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Full time music teacher
Loves God's creation, Loves travels, Loves beaches........
+ 04 Jan
+ elenatan@gmail.com
Full time music teacher
Loves God's creation, Loves travels, Loves beaches........
Wednesday, November 29, 2006
Sigh....Today Mum and Jean left for Taiwan..i'm depressed!!!! They are my life at home...without them....i'm all alone. i was controlling my emotions at the airport...i dun like separation...But still i will count my blessing.
I just came back an hour ago from ACS. Went to see my Dean, yeah...i was the one who arranged for the meeting because i know i've alot to prepare. Anyway, i love her lots...she knows what she's doing...and yet she's not too mean or bossy. She's a fantastic boss....and i know i'm going to learn a lot working with her. She brought me everywhere to get admin stuff done, and also intro me to some teachers. Also intro-ed me to the Deputy Principal who was also very very nice..They seem more excited than me. HAHA!!! Also, i thank God because my Dean decided to get me my personal desk. Yippee!!! Utmost importance man!!! My desk is my life in school. Went thru the scheme of work today. I have a lot to do, in the month of december, have to start prep my lessons plans. Two full days of staff meetings to look forward to, ok, it's gonna be dreadful, but i shall brace myself for them!!!
Gotta prepare myself mentally for the new environment, new challenges, many senior female and male teachers that are alot more experienced than i am.
God, i commit everything into yr hands, u're my navigator. i wanna make the best of 2007...
Pitter Patter Pitter Patter....that's all the sound i'm hearing all day. But i thank God (despite the fact that i dun like rain) that he sent rain so that i can save money on car washing.
There was heavy rain yesterday..went to book for my tour...yippee!!! Everytime i get to go on holiday, i'll be reminded that God is faithful to provide for me. I'm not rich, i'm not loaded, i just have enough. Holiday is a luxury, especially being able to go with gd friends. Next yr, i'll probably cut down on my spontaneous trips because i'll be teaching full time. No more flexibility. But well...there's still june and december holidays. But i'll thank God in advance because He knows how to plan my time for me.
Mum's leaving tmr...sigh....finally the feeling of having no parents with u for a wk.....out of control!!!!
My Weekend
Quite an eventful weekend...probably one of the weekends that i did the most reflections too...guess it was during yesterday's cell grp session that God used to provoke some thoughts out of me...about how tough it was for me when i was doing my degree....how much i just wanted to call it quits and give up, how He brought me thru that whole course that really stretched me to what i thought was my max. I really thank God that he brought me thru. Also thru this year, how i was almost drowned in depression...but God just brought abt that breakthrough at the right time.
Today (Sunday) i finally got down to taking my graduation photo...it was quite a fun time for me, though i'm not photogenic, everything also must "gek" out...Took photo with my mum, she's the lucky one, i mean she's the honoured one, to take photo with me. Some of my smiles and laughter were provoked by my faithful fan/supporter...or else i would have continued giving more constipated smiles. The photographer was super duper patient with me. He helped me with my posture, teaching me where to put my hand, how to tilt my head etc, but the moment he turned ard....i immediately slackened and relaxed, and he had to walk back and start all over again in helping me to get my posture right. Anyway, i think it was quite a tiring process altogether, which brought me to the thought that i'll probably dread taking wedding photos.
Next wk, mum and jean gg away, fantastic....i'm gonna be so lonely at home, i mean my life at home revolves ard both of them, because the other two are perpetually in their own world. Dad's not in town, thank God for the availability of the car for the past two weeks...made getting around a luxury..esp places which are not easily accessible...though now it's getting quite dreadful driving ard.
Everytime it comes to the end of the week, my brain will naturally set to auto-planning mode. Anyway, God knows best. He'll be my planner.
Wednesday was supposed to be a crazy day of teaching...ended up a crazier day of waiting and see which students will appear. Anyway, at night i went to watch Casino Royale with Roy, Louis and Vince. Thanks Louis for extending the invitation to us. Very blessed. Was also a show that my students' mum told me that i should catch.
Thursday was probably worse because all those students that didn't appear on Wed came on thursday. Had a no-lunchbreak day, lived on an apple, but i really thank God for sustaining me. Been a long time since i had days like that. Ran some errands with mum and jean, and then went for dinner. I SLEPT AT 11PM FOR THE FIRST TIME IN DUNNO HOW MANY YEARS, the moment i came home. Sorry Shirley, u were really good in hunting me down...haha.
It's been 4 days since i last blogged. Not that i didn't want to, not that i didn't try to...but my prev entry got erased, and i couldn't recover it. So i gave up.
Anyway, last weekend was quite cool. I just know that God planned my weekend really well. Timing fell into place, car arrangements were perfect.
On friday night, i went to Pasir Ris Park to chill, looking at aeroplanes fly past one after another just made me wanna be on one of them, to fly somewhere far far away, to fulfill that one wish....
Couple of things to thank God for:
1. Thank God for bringing my student, Rebecca, down to cell on sat. Thank God also for the short conversation i had with her. He used my journey with Him and my life experiences to minister to her. To me, it was a privilege.
2. Thank God for bringing Chiman to church on Sunday. I thank God that she really made the effort to come, after so many years....Thank God for JX who was so kind to pick her up. This is the beginning, leaving everything in God's hands. Enjoyed the time spent with her on Sunday afternoon and Monday. There's so much that i picked up in that few hours.
3. Thank God for bringing Chiman to catch the Ballet Appreciation show with me. Am really thankful, thankful, thankful. The show was very inspiring. I was reminded of my ballet lessons, just that they are much betta dances. Make me really wish that i was sent for ballet lessons when i was younger.
4. Thank God for the time m'kk girls had together celebrating Diana's birthday yesterday (Mon). Probably first time we had full attendance?
5. Thank God for the previous week that had just past. It wasn't an easy time, wasn't an easy wk to go thru, but i thank God that He carried me thru. It's evident that God was there, i couldn't have been that strong, really.
6. Weekend couldn't have been that beautiful without you, big one... Thank you!
Today, i watched "Just Friends" with my friend. Haha, so literal. Oh well, at least it was a happy ending. Walked down orchard rd today, looked at the Xmas Lightup...pretty, but i dun sense the Festive mood as yet...perhaps when December comes....
Tomorrow is my crazy day. Gonna be teaching 9 students. This is my highest record in dunno how long....wish me all the best...i've a super long day....God, grant me plenty plenty plenty of strength! i can't have any afternoon nap at all. A fate worse than death haha.
Yay, by now, c-na should have been home already. Yippee!!!
Do you want to get well??
Sometimes the chains we wear shackled to our hearts become so comfortable, we get used to the pain and forget what it is like to be well. Perhaps some of us have never known. But the big question is - do you want to get well? Do you want to be free? Do you really?
Pain can become an idol. Not that we worship it in a good sense. But we worship it and allow it to control our lives. When we allow our past to control our lives and dictate our future, we are giving it the power of a god and making it an idol. We can hug our hurts and make a 'shrine' out of our sorrows or we can choose to offer them to God as a sacrifice of praise.
Lord, i really want to live a healthy emotional life. If there is something in my life I need to change to achieve good health, I pray that You will reveal it to me and that i'll have the courage to face it.
Thursday
I can't sleep!!!! And today i didn't even take my afternoon nap!!!
Anyway, the sweet-auntie just told me that she wants to go to church this sunday. So cool.....*bracing myself up for the weekend* Gotta multi-task BIG TIME. Thank God the sweet-auntie found another partner-in-crime who is willing to indulge with her. So, i can at least get both of them to entertain each other. *grinzzzzzz*
Another visit to the Bt batok nature reserve today, this time, in daylight. Cool, the serenity of that place is first class. Residing there also, are mozzies that bit me like free. Anyway, it was a pity that i didn't have my camera with me. Anyway, i'll be back again. For the photo-taking session. =)
Tmr is gonna be a long day of teaching for me. 3 new students in a row. YIKES!! Trying to look at the bright side of things..."Now Elena....think abt the year-end trip that you're gg for....These 3 new students are going to help finance it."
Thank you all for yr generous donations to Elena's Dec 2006 holiday fund. She's really grateful. It'll be a special year-end and year-start. =)
Yesterday (Wed) was a long day. Woke up early to do invigilation. Invigilation is getting more and more boring.....fortunately for me, i had Royston and Louis (my new friend) there to entertain me. Because of the nature of the job, pple taking exams, obviously we couldn't make too much noise. Jokes had to be kept to a minimum. While communicating with a few pple yesterday, it suddenly dawned on me whether the things i say reflects God in my life. Are my words, words of kindness? Not just when i feel like it, it has to be consistent.
When the exams were finally over, i heaved a sigh of relief. After struggling inside for so long, i was really thankful to walk out. We went to causeway point to jalan and have dinner. Big thanks to that two guys who made me laugh quite hard. It does take pple with quite a bit of imagination to be able to come up with such jokes!!
The christmas season is already flooding Singapore. I love Christmas. i wonder how my Christmas will be like this year....
Tuesday
Mission Trip to Tanjong Balai
It was in year 2000 that i first went to Tj balai for a short mission trip. Went there for 5 days then, to do house visitation to invite pple down for an outreach concert.
This time it was a weekend trip - 2 days 1 night. Our scope of ministry was for the ladies ministry and children ministry. Blogging some of the events that took place for my personal memories, and then my personal thanksgiving for the trip. This entry can only tell abt 30% of what i experienced over there.
On Saturday, we met at harbourfront and then took a 2 hr ferry to Balai. It rained, but when we had to travel on foot, the rain was small enough for us to walk around. We stayed at Asun's house. Before heading out to our first destination, we spent sometime aligning ourselves to the right purpose that we were there. I guess different ones of us went for different reasons, some simply just choosing to avail ourselves, some to serve, etc. God spoke clearly, to love the pple there as ourselves.
We went to the church, and then started preparing for the ladies ministry session. We did facial for the ladies, wahaha, by faith. There were four ladies who came, including Asun's wife. It's cool that the women actually entrusted their precious faces to us! While doing facial, the guys and our all-time favourite guitarist, Esther, "ministered" thru different songs, just light music in the background. It was a very warm atmosphere because we sang as we did facial for them. Though there was a short circuit, all these didn't dampen our spirits. After the facial session, we sang some hokkien praise songs and then Amber shared a short word for the ladies. She shared something very close to her heart and it touched the ladies. Set the atmosphere for ministry time. We prayed for the ladies, and i had the honour of speaking to one of the ladies there, Sally. i was really blessed by her, seeing how quickly she warmed up to me, and obviously i made a fool of myself with the chinese that i used. i wanted to tell her that one of my friend's dad is in the wood business. i ended telling her in mandarin.." wo peng you shi zuo mu de".. (My friend makes wood????)..zzzzzzz.....But it was ok, because it was something for us to laugh over, and something that she would be able to remember me with.
One of the ladies invited the group of us to her place. Nice place, seaview, my favourite. Persis, Esther and i went to another girl's house. Was supposed to be a follow-up trip but she wasn't at home. Later, we headed for dinner. We met Uncle Benedict at the dinner place, together with Adeline (Zoe tay-lookalike) and Uncle Colin. Dinner was indeed a blessing, i felt so fortunate being able to have such good food on a mission trip, and i really thank God for it. Had a very good chat with the two regulars, Uncle Colin and Adeline, i was very inspired by their commitment and love for this land. i was reminded that it's no point going into balai once in a blue moon, because then we'll always be visiting houses and asking the same questions. What that place needs is regular follow-up and commitment. Very true. They are still very very very lack of it, and the pple there are hungry for God. It was food for thought and something serious for me to think abt. Many times, we like to touch and go, but what's really important is to go deep and make an impact, which would require alot of time on our part.
After dinner, we headed to a Hair Salon, Uncle Ben's contact. He wanted to just visit her. So he brought the WHOLE group of us and we just crashed into the salon. 8 of us decided to have our hair washed, some cut. Yes, we're on mission trip but yet we could go for hairwash, what a blessing! Pure insanity and craziness, but God isn't a sadistic God, he wants us to be happy even as we do his Work. What was thought-provoking was the boldness of the adults. Uncle Ben started singing in the salon, and everyone joined in. I guess no one dared to enter the salon, was just so crowded, in that small salon. Hahaha. Persis met the girl whom we were looking for earlier that day in that salon, it was obviously God's good and perfect timing!
At night, we had a mini celebration for Thomas on the rooftop of Asun's place. The adults got him a cake.
The next day, we got up early, spent some time preparing for the craft session. Headed out to the wet market for a mini educational morning walk/tour, and then headed for breakfast. Another good session of chilling with the adults.
At 11am, we had Sunday School for the lil ones. Vincent shared on the story of Jesus and the Miraculous catch of fish. We did a short re-enactament for the children. Later, we had art and craft time.
After lunch, we went back to the church for the main svc in the afternoon. During testimony sharing, one of the ladies shared that she was very touched that we did facial for her the day before. Uncle Ben preached from James 3, using the tongue for the right purposes. During altar call, many came out for prayers. U could see how hungry these pple are for the Lord, wanting and believing that the Lord can heal, the Lord can do miracles, and that the Lord is capable to provide for their needs. i had the honour to pray for them, in English and my broken Chinese. I'm determined that before i go there again, I WILL BRUSH UP MY CHINESE VOCAB SO THAT I CAN PRAY IN CHINESE!!
Had a crazy time with the adults again on the ferry back home. i laughed so hard that i cried...was a really mad time! i really thank God, i was blessed so much more than i could ever imagine. What a mission trip, all glory is His!
1. I thank God that nothing stopped me from going for this trip. Initially i was hesitant because i had a duty to fulfill, ie. i had to play for Sunday service and it was the first service at SAS, so i had to weigh my responsibilities. I thank God that Jeremy agreed to take over my keybd duties because during one of the prayer sessions, God just placed in me the burden and desire to go on this mission trip. And i felt the peace and joy. And so i went!
2. I thank God that our preparations went very smoothly. Though it was super last min, but even during the preparations, i could see the "architect" in God. He handpicked and provided just the right people for every aspect of this trip. I thank God for every person who went. All were a blessing to me personally. In mission trips, one important element is moral support. i received more than i could ever imagine.
3. i thank God for Persis and Angeline. Angeline, for being so faithful in coming and joining us in our preparations, and for being patient with us when we were slow. Persis, for providing so much freedom for us to just "fa hui" and do whatever we wanted, as the spirit leads, yet providing the support and stability to the group. i thank God for her, and i never knew she was so mad. She's an inspiration to me, esp when it comes to ministry in the mission field.
4. Thank God for the weather, first day, it was rainy, second day it was sunny. God knew what He was doing, he didn't allow the weather to upset our plans. Thank You Lord.
5. i thank God for the adults team, they were really a big blessing to us, something that we didn't expect, but because of their great faith and boldness, we could see the faithfulness of God and how God moved in this 2 days. To my surprise, we were of rather "similar frequency", so we mixed pretty well with them. When it was time to work, we worked, when it was time to rest, all hell broke loose! Hahaha. But really, this was really something unexpected, but God knew the bigger picture.
6. I thank God for Asun's handicapped brother, Paul, though he was walking with the help of crutches, he walked faster than us. God really reminded me of how fortunate i am. Sometimes we walk a little bit also complain. Paul walks for kilometres, and he doesn't complain, doesn't throw tantrum. He isn't mentally normal like anyone of us, but yet, U could see the joy he had in the Lord. He accompanied us wherever we went, sat patiently to wait for us each time we stopped to do something. i really am very thankful for him, and i thank God for sustaining Him and allowing him to walk though only one of his leg is well.
7. It was such a blessing for us when Asun gave up his room for us to sleep in. We had aircon and we were protected from the mozzies. God, u were really good to us.
8. I thank God for every balai-ian we crossed paths with..they made us so welcomed, including the smiles on the children's faces.
9. I thank God for sustaining us, nothing serious happened, no food poisioning, nothing. He sustained me physically though i was supposed to be weak waist-down.
10. I was very happy in Balai, i love the environment there. Their simplicity was a breather for me.
Thursday
Today's a cool day....met Chiman in the afternoon for a chat. God is good. The rain was pouring very heavily. But the moment we reached the bus stop, the rain stopped completely so that we could walk and get to our destination. =) Chiman says that she also prefers haze to rain. So yay....someone finally agrees with me! HAHA! It was a good afternoon of catching up, for me, it was also a thought process and flashback of the past. Looking back, i thank God for whatever i have gone thru. Then only i can say confidently, the Lord is my deliverer!
Est came to join us for dinner, wassa super exciting time. Thanks to both of them who hit it off so well...entertaining themselves and each other with the candies they enjoy eating. It was finally rest time for me. =) Hahaha. Anyway, we also visited the pasar malam at my place. And i saw toadstools growing from the grass when we were walking back to my place!!!
i just completed cutting the paper fish for mission trip! Thank God for granting me patience and strength to cut non stop for 1.5 hrs. i must have been mad to even start.
Now, i need rest. But first, my beauty bath.
Tmr (Friday) will be a long day. i miss taking my afternoon naps. Can i have one tmr?
Wednesday
It's been a long long long long day. Today, i brought my mum, brother and Nette to Sunset way for lunch, the nice restaurant that Esther and i spotted. i guess it was gd bonding time. Walking in the light rain, with my brother carrying umbrella for me...*big smiles* Best still, the woman there seems to recognise me already. She passed a comment to me saying that i've a bigger group with me today. Haha. I really kinda like that place, because it's quiet, feels exclusive man. Fortunately today we didn't crack major jokes, otherwise we would have created quite alot of noise pollution.
In the afternoon, i went to gramarcy to take a look at their annual sale. I spent abt $200 there on daily necessities, meaning books that i am of immediate need for my students. I guess i was a lil too late, many titles have been sold out, i mean it's already day 8/12 of their sale la...i'm really really late. Haha. But i got myself a new rosin and a song book. Yippee!
Went to toa payoh for a while to kill time, i think more like to go on a shopping spree, i literally walked 80km/hr. MAD.
In the evening, headed to church for mission trip prep.Was a fruitful time. i thank God for giving different ones of us inspiration to brainstorm different ideas. Gearing myself up for the weekend. Need strength, mental strength, that is.
Today, i'm very happy. Just an hour ago, my friend told me that she wants to attend church. i guess God has used different christians in her life to minister to her. She called today a "magical day" because the feeling that she had in her heart was a special feeling. i know it is not by coincidence because God has His purpose and plans and He has already began to touch her in His own way. When i tried to get her down to church in 2001, i already held on to the vision of seeing her one day, a strong christian, a believer. She reminded me today that she did go down to church with me a few times then, and i clean forgot abt it. I always tot she has never come down before. Until she mentioned that someone in my pics look familiar? But i trust God's timing, it's purrfect. Right up till today.
I'm so not looking forward to tmr (thurs). Fortunately one of my students just called to cancel lesson. That made me feel a lil betta.
Cools! i visited the Pasar Malam with my sis today, and we bought and bought and bought sooo much rubbish! We only had one hour to walk, so we had to go as fast as we could. Anyway, we're planning to go back there tmr again! Haha! i think i spent $30 there today! Wow...at a Pasar Malam??? Yeah. i asked them how long they would be here for, they said dependant on sales. They said that they're not really hopeful because of the small (very small meh???) community living here. So looks like they will "zhao" by this weekend.
Yay, C-na is coming back soon! After her exams, jiayou ok nana, you've reached the end of another year, press on there!!! Come back and drive me ard in your mercedes ok??
Anyway, i tot prayer mtg today was quite cool.....i'm beginning to like playing with this band combi. Today, God reminded me, that when we go on mission trips, it's not just to bless the community there, not just to fulfill the needs of the pple there, but also to win souls for Him. Am i ready to bring pple thru the sinner's prayer in a foreign language? Am i able to share God's word? i need desperate help! The last thing i want is to hide behind other pple's shadow and waste time. Time is running out....every minute counts!
Anyone??
Dance Appreciation Series - SDT in Collaboration with The Esplanade
20 Nov 2006 4.00PM
VENUE
Esplanade Concert Hall
Synopsis: To celebrate Singapore's premiere staging of the landmark ballet La Sylphide, Singapore Dance Theatre, in collaboration with The Esplanade, is pleased to present A La Sylphide Special - Bournonville Style. As part of the Dance Appreciation Series, this outreach performance will delight one and all with a study into the signature traits of a Bournonville Ballet and sneak previews of La Sylphide.
Etudes: Step into a ballet class set in a choreographic mood and be inducted into the basic techniques of ballet. Delve into the differences of classical ballet class that infuses with the Bournonville style of dancing.
In a twinkle of an eye, Monday is over. I still can't believe that there's Pasar Malam at Sunset Way. They finally realised that there's a community living here! I'm so looking forward to it, coz i get some of my daily necessities from Pasar Malams! Haha.
Time of rest at home, with some work done.
In the evening, Jeannette accompanied me to West Mall to do some shopping for mission trip. It's been a long time since i actually walked and window shopped so much, though it was only 3.5 hrs, at least i knew i covered the entire shopping centre! Just one trip to Bt Batok and i bumped into 3 pple. And one of them managed to make me "jump". Thanks.
My Weekend
Shirley left for US on saturday morning. Enjoy yr trip ah womanz. ur rite, MSN ROX!
Anyway, i know that God gave me this special wkend. It's not as if He owed me a gd weekend, but i guess He knows better my desires and what i need.
Many things to thank God for.
1. I am beginning to see prep for mission trip taking shape, thank God that He managed to bring together a group of His workers to go on this trip. The fact is that there is nothing that can be so important to prevent me from going for this trip. It's a joy to serve the Lord in this area. I still remember the strong passion i had 5 years ago for missions. i pray that God will re-ignite the passion in me once again.
2. i enjoyed my night last night, i had beancurd + caesar salad for dinner. See, i'm starting to start my lose-weight regime! No la, kidding, i just love caesar dressing that's why! Blissful Night. =)
3. Thank God for today's service. It was a huge band, and looking at how late we practised till last night, all the dark eye rings. Haha. I thank God that He spoke clear messages to many of us during our prayer and preparation last night. God is real, if His pple are willing to wait on Him and listen, He WILL speak! Today, everything fell into place like a jigsaw puzzle, technicalities aside. God has been lifted up in our praises and worship unto Him. Praise Him, just Praise Him!!
4. Enjoyed spending time with Esther and my cell group guys (Alvin, Thomas, Feng and Royston) after lunch this afternoon. It's been a long time since. Roy bought this container of alphabets/numbers and we started forming weird words and weird things. Brings back the "child" in us. Short time, but it was truly a great time.
5. Went to take a look at my students at the orchestra pract today. I'm so hoping that God will suddenly do a miracle to that orchestra. They are nowhere near performance standard, but i see it as a personal achievement for my students because it is truly an independent effort on their part to practise on their own for this charity concert at St Andrew Community Hospital next wkend.
6. Thank God that though it rained today, the sky wasn't too dark and the rain didn't last that long, not much thunder? No lightning! Though i still don't like rain, but i still give thanks coz when i think of those countries that are facing drought, i think i should then retract my tots abt disliking rain!
7. I visited Bt Batok Nature Reserve in the evening, yeah, in the light rain. Very cooling and nice. i enjoy the serenity of these places. Abt 6.30pm, quite dark already, went to explore some very ulu path in the Reserve, walked about 1/8 of the Reserve. i think i did quite well with my heels, up slope, down slope, like macham must apply invisible brakes and gears when i'm walking. Anyway, heading back there soon, with the right shoes! You seldom find someone who's willing to do such things with u.
8. New Dinner place, meaningful time.
It's been a cool weekend, i received more than i asked God for. God is really good. He says, "Continue to focus on me, seek ME first, and i'll give you what i think is best for you."
i pray that the new week will be a God-empowered week, need loads of God's presence to be with me. Teach me to FOCUS on You, and put You first in my thoughts, words and deeds.
Thank You for whatever You have given me. It's precious and i want to give it back to You. Use us, for Your glory.
Amen.
Friday
Today was a day spent OUT of the house. I'm happy. After lunch with Lynn, headed to town. Did some shopping and then headed to the gym. Finally Chris Tomlin's album is out! Nicey!
In the evening, went to Vivocity to walk ard, that place is huge. The last time i went there, only walked like 1/4 of the shopping centre. I think i'll need another one whole day to finish walking in that place. Went to Earle Swensens for dinner. Anyway, pple, if u're not interested in the harbour view, dun bother visiting that place, it's expensive and u can't really get your usual stuff that u find at swensens.
Had a walk at the harbourfront, it's quite nice, overlooking Sentosa, but the walk path is just a lil short. But to me, i guess, it's probably the highlight of vivocity.
I'm looking forward to Saturday and Sunday. I want this week to pass quickly. God, give me strength!
Just a simple thanksgiving to the Lord for providing the car in the evening so that i could save $18. After wasting $18 on cab yesterday, being able to save on cab fare today was true "happiness".
Over the course of the next two wks, i'm going to do something special for myself. Something so special that i doubt i'll need two weeks to complete it. *Blink Blink*
Tmr i'm heading to the gym. Yippee!! And then, will spend some time indulging in retail therapy, to make myself a happy girl! Yeah, it's true that there are really some things that can make girls happy, and such happiness, no man can bring..Wahhahaha.
Anyway, i need to start recupping my losses after buying that deadly violin bow. Why? Because I'm eyeing on something new now....need to start praying..again! Hee Hee.
Fragments.....
Today, the rain came down, and my mood also went down. Everytime it rains, i would feel my heart literally sink. But thank God, in my desperation, He heard and He took away the thunder when i went out. I always feel so scared when i hear thunder, and it doesn't help if i'm alone.
Sigh, it's been a long time since i had my visits to nature. There's a certain something in me (that i dun even know) that can be released only when i spend time with nature. It's been raining these few days...can i see a rainbow? God, i need You to lift my spirits.
"Dear Father, I am so sorry that many a times I tend to come to You only when I have an emergency. I know You long for me to come to You all the time, simply to tell You how much I love You and how thankful I am for all You do for me. Today, I want to say just that..I love You. Everything i need, is You. It's really heartwarming to know that You're the only One who will be there for me all the time when i need someone to talk to...Thank You for loving me."
Your little girl,
Amen.
I am highly DEPRESSED!
Yikes!!
I've put on X number of kg in the past 2 wks! Just 2 wks and i put on so much???
ok, blame it on myself and the 2-plates-of-rice-per-meal and daily intake of ice cream.
My resolution: 1 plate of rice per meal max + not more than 2 times of ice cream per wk + my weekly exercise regime.
till i lose it ALL.
I'm so dead. Soo sooo dead!
I just came back an hour ago from ACS. Went to see my Dean, yeah...i was the one who arranged for the meeting because i know i've alot to prepare. Anyway, i love her lots...she knows what she's doing...and yet she's not too mean or bossy. She's a fantastic boss....and i know i'm going to learn a lot working with her. She brought me everywhere to get admin stuff done, and also intro me to some teachers. Also intro-ed me to the Deputy Principal who was also very very nice..They seem more excited than me. HAHA!!! Also, i thank God because my Dean decided to get me my personal desk. Yippee!!! Utmost importance man!!! My desk is my life in school. Went thru the scheme of work today. I have a lot to do, in the month of december, have to start prep my lessons plans. Two full days of staff meetings to look forward to, ok, it's gonna be dreadful, but i shall brace myself for them!!!
Gotta prepare myself mentally for the new environment, new challenges, many senior female and male teachers that are alot more experienced than i am.
God, i commit everything into yr hands, u're my navigator. i wanna make the best of 2007...
at 3:35 PM
There was heavy rain yesterday..went to book for my tour...yippee!!! Everytime i get to go on holiday, i'll be reminded that God is faithful to provide for me. I'm not rich, i'm not loaded, i just have enough. Holiday is a luxury, especially being able to go with gd friends. Next yr, i'll probably cut down on my spontaneous trips because i'll be teaching full time. No more flexibility. But well...there's still june and december holidays. But i'll thank God in advance because He knows how to plan my time for me.
Mum's leaving tmr...sigh....finally the feeling of having no parents with u for a wk.....out of control!!!!
at 10:48 AM
Quite an eventful weekend...probably one of the weekends that i did the most reflections too...guess it was during yesterday's cell grp session that God used to provoke some thoughts out of me...about how tough it was for me when i was doing my degree....how much i just wanted to call it quits and give up, how He brought me thru that whole course that really stretched me to what i thought was my max. I really thank God that he brought me thru. Also thru this year, how i was almost drowned in depression...but God just brought abt that breakthrough at the right time.
Today (Sunday) i finally got down to taking my graduation photo...it was quite a fun time for me, though i'm not photogenic, everything also must "gek" out...Took photo with my mum, she's the lucky one, i mean she's the honoured one, to take photo with me. Some of my smiles and laughter were provoked by my faithful fan/supporter...or else i would have continued giving more constipated smiles. The photographer was super duper patient with me. He helped me with my posture, teaching me where to put my hand, how to tilt my head etc, but the moment he turned ard....i immediately slackened and relaxed, and he had to walk back and start all over again in helping me to get my posture right. Anyway, i think it was quite a tiring process altogether, which brought me to the thought that i'll probably dread taking wedding photos.
Next wk, mum and jean gg away, fantastic....i'm gonna be so lonely at home, i mean my life at home revolves ard both of them, because the other two are perpetually in their own world. Dad's not in town, thank God for the availability of the car for the past two weeks...made getting around a luxury..esp places which are not easily accessible...though now it's getting quite dreadful driving ard.
Everytime it comes to the end of the week, my brain will naturally set to auto-planning mode. Anyway, God knows best. He'll be my planner.
at 10:53 PM
Thursday was probably worse because all those students that didn't appear on Wed came on thursday. Had a no-lunchbreak day, lived on an apple, but i really thank God for sustaining me. Been a long time since i had days like that. Ran some errands with mum and jean, and then went for dinner. I SLEPT AT 11PM FOR THE FIRST TIME IN DUNNO HOW MANY YEARS, the moment i came home. Sorry Shirley, u were really good in hunting me down...haha.
at 9:14 AM
Anyway, last weekend was quite cool. I just know that God planned my weekend really well. Timing fell into place, car arrangements were perfect.
On friday night, i went to Pasir Ris Park to chill, looking at aeroplanes fly past one after another just made me wanna be on one of them, to fly somewhere far far away, to fulfill that one wish....
Couple of things to thank God for:
1. Thank God for bringing my student, Rebecca, down to cell on sat. Thank God also for the short conversation i had with her. He used my journey with Him and my life experiences to minister to her. To me, it was a privilege.
2. Thank God for bringing Chiman to church on Sunday. I thank God that she really made the effort to come, after so many years....Thank God for JX who was so kind to pick her up. This is the beginning, leaving everything in God's hands. Enjoyed the time spent with her on Sunday afternoon and Monday. There's so much that i picked up in that few hours.
3. Thank God for bringing Chiman to catch the Ballet Appreciation show with me. Am really thankful, thankful, thankful. The show was very inspiring. I was reminded of my ballet lessons, just that they are much betta dances. Make me really wish that i was sent for ballet lessons when i was younger.
4. Thank God for the time m'kk girls had together celebrating Diana's birthday yesterday (Mon). Probably first time we had full attendance?
5. Thank God for the previous week that had just past. It wasn't an easy time, wasn't an easy wk to go thru, but i thank God that He carried me thru. It's evident that God was there, i couldn't have been that strong, really.
6. Weekend couldn't have been that beautiful without you, big one... Thank you!
Today, i watched "Just Friends" with my friend. Haha, so literal. Oh well, at least it was a happy ending. Walked down orchard rd today, looked at the Xmas Lightup...pretty, but i dun sense the Festive mood as yet...perhaps when December comes....
Tomorrow is my crazy day. Gonna be teaching 9 students. This is my highest record in dunno how long....wish me all the best...i've a super long day....God, grant me plenty plenty plenty of strength! i can't have any afternoon nap at all. A fate worse than death haha.
Yay, by now, c-na should have been home already. Yippee!!!
at 11:10 PM
Sometimes the chains we wear shackled to our hearts become so comfortable, we get used to the pain and forget what it is like to be well. Perhaps some of us have never known. But the big question is - do you want to get well? Do you want to be free? Do you really?
Pain can become an idol. Not that we worship it in a good sense. But we worship it and allow it to control our lives. When we allow our past to control our lives and dictate our future, we are giving it the power of a god and making it an idol. We can hug our hurts and make a 'shrine' out of our sorrows or we can choose to offer them to God as a sacrifice of praise.
Lord, i really want to live a healthy emotional life. If there is something in my life I need to change to achieve good health, I pray that You will reveal it to me and that i'll have the courage to face it.
at 2:18 PM
I can't sleep!!!! And today i didn't even take my afternoon nap!!!
Anyway, the sweet-auntie just told me that she wants to go to church this sunday. So cool.....*bracing myself up for the weekend* Gotta multi-task BIG TIME. Thank God the sweet-auntie found another partner-in-crime who is willing to indulge with her. So, i can at least get both of them to entertain each other. *grinzzzzzz*
Another visit to the Bt batok nature reserve today, this time, in daylight. Cool, the serenity of that place is first class. Residing there also, are mozzies that bit me like free. Anyway, it was a pity that i didn't have my camera with me. Anyway, i'll be back again. For the photo-taking session. =)
Tmr is gonna be a long day of teaching for me. 3 new students in a row. YIKES!! Trying to look at the bright side of things..."Now Elena....think abt the year-end trip that you're gg for....These 3 new students are going to help finance it."
Thank you all for yr generous donations to Elena's Dec 2006 holiday fund. She's really grateful. It'll be a special year-end and year-start. =)
at 3:00 AM
When the exams were finally over, i heaved a sigh of relief. After struggling inside for so long, i was really thankful to walk out. We went to causeway point to jalan and have dinner. Big thanks to that two guys who made me laugh quite hard. It does take pple with quite a bit of imagination to be able to come up with such jokes!!
The christmas season is already flooding Singapore. I love Christmas. i wonder how my Christmas will be like this year....
at 10:28 AM
Today, i visited "Doulos", the floating bookshop in the form of an oceanliner at Vivocity Berth. I thought it was cool, noting the fact that i've a fettish for boats, vessels and planes. The whole concept of ministry in the form of providing christian literature amongst secular books is a rather good idea, to attract the non-christian community as well. Anyway, i like the idea of living on a boat. Carefree. Think the boat has been here couple of times, but this is my first time on it. 
Before Boarding "Doulos"
Onboard "Doulos" outside one of the engine rooms
i finally bought my printer today. Unexpected, but still, i've been looking ard for sometime now. Printed my maiden photos. Yay!! Now i'm happy, dun have to fight over the main household printer with anyone already.
ALL good things come from the Lord. Thank You Lord. =)
It was a good evening.
at 12:19 AM
It was in year 2000 that i first went to Tj balai for a short mission trip. Went there for 5 days then, to do house visitation to invite pple down for an outreach concert.
This time it was a weekend trip - 2 days 1 night. Our scope of ministry was for the ladies ministry and children ministry. Blogging some of the events that took place for my personal memories, and then my personal thanksgiving for the trip. This entry can only tell abt 30% of what i experienced over there.
On Saturday, we met at harbourfront and then took a 2 hr ferry to Balai. It rained, but when we had to travel on foot, the rain was small enough for us to walk around. We stayed at Asun's house. Before heading out to our first destination, we spent sometime aligning ourselves to the right purpose that we were there. I guess different ones of us went for different reasons, some simply just choosing to avail ourselves, some to serve, etc. God spoke clearly, to love the pple there as ourselves.
We went to the church, and then started preparing for the ladies ministry session. We did facial for the ladies, wahaha, by faith. There were four ladies who came, including Asun's wife. It's cool that the women actually entrusted their precious faces to us! While doing facial, the guys and our all-time favourite guitarist, Esther, "ministered" thru different songs, just light music in the background. It was a very warm atmosphere because we sang as we did facial for them. Though there was a short circuit, all these didn't dampen our spirits. After the facial session, we sang some hokkien praise songs and then Amber shared a short word for the ladies. She shared something very close to her heart and it touched the ladies. Set the atmosphere for ministry time. We prayed for the ladies, and i had the honour of speaking to one of the ladies there, Sally. i was really blessed by her, seeing how quickly she warmed up to me, and obviously i made a fool of myself with the chinese that i used. i wanted to tell her that one of my friend's dad is in the wood business. i ended telling her in mandarin.." wo peng you shi zuo mu de".. (My friend makes wood????)..zzzzzzz.....But it was ok, because it was something for us to laugh over, and something that she would be able to remember me with.
One of the ladies invited the group of us to her place. Nice place, seaview, my favourite. Persis, Esther and i went to another girl's house. Was supposed to be a follow-up trip but she wasn't at home. Later, we headed for dinner. We met Uncle Benedict at the dinner place, together with Adeline (Zoe tay-lookalike) and Uncle Colin. Dinner was indeed a blessing, i felt so fortunate being able to have such good food on a mission trip, and i really thank God for it. Had a very good chat with the two regulars, Uncle Colin and Adeline, i was very inspired by their commitment and love for this land. i was reminded that it's no point going into balai once in a blue moon, because then we'll always be visiting houses and asking the same questions. What that place needs is regular follow-up and commitment. Very true. They are still very very very lack of it, and the pple there are hungry for God. It was food for thought and something serious for me to think abt. Many times, we like to touch and go, but what's really important is to go deep and make an impact, which would require alot of time on our part.
After dinner, we headed to a Hair Salon, Uncle Ben's contact. He wanted to just visit her. So he brought the WHOLE group of us and we just crashed into the salon. 8 of us decided to have our hair washed, some cut. Yes, we're on mission trip but yet we could go for hairwash, what a blessing! Pure insanity and craziness, but God isn't a sadistic God, he wants us to be happy even as we do his Work. What was thought-provoking was the boldness of the adults. Uncle Ben started singing in the salon, and everyone joined in. I guess no one dared to enter the salon, was just so crowded, in that small salon. Hahaha. Persis met the girl whom we were looking for earlier that day in that salon, it was obviously God's good and perfect timing!
At night, we had a mini celebration for Thomas on the rooftop of Asun's place. The adults got him a cake.
The next day, we got up early, spent some time preparing for the craft session. Headed out to the wet market for a mini educational morning walk/tour, and then headed for breakfast. Another good session of chilling with the adults.
At 11am, we had Sunday School for the lil ones. Vincent shared on the story of Jesus and the Miraculous catch of fish. We did a short re-enactament for the children. Later, we had art and craft time.
After lunch, we went back to the church for the main svc in the afternoon. During testimony sharing, one of the ladies shared that she was very touched that we did facial for her the day before. Uncle Ben preached from James 3, using the tongue for the right purposes. During altar call, many came out for prayers. U could see how hungry these pple are for the Lord, wanting and believing that the Lord can heal, the Lord can do miracles, and that the Lord is capable to provide for their needs. i had the honour to pray for them, in English and my broken Chinese. I'm determined that before i go there again, I WILL BRUSH UP MY CHINESE VOCAB SO THAT I CAN PRAY IN CHINESE!!
Had a crazy time with the adults again on the ferry back home. i laughed so hard that i cried...was a really mad time! i really thank God, i was blessed so much more than i could ever imagine. What a mission trip, all glory is His!
1. I thank God that nothing stopped me from going for this trip. Initially i was hesitant because i had a duty to fulfill, ie. i had to play for Sunday service and it was the first service at SAS, so i had to weigh my responsibilities. I thank God that Jeremy agreed to take over my keybd duties because during one of the prayer sessions, God just placed in me the burden and desire to go on this mission trip. And i felt the peace and joy. And so i went!
2. I thank God that our preparations went very smoothly. Though it was super last min, but even during the preparations, i could see the "architect" in God. He handpicked and provided just the right people for every aspect of this trip. I thank God for every person who went. All were a blessing to me personally. In mission trips, one important element is moral support. i received more than i could ever imagine.
3. i thank God for Persis and Angeline. Angeline, for being so faithful in coming and joining us in our preparations, and for being patient with us when we were slow. Persis, for providing so much freedom for us to just "fa hui" and do whatever we wanted, as the spirit leads, yet providing the support and stability to the group. i thank God for her, and i never knew she was so mad. She's an inspiration to me, esp when it comes to ministry in the mission field.
4. Thank God for the weather, first day, it was rainy, second day it was sunny. God knew what He was doing, he didn't allow the weather to upset our plans. Thank You Lord.
5. i thank God for the adults team, they were really a big blessing to us, something that we didn't expect, but because of their great faith and boldness, we could see the faithfulness of God and how God moved in this 2 days. To my surprise, we were of rather "similar frequency", so we mixed pretty well with them. When it was time to work, we worked, when it was time to rest, all hell broke loose! Hahaha. But really, this was really something unexpected, but God knew the bigger picture.
6. I thank God for Asun's handicapped brother, Paul, though he was walking with the help of crutches, he walked faster than us. God really reminded me of how fortunate i am. Sometimes we walk a little bit also complain. Paul walks for kilometres, and he doesn't complain, doesn't throw tantrum. He isn't mentally normal like anyone of us, but yet, U could see the joy he had in the Lord. He accompanied us wherever we went, sat patiently to wait for us each time we stopped to do something. i really am very thankful for him, and i thank God for sustaining Him and allowing him to walk though only one of his leg is well.
7. It was such a blessing for us when Asun gave up his room for us to sleep in. We had aircon and we were protected from the mozzies. God, u were really good to us.
8. I thank God for every balai-ian we crossed paths with..they made us so welcomed, including the smiles on the children's faces.
9. I thank God for sustaining us, nothing serious happened, no food poisioning, nothing. He sustained me physically though i was supposed to be weak waist-down.
10. I was very happy in Balai, i love the environment there. Their simplicity was a breather for me.
at 3:45 PM
Today's a cool day....met Chiman in the afternoon for a chat. God is good. The rain was pouring very heavily. But the moment we reached the bus stop, the rain stopped completely so that we could walk and get to our destination. =) Chiman says that she also prefers haze to rain. So yay....someone finally agrees with me! HAHA! It was a good afternoon of catching up, for me, it was also a thought process and flashback of the past. Looking back, i thank God for whatever i have gone thru. Then only i can say confidently, the Lord is my deliverer!
Est came to join us for dinner, wassa super exciting time. Thanks to both of them who hit it off so well...entertaining themselves and each other with the candies they enjoy eating. It was finally rest time for me. =) Hahaha. Anyway, we also visited the pasar malam at my place. And i saw toadstools growing from the grass when we were walking back to my place!!!
i just completed cutting the paper fish for mission trip! Thank God for granting me patience and strength to cut non stop for 1.5 hrs. i must have been mad to even start.
Now, i need rest. But first, my beauty bath.
Tmr (Friday) will be a long day. i miss taking my afternoon naps. Can i have one tmr?
at 1:47 AM
It's been a long long long long day. Today, i brought my mum, brother and Nette to Sunset way for lunch, the nice restaurant that Esther and i spotted. i guess it was gd bonding time. Walking in the light rain, with my brother carrying umbrella for me...*big smiles* Best still, the woman there seems to recognise me already. She passed a comment to me saying that i've a bigger group with me today. Haha. I really kinda like that place, because it's quiet, feels exclusive man. Fortunately today we didn't crack major jokes, otherwise we would have created quite alot of noise pollution.
In the afternoon, i went to gramarcy to take a look at their annual sale. I spent abt $200 there on daily necessities, meaning books that i am of immediate need for my students. I guess i was a lil too late, many titles have been sold out, i mean it's already day 8/12 of their sale la...i'm really really late. Haha. But i got myself a new rosin and a song book. Yippee!
Went to toa payoh for a while to kill time, i think more like to go on a shopping spree, i literally walked 80km/hr. MAD.
In the evening, headed to church for mission trip prep.Was a fruitful time. i thank God for giving different ones of us inspiration to brainstorm different ideas. Gearing myself up for the weekend. Need strength, mental strength, that is.
Today, i'm very happy. Just an hour ago, my friend told me that she wants to attend church. i guess God has used different christians in her life to minister to her. She called today a "magical day" because the feeling that she had in her heart was a special feeling. i know it is not by coincidence because God has His purpose and plans and He has already began to touch her in His own way. When i tried to get her down to church in 2001, i already held on to the vision of seeing her one day, a strong christian, a believer. She reminded me today that she did go down to church with me a few times then, and i clean forgot abt it. I always tot she has never come down before. Until she mentioned that someone in my pics look familiar? But i trust God's timing, it's purrfect. Right up till today.
I'm so not looking forward to tmr (thurs). Fortunately one of my students just called to cancel lesson. That made me feel a lil betta.
at 1:11 AM
Yay, C-na is coming back soon! After her exams, jiayou ok nana, you've reached the end of another year, press on there!!! Come back and drive me ard in your mercedes ok??
Anyway, i tot prayer mtg today was quite cool.....i'm beginning to like playing with this band combi. Today, God reminded me, that when we go on mission trips, it's not just to bless the community there, not just to fulfill the needs of the pple there, but also to win souls for Him. Am i ready to bring pple thru the sinner's prayer in a foreign language? Am i able to share God's word? i need desperate help! The last thing i want is to hide behind other pple's shadow and waste time. Time is running out....every minute counts!
at 11:14 PM
Dance Appreciation Series - SDT in Collaboration with The Esplanade
20 Nov 2006 4.00PM
VENUE
Esplanade Concert Hall
Synopsis: To celebrate Singapore's premiere staging of the landmark ballet La Sylphide, Singapore Dance Theatre, in collaboration with The Esplanade, is pleased to present A La Sylphide Special - Bournonville Style. As part of the Dance Appreciation Series, this outreach performance will delight one and all with a study into the signature traits of a Bournonville Ballet and sneak previews of La Sylphide.
Etudes: Step into a ballet class set in a choreographic mood and be inducted into the basic techniques of ballet. Delve into the differences of classical ballet class that infuses with the Bournonville style of dancing.
at 4:06 PM
Time of rest at home, with some work done.
In the evening, Jeannette accompanied me to West Mall to do some shopping for mission trip. It's been a long time since i actually walked and window shopped so much, though it was only 3.5 hrs, at least i knew i covered the entire shopping centre! Just one trip to Bt Batok and i bumped into 3 pple. And one of them managed to make me "jump". Thanks.
at 11:24 PM
Shirley left for US on saturday morning. Enjoy yr trip ah womanz. ur rite, MSN ROX!
Anyway, i know that God gave me this special wkend. It's not as if He owed me a gd weekend, but i guess He knows better my desires and what i need.
Many things to thank God for.
1. I am beginning to see prep for mission trip taking shape, thank God that He managed to bring together a group of His workers to go on this trip. The fact is that there is nothing that can be so important to prevent me from going for this trip. It's a joy to serve the Lord in this area. I still remember the strong passion i had 5 years ago for missions. i pray that God will re-ignite the passion in me once again.
2. i enjoyed my night last night, i had beancurd + caesar salad for dinner. See, i'm starting to start my lose-weight regime! No la, kidding, i just love caesar dressing that's why! Blissful Night. =)
3. Thank God for today's service. It was a huge band, and looking at how late we practised till last night, all the dark eye rings. Haha. I thank God that He spoke clear messages to many of us during our prayer and preparation last night. God is real, if His pple are willing to wait on Him and listen, He WILL speak! Today, everything fell into place like a jigsaw puzzle, technicalities aside. God has been lifted up in our praises and worship unto Him. Praise Him, just Praise Him!!
4. Enjoyed spending time with Esther and my cell group guys (Alvin, Thomas, Feng and Royston) after lunch this afternoon. It's been a long time since. Roy bought this container of alphabets/numbers and we started forming weird words and weird things. Brings back the "child" in us. Short time, but it was truly a great time.
5. Went to take a look at my students at the orchestra pract today. I'm so hoping that God will suddenly do a miracle to that orchestra. They are nowhere near performance standard, but i see it as a personal achievement for my students because it is truly an independent effort on their part to practise on their own for this charity concert at St Andrew Community Hospital next wkend.
6. Thank God that though it rained today, the sky wasn't too dark and the rain didn't last that long, not much thunder? No lightning! Though i still don't like rain, but i still give thanks coz when i think of those countries that are facing drought, i think i should then retract my tots abt disliking rain!
7. I visited Bt Batok Nature Reserve in the evening, yeah, in the light rain. Very cooling and nice. i enjoy the serenity of these places. Abt 6.30pm, quite dark already, went to explore some very ulu path in the Reserve, walked about 1/8 of the Reserve. i think i did quite well with my heels, up slope, down slope, like macham must apply invisible brakes and gears when i'm walking. Anyway, heading back there soon, with the right shoes! You seldom find someone who's willing to do such things with u.
8. New Dinner place, meaningful time.
It's been a cool weekend, i received more than i asked God for. God is really good. He says, "Continue to focus on me, seek ME first, and i'll give you what i think is best for you."
i pray that the new week will be a God-empowered week, need loads of God's presence to be with me. Teach me to FOCUS on You, and put You first in my thoughts, words and deeds.
Thank You for whatever You have given me. It's precious and i want to give it back to You. Use us, for Your glory.
Amen.
at 10:26 PM
Today was a day spent OUT of the house. I'm happy. After lunch with Lynn, headed to town. Did some shopping and then headed to the gym. Finally Chris Tomlin's album is out! Nicey!
In the evening, went to Vivocity to walk ard, that place is huge. The last time i went there, only walked like 1/4 of the shopping centre. I think i'll need another one whole day to finish walking in that place. Went to Earle Swensens for dinner. Anyway, pple, if u're not interested in the harbour view, dun bother visiting that place, it's expensive and u can't really get your usual stuff that u find at swensens.
Had a walk at the harbourfront, it's quite nice, overlooking Sentosa, but the walk path is just a lil short. But to me, i guess, it's probably the highlight of vivocity.
I'm looking forward to Saturday and Sunday. I want this week to pass quickly. God, give me strength!
at 2:00 AM
Over the course of the next two wks, i'm going to do something special for myself. Something so special that i doubt i'll need two weeks to complete it. *Blink Blink*
Tmr i'm heading to the gym. Yippee!! And then, will spend some time indulging in retail therapy, to make myself a happy girl! Yeah, it's true that there are really some things that can make girls happy, and such happiness, no man can bring..Wahhahaha.
Anyway, i need to start recupping my losses after buying that deadly violin bow. Why? Because I'm eyeing on something new now....need to start praying..again! Hee Hee.
at 11:30 PM
Sigh, it's been a long time since i had my visits to nature. There's a certain something in me (that i dun even know) that can be released only when i spend time with nature. It's been raining these few days...can i see a rainbow? God, i need You to lift my spirits.
"Dear Father, I am so sorry that many a times I tend to come to You only when I have an emergency. I know You long for me to come to You all the time, simply to tell You how much I love You and how thankful I am for all You do for me. Today, I want to say just that..I love You. Everything i need, is You. It's really heartwarming to know that You're the only One who will be there for me all the time when i need someone to talk to...Thank You for loving me."
Your little girl,
Amen.
When things don't always go your way, just remember to give thanks...releasing all expectations to the Lord, because He already knows the desires of Your heart. i believe He'll provide. =)
at 10:39 PM
Yikes!!
I've put on X number of kg in the past 2 wks! Just 2 wks and i put on so much???
ok, blame it on myself and the 2-plates-of-rice-per-meal and daily intake of ice cream.
My resolution: 1 plate of rice per meal max + not more than 2 times of ice cream per wk + my weekly exercise regime.
till i lose it ALL.
I'm so dead. Soo sooo dead!
at 4:04 PM
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