start to get less peaceful within me.
Pro-actively go find yr own happiness. Sometimes, sitting there and waiting for something to happen will take eternity.
No, enough is enough.
at 12:29 AM
I love them. Lunch went to some cafe, which obviously offer pretty poor service. Oh well, since it's vdae, I didn't make any noise.
Spent my afternoon at macs, ooh, i love that place, coz i just have to buy half a drink, i can use free internet and also bring my own snacks to party. Hee Hee, yeah... did what i had to do, with my bestest company by my side. We were there to brighten each other's day.
An evening, with a cart, yeah, our indoor picnic, but with company which u can't find elsewhere. My two precious angels.... Laughter that no one else could get out of me..yeah, indeed i'm contented. Looking at the streams of couples with flowers walking down the lanes as i was on my way back, i didn't feel anything. I guess God knows better the season for me. =)
Slept at 2 plus, ended my day with a conversation that has been waiting to take place for days. Thank You for sacrificing sleeping time.
Now..it's time to relearn how to deal with life, God's way.
at 11:00 AM
Yes, i'm upset, again...argh crap, i asked for it. Who asked me to be so KAPO???
Anyway, i think it's better that i do it now than be hurt further. U stay over there, dun come near me!
Anyway, u devil, ur another one, trying to break friendships up, u try, u continue trying...buzz off! Nana is right, for this, ur not gg to get yr way. Try harder.
And that nonsense problem too...How? Self-inflicting pain? How long can that last? One week? Two weeks? At the end of one wk, i probably would have cried myself to sleep like 7 days in a row. I'm weak, so so so weak.
See? So fast and i've another huge stone weighing me down my back.
THIS IS C-R-A-P.
Happy Valentine's Day to U.
at 2:46 AM
Retail therapy is always gd. It has since been one of the most effective ways of relieving pains. U just need unlimited and endless supply of money to keep u going.
HAHA.
at 2:12 PM
This week and next wk is CNY week. Everything seems to come to a halt during this festive season. But after CNY i reckon i'm gg to start getting down to kicking some asses. But first, let me kick my own. The goodies are yummy, and i've started feasting. Looks like i've to make a lose-5kg resolution again soon!
Yesterday went to sentosa for a time of nature-inhaling. That is my life. Played the luge again. This time, haha, i wasn't a tortoise. Sentosa has nice stars! I've never left sentosa that late b4, that's why i've never seen stars there. But yesterday was really a sight! Lord, give me ONE star...just one star please???? I love darkness, i love quietness, i love the serenity. And i so needed that.
at 10:10 AM
at 4:52 PM
at 5:41 PM
Went to chinatown at night, to breathe in the CNY air. Erm, ok lor......liddat lor..the things there weren't that exciting except for the fact that we managed to eat where we wanted, buy what we needed and wanted.
Lord, let tmr be a day that i rise beyond my own strength and depend on u. i could never survive on my own.
at 11:06 PM
All my life, i've been pretty confident whenever i make a decision, because if i'm not confident, then i will not make that decision. This time, it's really a test of my faith. How many times do i have to be reminded to trust God and not trust myself? The fear of being overly stretched? This time it's a time span of 7 months. The last time was only 2.5 months. Having to reorganise my priorities sucks. And though it's a passion, i dun particularly excel in it. $$ is another factor. Just when i think i am gg to start saving some money, every cent of it will go into this.
Lord, i asked for the opportunity, now u opened the door for me. Now, if this is yr will, i need a double portion of yr affirmation and strength, the perseverance and determination to follow thru what has been started.
Take my heavy heart.....
at 8:30 AM
at 1:38 PM
Sigh, i've been sick all week. Down with flu. Serious flu this time, so sick that i've to see a doctor. Usually i'll just rest and recover. But because this time i've to work, and i dun wanna take MC..so i guai guai went to see a doctor. i hope i recover in 2 days' time..can't stand being sick for so long.
Went to sentosa last tues...yeah in my sick state. Spent half my afternoon chatting, the other half lying in the sun, hoping that i'll feel better from that runny nose of mine.
Had a very interesting and cool dinner on friday. Just when u think that everywhere is boring....someone discovers interesting stuff...
Anyway, today is sunday. Another new week coming up. I'm so not looking forward to it. Nowadays, my sundays are like that...the moody feeling gets into me once the clock hits 6pm. This takes alot of brain and mental effort to brace myself up.
i've been having far too many mood swings recently. My PMS is far too early and premature. Just what's wrong with me??? Sigh....
at 10:52 PM
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