+ Elenana
+ 04 Jan
+ elenatan@gmail.com

Full time music teacher
Loves God's creation, Loves travels, Loves beaches........
Monday, January 29, 2007

Today was quite an interesting day. I woke up, feeling really down, didn't wanna wake up, i just wanted to hide in bed and sulk. Woke up at 6am, no strength man, so i decided to go back to sleep. Decided to skip chapel, and just stay in bed. Thought my first lesson in school was 940am, later realised it was 9am. After getting an energy-boosting morning call, i got out of bed. By God's grace, i got to school on the dot.

Last wk was hectic. Though i tried, i didn't manage to prepare my lessons eventually. Went to school with nothing, no lesson planned, nothing. By God's grace, i managed to crystalise some ideas in my head of what to do in class while walking to class. Teaching two levels, i had to prepare two sets of lessons every wk. Interestingly, this week is the first time that 40 mins for the lesson was not enough. So yeah, God is good, especially when i do this kind of thing like treading on thin line.

Thank God he sustained me. Came home had to teach, then i managed to catch an hr of rest. Went to meet some friends.


Dance-An expression of LOVE that flows from my heart
at 10:55 PM

Sunday, January 28, 2007

The weekend is once again over. Not looking forward to school tmr. Lotsa work undone. i can't believe myself. What great faith i have. But i did promise God i'll work hard. I will, i must, i can!

This weekend was a hectic one. Wanted to stay home on friday evening to prepare for next wk's lessons. But had to change my plans to go out to run errands. So i didn't get any school work done all weekend. Didn't sleep on saturday night. Was desperately working on something very urgent.

The highlight of my weekend was "THE NIGHT OF WORSHIP" organised by Shachah Ministries. It was held at St Andrews Junior School. It was a fantastic time of just being in God's presence, releasing yet again positive energy. The atmosphere that night was splendid, not something i would have imagined. i felt that overflowing joy coming out of me. Though i knew i had a long night ahead of me, i traded my physical and mental tiredness with the Lord for a spirit of perseverance and joy. I danced, i danced really hard. Some steps reminded me of my ballet bar exercises. There was a lot of free style. By the way, for those of u who didn't know..i'm a great fan of tambourine dancing, primarily because i danced when i was very young for Festival of Praise. Yesterday was a time of reminiscing my childhood days of dancing. Dancing is a very important tool in God's ministry. God can use dancing in spiritual warfare, dealing with dark forces in the spiritual realm, breaking down generation curses and bondages.

Anyway, i couldn't help it, tears of joy just kept flowing. God was good. He chose such a time as this, a time that i was most down, most overwhelmed, to experience His power in such a manner. Anyway, i'll be starting my classes soon to revive and pursue my dreams. That's not the highlight. The highlight is guessing who will be attending this with me. Some shock is gd. But this is the ultimate surprise.

Next wk, a new wk. i need strength. Recently feeling less upbeat. And u know pple can't be there with u 24-7. Learning what is it like to just enjoy solitude, learning how to swim on your own when there's no one there. So what is still keeping me moody?


Dance-An expression of LOVE that flows from my heart
at 9:51 PM

Thursday, January 25, 2007

Feeling so down....

Thank You for being the faithful one that i can blabber to at anytime of the day. Sigh, i'm feeling very down now, this very moment...my colleagues are all leaving already, because they are also feeling up to their neck so all of them are gg out to eat instead of staying in this cold place. Tears filled my eyes, but argh, i know inside me that God has built up in me an inner quality of steel belted strength. There's just so much to do. So so so so much. This weekend is going to be a busy weekend and there are things still left hanging. Sigh, i'm only human. With God's strength i can pull thru, but with my own, i'm probably sucked dry already. i feel like a rubber band, just being stretched and tested. This is crazy. Can i just quit everything?


Dance-An expression of LOVE that flows from my heart
at 3:17 PM

A long day out yesterday. Amazing that a school teacher can dig out time to do such things. Really have to thank God man. Went to superdogs for lunch yesterday, at vivo. Nice food! But i have an awefully small mouth so i ended up splitting my hot dog bread into 2, and eating my hotdog with a fork. How "skillful"!

Spent the afternoon at sentosa. Always wanted to try the luge ride and the skyride which probably is one of the newest attractions at sentosa. But it's probably 1-2 years old too, so i'm slow. The rides were cool. i finally got to take the sentosa express train. So colourful and nice. Islanders ride on them for free. i already saved $6 yesterday with my membership. Very thankful because i managed to spend some time outdoor, dwelling a place of serenity. My weekly diet otherwise i'll just slowly begin to wither.

Spent some time in vivo walking ard and chilling. I think it was gd mental rest. As usual i was very comfortable, it felt so familiar, not having to worry whether each other would mind if a certain choice was made etc, because we know each other well enough. Choice of food, likes and dislikes were similar. So well, yeah, it made things so much easier.

The candle ended the day, u seldom see me bringing a lighter out, yesterday was a rare ocassion.

Thank God for bringing pple whom u know that u can always be yourself when ur with them.


Dance-An expression of LOVE that flows from my heart
at 11:56 AM

Tuesday, January 23, 2007

I'm not dead. I'm just a lil unconscious for now. i'm no longer an owl on working days.

It's been a crazy wk. Another crazy wk ahead. But i think it's fun when ur doing meaningful things. I love preparing for my lessons, though it means working OT everyday. Working 6 days a week is no joke. It's very very very tiring. But God has given me sufficient elasticity so that i will not be stretched till i snap.


Dance-An expression of LOVE that flows from my heart
at 11:17 AM

Thursday, January 18, 2007

Twinkle Twinkle Little Star

Twinkle Twinkle Little Star,
How i wonder what you are
Up above the world so high,
Like a diamond in the sky
Twinkle Twinkle Little Star,
How i wonder what you are!

Softly shining silver moon,
Peeking at me in my room
When you're in the sky at night,
The world around me glows so bright
Softly shining silver moon,
If you go, please come back soon.


Dance-An expression of LOVE that flows from my heart
at 4:06 PM

Wednesday, January 17, 2007

Haiz...this is wat the blog is for right....to ramble...before it bites even further.

I'm particularly unhappy that i've so many things on everyday...leaving myself with crap amount of time for the things i love doing and enjoying doing. And today, it's finally coming back and biting me. It's like what the heck lor....i'm unhappy and i'm unable to do anything abt it...because this is just life and u know in life u just have to fulfill obligations and chop yrself into many parts.

But i also believe that we're given choices. Choices to make ourselves more happy or less unhappy. i know God knows...and yay....He just made me happy with a piece of news...yippee!!!!

Today i had a great talk with Jac, she's one who always inspires me in ministry. i thank God because He showed me that we're just humans and we go thru the same struggles in life. But yeah...it's really cool when u can share abt how God has blessed your life with things that u believe in. That's where God opens yr eyes to see a bigger picture of His character. =)



Dance-An expression of LOVE that flows from my heart
at 11:05 PM

Monday, January 15, 2007

Another week has passed. And yet the start of a brand new week. We're already into the 3rd week of the year, what have i done?

School's been good. Erm, boys are not exactly very well behaved, i've to pract talking louder than 30 boys in my class to get their attention. But.... i enjoy and appreciate the culture in ACS. But i really dislike my air condition in the office, super freaking cold!

My life now is so packed with different obligations, and i think i don't even have time to do whatever i used to love doing. How sad. Yesterday, i was beginning to feel that emptiness in me. Yes, i connect thru quality time. I need to spend that quality time with God in order for my cup to be filled. Though i really appreciate having my personal desk at work so that i can do my morning devotions everyday, but there's another part of me that really needs my regular retreat outdoors.

Today's chapel talked abt being peacemakers. Peacemakers need to find that peace, quiet and tranquility in their lives first before they can be peacemakers.

God, fill my cup, fill my cup.
Fill it to the brim and let me overflow...




Dance-An expression of LOVE that flows from my heart
at 10:32 AM

Wednesday, January 10, 2007

In God's Presence....

2-3 years ago, i remember sharing with my cell that how i feel God's presence is by a physical gust of wind in my body. Everytime i pray or worship, i can feel His spirit in my body. Obviously i supposed no one understood what i meant then. Just last yr when i was being prayed for at one of the retreats that i attended, the power of His Spirit was so strong, that my body began to heat up and i began to sweat, in a COLD AIRCON room.

Only yesterday, when i was reading a book, and i began to realise that all these experiences that i had with the physical touch of the Lord is real!! And then i realised, this is actually how God chooses to show me that He is real and His spirit is physically there with me!

Interesting...


Dance-An expression of LOVE that flows from my heart
at 2:53 PM

Tuesday, January 09, 2007

Thank you for your words of encouragement and appreciation because they are really God's affirmation to me that wherever He has placed me, is where He'll use me. All these years, i've dedicated my time solely to private teaching and the only thing that has been keeping me going is my personal desire to see how God will fulfill His purposes thru me. Now, He has allowed me to peep into His blueprint of plans and show me that i've been walking the right direction.


Dance-An expression of LOVE that flows from my heart
at 4:26 PM

One Fine Sunday....



The mac Men



The mac ladies


The Cell group at V8 during Sunday Lunch.


Dance-An expression of LOVE that flows from my heart
at 1:34 PM

Sunday, January 07, 2007

Friday

Last friday, after work, went out for dinner with the PIC. Went to curry favour at city hall. Jap cruisine. YUM. C-na was as usual crazy over the ambience. After dinner, went to Raffles hotel to chill. Shirley actually made a booking somewhere else open air but because it was raining, we had to find a backup alternative. Mel came to join us later on. Anyhow, i am really thankful that i could celebrate my birthday together with my gang this yr. Last yr, we were pretty scattered because of work commitments etc. Also i mentioned that it's been a long time since we chilled till so late. Body also unable to take too much late nights. All in all, really enjoyed the company of these pals. Thanks brainy bobo for organizing. =)

Saturday

Had Psalmist Core Meeting for 6 hrs. Feel sick in the morning, stomach flu. Got me so restless the whole day. Lost of appetite, bodyache, vomit sensation, headache etc.

Sunday

Was blessed by Sunday service today. God really taught me how to give my all to him through my expression of worship. It's a great way to start the year! i want to end it well too! Cell went out for lunch after svc. Been a long time since we had so many pple at the dining time. 21 pax in all. I've been really blessed because every year, i've the company of the whole cell celebrating my birthday with me =)

i think i have been living in complete bliss this week. It's time to enter into reality, Elena. Lord, prepare me for this new wk. Give me Your divine strength to rise above my physical strength, emotional strength, and mental strength because without U, i really cannot function at all. Breathe yr spirit and life into me. All this i ask in Your Name...

AMEN.


Dance-An expression of LOVE that flows from my heart
at 10:08 PM

Friday, January 05, 2007

A Year Older....A Girl Happier...

i thank God for what He has done in my life. Looking back at 4th Jan 2006, things were probably not as smooth sailing. Not that things are smooth sailing now, but i dare say, i've grown stronger.

Yesterday was a day to commemorate my first day of work and turning a year older. My day at ACS was ok, better than i expected. I had one cup of coffee, and that lasted me the whole day. I'm hoping to live without it coz i drink it only for the caffeine. Boys in school were quite playful, but i also enjoyed talking to them. These guys are intelligent pple. At the end of my last class, as i was walking back to my office, i was just asking the Lord to enable me to spiritually impact the boys. This is a christian environment, i should not fear to bring His Word into class. Spent my afternoon in the freezing office, trying to prepare my lesson for next wk. I'm obviously behind time, otherwise i wouldn't stay back in office on my special day.

Went for dinner, my favourite cruisine. This is the first time i'm just ate freely, haha, thank God for the meal. =) Thanks to my faithful supporter for indulging with me. Went WCP for a while, and then went home.

Got home, maid took years to open the door for me, i thought she died in her sleep or something. She never took so long to respond to me before. When she finally opened, i almost wanted to eat her up. Suddenly to my left, i saw someone familiar. It was C-na! Neway, to cut the story short, this mastermind n her accomplice ganged up and it was a pleasant surprise. Came to my place to sing birthday song and cut cake. Quite cool, because it was probably something that i would never have dreamt of receiving, though it's something that i would do for someone else. Obviously C-na's accomplice's acting was rather convincing. But, without my unknowing cooperation, do u think u guys would have succeeded? Wahahha. Thanks again C-na, that effort was a great blessing to me!


Dance-An expression of LOVE that flows from my heart
at 8:16 AM

Wednesday, January 03, 2007

CAMERON HIGHLANDS

If i have describe my holiday in Cameron, i'd called it SPLENDID! Went with Shirley, Isadora and Esther! Cameron is a beautiful place, and i just love it! The journey up on the bus was a killer for me, too cold, it was "ONLY 18 degrees" as the bus uncle told us...he had a choice to make it 25 degrees but he chose to kill us with 18 degrees. Anyway, i was freezing all night, 9 hr journey. When we finally reached, had breakfast, and then checked into our hotel.

Went out for a walk outside our hotel, we were located at a pretty decent place, with pretty decent shops ard us. The shops were more or less the same, either selling vegetables and fruits, flowers, or strawberry-looking toys and souvenirs. At night, we went to Brinchang night market, and also had steamboat for dinner. Very cheap, 13 RM per pax, and we ate until we couldn't eat anymore.

The second day, we signed up for an AROUND-CAMERON HIGHLAND-TOUR. With an overpriced amount of 320RM, the four of us were sitting in a 32-year old merc cab, driven by a very happening taxi driver-cum-our-tourguide. Anyway, this guy made out trip really fun, i was "suaned" by him on many occasions. Until now, i'm still wondering if it was because i had this "suan-me" face. We went to 9 different places, tea plantation, bee farm, flower farm, strawberry/vegetable farm, tea valley to drink tea, 2 waterfalls (did quite a bit of "trekking" there). Yeah, Elena's favourite activities! I love the weather, it was cold but shiok. God was good, both days he only sent drizzle of blessings, once to tell us to go have dinner, the other to say that we should end the tour here today. We went to pick strawberries at the farm, so fun! Salad there was at its freshest state too.

Anyway, in the evening, went out to do some last minute shopping, bought some flowers. Headed back to hotel for dinner, and then..i thought of the craziest thing to do! Went downstairs to get ice cream, and then we headed out, sat down on the bench in the cold, and started eating ice cream, without our jackets! Shiok, though we had two friends freezing and shivering out there in the cold. Hey, mind u i was wearing a sleeveless top, and i was without my boots! But i really loved it manz...reminded me of the time i was in Sydney with Shir and Janice, eating ice cream along the waterfront.

Headed back to the hotel, Esther and Isadora played pool. Had an early night. In all, i really thank God, because i saw His faithful hand upon us during this trip.

Thank U Lord for blessing us with more than we could ever imagine. Thank You for how You have used this trip to end 2006 and start 2007 for 4 of us. Thank You for bringing us to see your beautiful creation. Thank You for knowing our heart's desire. Thank You for speaking to us during the trip. Thank You for yr affirmation and Your assurance to us.

Everything i commit to memory, the laughter, the tears, the joy, the pain, our time together, our love for each other. Thank You Lord. =)


Dance-An expression of LOVE that flows from my heart
at 10:55 AM