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Loves God's creation, Loves travels, Loves beaches........
+ 04 Jan
+ elenatan@gmail.com
Full time music teacher
Loves God's creation, Loves travels, Loves beaches........
Friday, September 29, 2006
Thank You Lord for sustaining us again today though last night we prob had only one hour of sleep. Sorry that i did this to my body, but i seriously didn't have intentions to. Dear Lord, we thank You that Your presence was there with us.
Today was quite a personal achievement. I taught 3 students despite my tiredness + practise for wedding item. It's been a long time since i touched my violin, and i think it was quite an achievement that i played it for more than an hour non stop, though it can not be compared to whatever i played 8 years ago. Was a great time of just playing hymns on the violin with Shirley on the piano. When can we ever find the time to do such things??
Went to harbourfront with Shirley to walk. Had quite a bit of time to waste, so walked the whole building. i drank coffee so that it would keep me going for the rest of the evening. The Queen came after work, and we had dinner. Viet food today. Not bad, but not too impressive, i have tried better. Shirley had a high calling today...so we sent her off, waited a gd 40 min for cab, still thank God for the cab. Spent my rest of the evening in Macs.
I'm happy, i'm fortunate, i'm thankful, i'm contented.
Thank God. =)
Thursday (D38)
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhh Choo!!! This is what i've been doing 50% of my time today.
Today was also a pretty short day, coz i got up quite late. No afternoon nap today, that's pretty much an achievement. haha. But today was quite ok, except for my sinus.
Had a pleasant surprise today. Went to teach in the evening, and went to run some errands. Ok, the chocolates my sis gave me helped to curb the runny nose from running even faster. Thanks nette and the 'one' who forbade me from eating the chocolates =)
My long and busy weekend begins tmr. Did i mention...i kinda dun like busyness and packed schedules? Something new abt me....hee.
Ruth 1:16-18
"But Ruth replied, "Don't urge me to leave you or to turn back from you. Where you go, I will go, and where you stay, I will stay. Your people will be my people and your God my God. Where you die I will die, and there I will be buried. May the LORD deal with me, be it ever so severely, if anything but death separates you and me." When Naomi realized that Ruth was determined to go with her, she stopped urging her."
What makes me happy?
Taking a Peek at Pretty Esther in her office...
Successfully uploading the pics i wanna upload. =)
Wednesday
I really hate it when i get mood swings! But i'm feeling really low now...i wonder why...ok, i'm gonna hide in my pillow now. I'm really so not looking forward to tmr. i hope it quickly passes. Ok, i'm starting to throw tantrums. Maybe i'm really 'qualified' to celebrate Children's Day this Sunday!
Does it really mean that when u enter into any relationship of close proximity, u'll tend to struggle with insecurity more often than not? I hate it. Totally.
My friend is so cute, she says, hope i can get to meet more pple next yr when i teach in ACS (I)...yeah i also hope..rather than sitting at home everyday, maybe it's time to widen my social network.
Today, i was almost impressed with myself for not taking any afternoon nap, because by 5pm i was quite looking forward to get out of my house liao, after trying to pass time in the afternoon doing different things. I read "RUTH", i watched tv, i had a student, i wasted quite abit of brain cells in the morning thinking abt something which caused me to be unable to sleep in peace too..until i received that phone call, i did some reflections etc. Anyway, i ended up taking an afternoon nap from 5-6pm for some particular reason.
Went to church in the evening for Psalmist Core Meeting. Was another gd time of just learning how each other functions and thinks. Yes, things are getting betta, the more we lay things out on the table, the better it gets. I'm looking forward to more. But it's also high time that i started consolidating some of my personal thoughts that i've been having for the past few months.
Anyway, did i mention today's Day 37, and it ends today. Not like we have a choice, but =)
Tmr....a day of teaching.
Friday, let's hope i get some life.
Saturday, the only day for me to make sure i get a life.
Sunday is Children's Day. Do i even fit the bill to celebrate what we call "Children's Day"?
My Scars, My Wounds, My Hurts, My Pains, All for Your Glory, Lord
When Jesus rose from the dead, He kept His scars on His hands.
What do you think of when you look @ the scars on your own body?
The past?
How can you use the scars in your own life to bring glory to God?
Remember, your scars are beautiful to God.
Looking back at my scars, and wounds which are still healing, that sour feeling comes back to haunt me constantly. But i know that one day, i'll come out of the battle, victorious, being an even stronger woman of God. =)
Thank You Lord.
They are potent!!! From 5 bites become the whole leg swollen, looks like it takes a few days for those areas to be swollen....argh!!! WCP has the yuckiest mosquitoes!!! Not like i didn't kerna it there before right, that time when i went there for BBQ also kerna for a few days, and looks like i dun learn huh, should know betta than to go there in the night time to let them bite....argh! Now what, pour acid down my leg?
Today was a short day, i got up at 11am, did some things, had lunch, did some things again...and then nap for 2 hrs. Time to go out, went out to attend a talk, had dinner, smell the night air, then went home. Not bad la...the talk was quite erm, ok. But since the guy was quite cute, i gave him my attention instead of dozing off. haha.
I'm looking forward to tmr morning, i wonder why....but i think i owe someone an explanation. Wait till tmr then. =)
Let me blog, before i take my 2-hr nap.
Some reflections that i know my memory can't hold:
How many times have we made our feelings conditional?
Sometimes, we use our feelings to determine our relationship/closeness with someone.
Sometimes we use our feelings to determine the health of our relationship with God.
Other times, we use our circumstances to define God's love for us.
We forget that we have an unchanging God.
We forget that His word is everlasting.
Let's fix our eyes on Him, knowing His character, and what a faithful God He is. =)
Gee...dunno where to start...it's now 1.20am i'm a lil disconnected in my brain.
Ok! i shall do it for the sake of my and your reading pleasure! In the evening, i went for my dance class, today we had 3 students...yay.a lil less tiring than last wk, prob cause i'm a lil more used to it. I left a lil earlier coz i didn't want to keep someone waiting. Went to makan downstairs, yummy, but today, got a lil high on "e-c-s-t-a-s-y". The suaning between two pple already went up to the next level, both pple learnt how to make each other show that sour face after being suaned. But pls dun forget who's the teacher here hor....some things u still have to point back to the master. Hahahaha!!!!
Anyway, after dinner, went to my place to get the car. Then...the rest of the night, shall be committed to my poor memory.
Quoted from a card that was written to me: "When the searing adversity's sun burn their way into our day, there's nothing quite like a sheltering tree - a true friend, to give us relief in it's cool shade. It's massive trunk of understanding gives security as its thick leaves of love wash our face and wipe our brow. Beneath its branches have rested many a discouraged soul."
Teaching at ACS (I)
Just came back from ACS (I). It's quite amazing that the Dean of Music there trusts me that much to take up all her music classes. First of all, she's only spoken to me on the phone before, and today she's ready to offer me her terms of teaching. This is the only way for me to go, which is to apply to an independant school so that i don't have to go thru MOE. And God has faithfully provided.
One thing that i'm stressed abt is that it's ACS (I), an all-boys school, i mean like, what is God telling me man??? Of all schools, instead of giving me MGS, which i'm more familiar with, he gives me ACS!! And they also have this IB programme which houses the freakiest and smartest students in singapore. And i've to teach them music and it's not like some normal secondary school music curriculum. I've to teach them history of the 4 periods of music and much more. But i really thank God, coz i ever mentioned that i'll never want to step into a secondary school to teach music as a subject coz it's just boring. And so, knowing the desire of my heart, he gave me ACS. On top of that, it's a christian environment, and i may have chances to work with the christian band CCA there too.
Anyway, it's been confirmed that i'm starting my one-year contract with them with effect from january next yr. The best thing is that i still have my flexibility in the first quarter of the year coz i don't have to go in everyday. I'm looking forward to it. But i think i'll need perseverance to finish the one year. If all goes well, better things are installed. Thank God.
Sunday
I thank God, i thank God and i thank God. I received again, this lil princess received again. =)
This morning, i woke up, feeling a lil betta after catching up on my sleep. Managed 6 hrs of rest. Thankfully. i took a bus to church today, after so long, yeah i only manage to do such things whenever i play for adult's svc. But yay, i saved $$ on cab - yes, now i'm in the season of attempting to spend less on myself...but is that ever possible? Haha. =) Anyway, with regards to service today, i thank God because He multiplies, and turn things ard for His glory. And i give glory back to him for whatever happened during svc because end of the day, i know He was the one who drives and leads everything.
After svc, had another round of pract for 'meditative' svc with the Psalmist pple. I thank God for those who were involved today, their gd attitudes just made things so easy. It's God who has formed this band together, and i pray that He will use us as His instruments as a form of svc to the congregation and make us simple worshippers that can worship Him with our lives.
After pract, we headed to Shir's place, erm, reasons are censored but while Shir was at home busily prep etc, Est and I went up to the rooftop carpark and took a nap. We gave ourselves a minimum of half an hr to rest. Thanks Shirley for being understanding =) Shirley brought us out for dinner tonight, we went to Tanglin mall - AH HOI Kitchen. Am glad she's back finally. It was a cool evening out, i enjoyed especially the alfresco dining and the time of catching up. Then decided to call it an early night.
Headed to the ulu swimming pool, but it closes early, so just sat there for 20 min only. Later, we went to WCP. I'm happy, i got to eat my ice-cream and climb my web. This time i did it much faster, and i went all the way up, with some nudging. No sweat! Fear has really been overcome. Yay! Went to feed some mosquitoes at the playgrd. Night of just ....ok elaborating ends here. Got home abt 1am, quite a struggle to blog, there's just so much details. Bumped into Tricia, bro and Roy at Macs. i thank God that He helped prevent a FINE of $400 for parking at wheelchair lot at my place. It's really by His grace. Thank You Lord for prompting the 'sharp eyes'. But the parking attendant is really enthu, 1230am already she's still working, trying to clear her quota.
Anyway, tonight, i got what i needed, and what i asked God for. I'm more than thankful. Next wk will be a gd wk i believe, (though there's this part of me which just feels so sian). I'm just sian that my nights are so packed...and what does that mean????????????? I really dislike the feeling that i've no room to plan to do whatever i'm happy doing because of some pre-arranged commitments i have. Haiz.... no gd. But anyway, one day at a time. I shall work it out. [ouch! sudden chestpain, no pains for a long time, i'm overworked??]
ok, time for bed, i took 2 whole hrs to blog. Oh man, is it really so hard to blog?
It's gonna be a long wk ahead of me. And i'm so not looking forward to it! My nights are all packed like kachang puteh....So i'm gonna make myself happy by taking things into my own hands!
i need a big ****************** to start this wk
Yawn....bed time!
As i was driving back, i did some reflecting. It wasn't a short journey back, so i managed to squeeeze quite interesting tots out of my head. Just felt that i really enjoyed my Friday night alot. Not just the evening night, but the night night night, ok, morning i mean. I mean if i'm happy means i really enjoyed it, and it was really a precious friday night for me.
Today, i was in the groggy state, due to lack of sleep. i wonder if my faced showed it. But no one mentioned. Haha. Morever i've gotten feedback that i've been smiling a lot more recently, so looks like all tiredness is just buried under those smiles. Though i was tired, and still had to drive, i give thanks for the car because it just made things a lot simpler.
Practice at the adults cong was zzzzzzzzzzzzzz *no comments* coz half the time i didn't know the song..and nothing particularly exciting happened. I was lost most of the time. Quite sad that i couldn't attend cell, coz it's been quite sometime that we had cell. Met Wai for a chat. It's been a long overdue one. Went back to watch Worship Pract and then had dinner. Today, Dals, Paul, Matt, Est and I went to Wah Lai (is this what u call that place?) for dinner. I've never seen Dals and Paul so high b4 over a meal. But this meal really cheered everyone up and everyone just started being so chatty. Even the tired Queen and Princess were happy after the dinner. Affordable and good. Looks like it'll be our future erm...yes eating place. The Queen has already expressed her interest.
Today, i learnt something new again, abt myself, with regards to love. Thank U for affirming me. It meant lots.
Thank you Lord once again for showering love upon me in that way that u chose to. i've been really really blessed and I'm really happy, though i'm sleepy.
I'm WIDE AWAKE right now...why? because i only slept for a total of 1 hr last night. why? because last night was fri night. why? because it was the 5th day of the wk... why? because the sky is so high. This entry is for my viewing pleasure only.
My Friday Night!
Today, after teaching in the morning, i decided to spend my afternoon out, yeah to get a life somewhere. The lazy me would choose to take an afternoon nap but i decided, i shouldn't be lazy otherwise i might turn senile from all the napping.
Decided to head to milenia to do something that was long overdue, for the sake of my dance shoes. Went to do a lil shopping and then headed for my night activity. i need to blog this down again for remembrance sake. Today's colour is GREEN AGAIN!
Enjoyed my time at IMM this evening, went for hongkong cruisine, yay, with mummy and the Queen. So exciting la. I finally got my lil piggy bank in Daiso. It isn't very "little" in size but i'm extremely satisfied with it! (Shirley, i must show it to u one day when i have the chance, it's only $2 for that big thing!) Someone was even more excited than me....just imagine!
Anyway, we headed home early. Tired la. We spent quite a bit of time looking at my photos. Anyway, it's gonna be a long day tmr. We need sleep. NOW.
Today, Lynn came to my place...had a casual chat with her abt some stuff.
Afternoon, after lunch, i started feeling sleepy again, so yeah, i went into the natural process, hahahaha. 2.5 hrs, with no disturbance and distractions. Mind was overwhelmed too, by fears, so natural reaction - Hide in bed.
Had a yummy dinner, Korean food. i am beginning to think that my suaning skills have taken onto a higher level now to the point where i just go on and on non stop...terrible la me....i betta stop. Otherwise the Queen will sentence me to death.
Tmr....should i? i'm lazy....hahaha. i'm looking forward to my night. It's my precious Friday Night!
Press on...we're doing well...one step at a time. *Look up there! =)*
What happens when God knows that something else is more impt than Him in your life?
He pulls it away, He takes it back.
Great, i know how it feels, and i've woken up my ideas abt allowing anything to take God's rightful place again. Thank You Lord, i've learnt my lesson. Thanks for that painful smack on my butt. It's gd that i'm still alive today. i made it thru. And i'm ready for more....What's next?
Now may i ask then, is it gone for good?
Wednesday
I'm very tired. I'm zapped physically. i need to sleep!!
Today, i spent my daytime at home. No working today. Yippee!! By the time i got up was already 11am. Spent the afternoon preparing for reflective svc. It's gd coz i finished what i had to do. i'm impressed with myself coz i didn't take an afternoon nap.
Booked movie tickets, but didn't get to watch it. It's ok, it's not abt the show anyway, though it was recommended. Thank God that the evening was planned by Him. Some things u can plan, but most of the times, u just know it's by God's grace that things fall into place. i had a great night at the waterfront. Thank God for whatever happened.
"Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go." Joshua 1:9
Eliza - No more Thailand Hols for the next 3 months. Unless, u wanna join the coup. Haha.
Was ill, and now i'm fine!
i started my day early, with exams, exams and exams. A place so familiar, once again i felt like one of them! Students didn't play too well, not too impressive, so i rule out a merit or distinction. For the clarinet girl, i pray for a miracle, a greater amt of God's grace!
Enjoyed my lunch, food was nice, (yay my fav jap food!) but company was nicer. Soon enough, i was carrying a sleepy face and started feeling tired and i've been sniffing and sneezing all morning. Yesterday's weather was just pure unfriendly, i even had to wear a jacket in my house.
I headed to Greenridge Secondary for choir, and i didn't make it through man. After 1.5 hrs of lesson, i couldn't take it anymore. I just informed the teacher-in-charge i was not feeling well, and i wanted to leave. In the end, she also dismissed the students early. They must have loved me lots man. At that juncture, i just needed somewhere to recover. Called Dallas, was too much of a hassle to drag him home early. I decided to choose somewhere more familiar, was showered with natural warmth, no need to have heater or anything.
Headed to boon keng for dinner. Someone said today that laughter is a gd medicine. i agree, it beats all vit C pills hands down! Haha. And not everyone is capable of making me laugh ok! You have to be willing to be a fool-for-elena. (just kidding) *Muacks* Anyway, i quote Dallas..."The Power of Love"!
Today 1 Samuel 1 got me thinking of many things that i can identify with very easily in this season of my life. It just hit right on the nail!
Some points of reflection:
1) Love of God doesn't depend on our works, it depends on the grace of God.
2) Do we cherish accomplishments, abilities, things, pple more than God?
3) Lack of Fruitfulness - Purposely allowed by God to teach us that there are alot of things beyond our capacity.
4) Give thanks for EVERYTHING that we have and don't have. Only God can bestow, only God can give.
5) Prayer is not just opening our mouths to pray sweet words, it also involves engaging deeply in the spirit, pouring out our heart and soul to the Lord.
6) God can give and take away, our lives are in His hands.
7) "Count your blessings name them one by one..." =)
8) Are we appreciating God enough for what He has done for us?
9) When we pray, many times God will not answer immediately. Over time, finally when He has given us what we asked for, we forget that we have prayed and asked for it. Our challenge is for us to give back to God whatever He has given us - acknowledge the giver, not only the gift.
10) We have no lack, we are so blessed because God provides for our every need.
Technical Abilities to do things VS Foundational character of a person
Many a times, we strive to improve in our technical abilities to do things, but what is really impt?
i am reading my RAD Ballet guide. I'm so thankful that Shir just decided to get me this book one day last yr. It's time to make those pics, those steps come alive. Goodness, my class today touched on steps from Grade 1-5....STRESS!
Dancing, Dancing, Dancing....
Day 27 (Today i'll have problem choosing my font colours. Thanks so much!)
Oooo...today, i woke up early for a last min assignment. Brilliant. A friend's student, this time is worse, she's a concerned case...very prone to failing her clarinet exam. Today is our first practice, and guess what, her exam is tmr. Well done. These students think that getting a professional pianist can help cover their backsides. But they are so wrong....Even if she pays me like $100/hr i won't be able to bribe the examiner to pass her. Anyway, if i had a pail, i would have a lot of blood to vomit, but i allowed it to just remain at boiling point inside me. Got vapour and steam, but no fire. hahaha....My patience level has increased.
Went out for a while after that...thank goodness i could go out to breathe some acid rain air. Came back, felt soo sleepy. I had a 45 min nap before another of my student came.
In the evening, i went for my class, haha...only me and another girl, who used to attend class with me last yr. But she has advanced lots and i had a hard time catching up with her. All the advanced steps started to appear. It doesn't help that i didn't cut my nails...wahhaha!! It's really quite a big jump in standard coz i decided to try level 1 instead of going back to the beginners class. Nevermind, persevere!!! But it's so silly coz they're gonna close down this monday class next term!! Argh!!!
Sunday - Day 26
Pulau Ubin Pics...
The forever-got-sey Ms EC...On our bumboat there....
I have not "Lai Chuang" for a very long time. But today was a classic example. Haha....once in a while la. *Negative Demonstration* Heehee. Thank God that He didn't send thunder and lightning. Haha. I had a very different feeling this morning preparing myself for church. I was a happy girl.
Today's message about LOVE was very timely. I think it's something that God is speaking to different ones of us. I thank God that everything falls in place with everything that is happening ard. Though we always hear the familiar message abt Love and 1 Cor 13, but today the message was brought across in a very different perspective. I was also reminded abt my burdens for the less fortunate in other countries.
Had a good time of fellowship with the Psalmist and Sound pple as we met up for our post-mortem of Worship Conference 2006. i thank God that the spontaneousity of our post post-mortem discussion, gave us the opportunity to bless and communicate some of our thoughts to two brothers in the ministry. We were just bouncing ideas off one another, time really passed very quickly!
Ice-cream to end a sweet afternoon! Thank God for our time. i really appreciate every minute. Sometimes, most times, words cannot express.
"Leave the World behind......."
Saturday
Long day again today. After my morning classes, we headed to Pulau Ubin for trekking and cycling.
Overall, it was a gd experience coz i've never been to Ubin before. And i enjoy trekking and exploring new places. I thank God for the weather because it wasn't too hot. There was an interesting place in Ubin that we visited. We had to climb up to this highest point in Ubin? It's called the Quarry. It overlooks this very beautiful lake-looking thingy that was said to contain only rainwater. It's seldom u get to see such a sight in Singapore but i'm glad we made it up there.
We got ard mostly by cycling except for the time where we hiked up to the Quarry. Interesting to see fruit trees (rambutan) along the way, edible flowers/fruits etc. Thank God for bikes with adjustable suspensions.
While cycling, many tots came to my mind. As usual, along came the reflective mood. It's interesting that some of these physical activities can cause a stirring in my emotions and they just pierced right thru my heart.
'Neway, the sky started to suggest that the weather would turn unfriendly pretty soon. We decided to head back to the jetty. We didn't exactly rush, still cycled casually. When we finally got to the jetty, we could already feel drops of water. (Bout 1 drop per 5 seconds) But then, that didn't stop some of us from taking our own sweet time to snap some last shots. From a distance, rain could literally be seen coming towards us from the Changi Jetty. Yet, i was just trying to test the rain's patience by still taking my own sweet time to snap some last photos.
Finally the rain poured. It was SUPER HEAVY and we were forced to run for the shelter!! It's amazing to see how God was so in control of the whole day's weather. He planned everything right down to the details for us. We managed to hop into our little sampan and took a very cooling and entertaining ride back. Thank God for providing that boat that so protected us from the HEAVY RAIN!!! When we reached back to the Changi Jetty in a matter of like 10min? The rain stopped too...that is what i call DIVINE PLANNING.
All in all, i thank God for today, because i know He planned the day for us.
Had dinner at KFC, Sengkang. Walked ard for a while till everyone decided it was time to head home.
We went to Bedok Reservoir. Yes, it's one of the places on my to-go list. i so love the serenity there. i love the swing and the see-saw....my deprived childhood came to light. Thanks, coz ur always bringing that smile to my face. =)
Welcome to the East.
"Leave the world behind......"
My Next Destination
Someone got it right...she came to ask me..."Which country u wanna go?"
Yes, i'm thinking. Give me....3 months to think.
Sometimes, u really need to learn how to deal with unfulfilled expectations. Wake up yr ideas Elena. Pple are really not obliged to please u...so pls wake up.
Where's my next destination? Thinking process has started. But i've not discussed this with anyone. If need be, i'll do it on my own. That will really be something new and different...pathetic maybe...
I'm happy because i finally got my hair CUT. The weather has been rather unfriendly lately, when it's hot it's really hot, when it's cold, i can freeze to death. But my haircut wasn't exactly cheap coz this is the first time i'm paying adult price, usually pay student price. So, yeah the cut burnt a huge hole in my pocket. Prob no more cutting till maybe chinese new year 2007.
Went for HE Thanksgiving today. While watching the video, i was reminded how God used the whole process of dancing to heal me, to bring positive energy into my life, and to carry me thru my hardest season. Thank God for the fellowship, it's always such meetups that i get to meet pple intentionally and talk. Sometimes i wonder if i'm alone in my tots, whether my tots are irrational, whether they are silly etc. But it's amazing to know that there are pple who really understand how i feel coz they have been there, done that. It saved me lotsa explanations, direct quote - "u dun need to explain, i know exactly how u feel..." But i know, God is speaking to me, and i learn new lessons everyday. Now i've to ask Him, to give me clear directions with regards to this aspect of my life. Just waiting for something to happen isn't a solution.
i'm not exactly at my peak.
"And i, want to climb up this mountain again, to be with u Jesus..."
Thursday
Today, ok...have another matter to think about with regards to work and my rice bowl...but i still trust that God is guiding me on this matter, and i just have to hear and listen out for his instructions. I need specific ones though.
Had Core meeting at night. Been a long time since we talked to this extend. But i guess it was a gd improvement. Lots to think and pray thru. It's about time.
Tonight...some tots came into my mind. i hate it when i can't blog it here coz everyone's reading...argh...ok nvm.
Tmr, gonna be a long day. Got to get up early for work.
Some tots for the day:
God loves the way we are and the way He created us.
Forgive and finding compassion towards those who hurt me.
Entrusting myself to God. He is the only one whom i'm answerable to because He judges justly.
I love the playground! (Day 23)
Today is a LONG day. A very very very very long day. It's been a long time since i woke up at 645am for WORK. Thank God i managed to flag down a cab today, didn't have to call. Really really thank God.
Haiz..all that enthusiasm made me the first person to reach...aiya...i came out early coz i scared cannot flag cab mah....but then again i was excited coz i was gonna see grandauntie and granduncle. (The grand-pple family) I was surprised Seet still recognise me....but anyway...papers were from 930-6pm. Though i was there at Republic Poly from 8-6pm. Damn hardworking la. The money isn't really easy to earn coz u have to bear with the freezing-cold air con and walk ard with my painful blisters, though i could sit throughout if i wanted...nobody really cared what i did la. Even the chief examiner come and talk nonsense to me and make me laugh like mad. The time of stoning prove to be a cool time of reflection, sitting in silence. Today, i caught this two young kids cheating right under my nose...was telling grandauntie either they think i'm stupid, or they are stupid, thinking that i can't see. But i should have reminded them that i've been there b4 and i know all the tricks up their sleeves.
After work, i went to Causeway Point for dinner. This is the highlight of the day. Yesterday my entry spoke abt probability. Today i ask again...what is the probability of wearing a same colour top as that same person for TWO CONSECUTIVE DAYS and the colour is NOT COMMON AT ALL --> Bluish Turquoise. The worst thing is that in the morning i was just thinking that it's impossible (Probability=0%) that today we'll wear anything similar! *Scratches Head*
Thank you Lord for playgrounds, thank you Lord for talks, thank you Lord for that particular "animal" that brought me so much joy, thank you Lord for openness, thank you Lord for confessions, thank you Lord for love, thank you Lord for affirmation, thank you Lord for positive changes, thank you Lord for speaking that particular verse this morning that teaches me to have more faith and boldness in speaking yr word.
Thank You Lord for moulding us, refining us; teaching and also reminding us to rest securely in You and You alone. You are the Only One who satisfies.
Calculating the Probability
I'm so amused, Please forgive me, but i need to blog this.
Have you gotten onto a car, and for two consecutive tuesdays, u see this same person wearing the same colour as u...and of all colours, it's some not-so-common colour like GREEN????
And then on closer look....EYES OPENING WIDERRRR....you realise that u just bought exactly the same top yesterday, same design, same cutting, same size (only difference in colour) Now, what's the probability of that happening?
Thank You for being so sweet. Like i said, it would have been sweeter if i didn't miss u. =) Erm, tmr i'm going to be in woodlands. Try to make it there on time ok? *LOL*
Focusing on the right ONE
Thanks for Psalms 91 this morning...i'm feeling betta now after gg to bed last night and waking up.
A continuation of my tots from 2 wks ago when i was at Pandan Reservoir...God said to stop focusing on our needs, our hurts, our struggles. Focus on the right ONE up there. Today i was reminded of that again. What is His purpose for me in my life? Just be faithful to do what God has called us to do. He created us in His own image, He wants us to be a gd steward of all that He has provided for us, which includes the love ones He has placed in our lives. Also, we've been called to be His witnesses, have we been doing what we ought to do? Have we been trying hard enough, or just merely doing it out of convenience?
Ctrl-Alt-Del
Monday
"Ctrl+Alt+Del exemplifies a renewal. It starts with the notion of being controlled, and then the act of choosing a different or alternative approach, and ultimately the deleting or freeing of oneself from the past. To renew is to change, and to change is to find a new meaning in life."
Last minute assignment is over. Went ok. 'Nuff said. Shopping to kill time.
Today, we met Jac for dinner. It's been a long time since we met up. Haha. Cedele has nice sandwiches, and Wheelock has nice ice-cream...whatever-brand-that-is.
I'm not God. I can't multi-task as well as Him, which means i also can't give the same amount of love and attention to every single person i know. Don't ask me why...coz i'm equally clueless. Unconditional love's hard. But i've been working on it....since yearns ago. But yet, i have my limits, coz i'm human.
The Mountain-Top Experience
More clutter, and yet MORE Clutter. i thought my afternoon was a fantastic flushing-the-clutter time but argh...when i got home...i've thousand and one things to think abt!!!!! It's gonna be another busy week this wk. Just when i thought it was all over.
Today's "keyboarding" was really faith-stretching...no amount of degree certs will carry me thru without God. Saw how God worked, He turned our helplessness into hope, He turned our inadequacies for His glory. End of the day, it's Him that we're worshipping, our playing, our worship, their worship, they are all HIS. =)
Today was supposed to be a really hot day, i was already baking by 2.30pm under my thick clothing. Today, deciding where to go was easier, because u have someone who's spontaneous with u. i'm beginning to appreciate changes, new things, new places better. (But it doesn't apply to relationships and friendships ok..) Went to Mt Fab, started well...quiet, with the slight rustling sound of leaves. Though the view was sea-less and beautifully green (!!!), i love that spot. Today was reflection day again, after yesterday's playing time. But this time i wasn't quite thinking about myself. I was thinking abt my cell grp and what God was speaking to me wrt to what He's doing in the group.
Well done, suddenly within half an hour, God sent rain....(signifying cleansing?) started with really gentle drizzle, so gentle that u can't feel it under the tree. He gave us sufficient time to "bo-chup" and continue doing what we were doing..rain got a lil bigger, He gave us sufficient time to slowly stroll towards a shelter. Within the next 15 min....i was burying my face between our bags. The rain was SOOOOO heavy that we got wet though we were under a pavilion. Dozed off a lil, and then bout 1 hr later, rain stopped. Was interesting, we were reminded again of the song, "STILL". It's interesting how God sometimes teach us big lessons with simple illustrations..like HEAVY RAIN and learning how to be STILL in Him amidst the thunder and lightning just now.
When the rain stopped. we went to do some sightseeing, walked ard the place. This is considered my first time there, considering that previously i was there for a wedding, and didn't really explore the place at all. Mt Fab is big, so there's lotsa to walk. The only thing that i didn't manage to do is to peep at couples.
Went TB Market for dinner, YUM.
"Red and Green beans are good for our health."
~ E-na
*hugs*
I've overcome that WEB!
Saturday
Today, had a really long morning of teaching. Had lunch, and then....after much agony..much bullying and brain-cracking, (actually crack already also no use...end up gg with initial plan) headed to WCP. So hot!! But i love the sun!
I wanted to do something in WCP. Something that i always had fear for....last time during cross training, Dallas challenged everyone to climb that spider web...obviously i kinda have fear of heights, and i took years to get up there...and i didn't really climb very high and i decided to give up. Coming down was worse...
Suddenly, 2 days ago...when i was in a cab...just sitting in quietness, God suddenly impressed upon my heart that desire to climb that web once again. To overcome that personal fear, to break out of my comfort level and just go for it. i thank God we went there. Weather was hot, but i did and got what i wanted, laze ard and play!! We headed to the spider web later, i looked up, "AIYO!!" Then, I breathed, and i started ascending. You should have seen the expression written all over my face...frightened until dunno like what...but deep in my heart, i already decided i'll climb, right to the top!! Coming down was much easier this time....and i just decided to test my limits and take risk, anyhow step, descending as fast as i could. SHIOK! That feeling of conquering that puny web...it's not that high la, but it was a personal achievement, that was accompanied by lots of moral support.
Friday
We bring the sacrifice of praise into the house of the Lord!
It's been a long day, but i thank God for carrying me thru. Got up early this morning. i knew i couldn't waste time staying in bed. Got up to get myself ready for today. Thank God for putting in my heart a new song...
Worship Nite is finally over! God really came, was faithful, and blew everyone away. As i was reflecting, i knew that everyone really gave their all to God, just giving of themselves to the Lord, letting God take control of everything. Those who were weak and tired just gave it all up for Him. God spoke thru Pastor - that message that we all need to hear..."A Glimpse of Heaven" reminded us that what we are seeing now is indeed just a Glimpse of Heaven and there is so much more when we get there - our destination. It's not abt the music, the instruments, but simply just coming to lift Jesus high. God desires out of us holiness and purity, to come to him with "clean hands and a pure heart". Today....coming into God's presence without an agenda, without burdens in my head, simply FOCUSING ON GOD alone, letting Him move in whatever way he likes. Have u ever played the keybd and suddenly felt like u just fractured both yr hands...and then that thought comes...."What if i really fractured my hands?? It's my rice bowl u know???" But then at that moment...i was like "WHO CARES?? If i fractured my hands, i'll just SING!" But yeah...while playing...i really twisted my hand.. for a while i just couldn't play properly...fingers were all weak. COOL~!
As i was worshipping God, i was just thinking of all that He has put me thru...not just the past 9 months...but even in the last donkey number of years. *Bites lips* I'm assured that God is real...he's my strength, my support, my comfort in time of need...only He can dig deep into our souls.
"When the music fades, all is stripped away, and i simply come.....
Longing just to bring..something that's of worth, that will bless Your Heart...."
Who cares when someone played a wrong note, a wrong chord, or even one whole intro in a completely different key....seriously WHO CARES???
Thank You Lord for this simple fact that we can come to u so freely.. I thank You Lord.
You Raise Me Up
When I am down and, oh my soul, so weary;
When troubles come and my heart burdened be;
Then, I am still and wait here in the silence,
Until you come and sit awhile with me.
You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up : To more than I can be.
There is no life - no life without its hunger;
Each restless heart beats so imperfectly;
But when you come and I am filled with wonder,
Sometimes, I think I glimpse eternity.
You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up: To more than I can be.
How do i live?
How do I live without you
I want to know...
How do I breathe without you
If you ever go...
How do I ever, ever survive?
How do I
How do I
Oh how do I live?
If God wasn't there... i would have been crushed. If God wasn't faithful, i would have disappeared. I can't imagine how life would be without God, and thank goodness i will never have to find out.
Our spiritual maturity affects how we view completeness in God. Completeness in God is the byproduct of having a relationship with Him.
When God sends an angel....
Wednesday
Today..I finally spent some time at my piano again. It's been some time that I had the luxury of just spending consecutively 3 days at home in the daytime and I love it. Though one side of me think that i'm probably wasting my life away..another side of me says, that I betta rest now otherwise I may never have this chance to slack like this again. So i'm not that free actually..i'm busy slacking.
I had Indian food for dinner, gd...(I mean the company) and then I had to fulfill my duties - to teach and prepare my student for his Yamaha exam this wk. My schedule at night this wk is just total madness. I only have ONE weekday free to do whatever I want to do.
Did I mention??? It took me a gd 2 hrs to try logging into my internet, until I was so frustrated..I gave up. I decided to finish up something that was long overdue. When I was done with that...I received a silly phone call from a music teacher-friend. To cut the long story short, he's trying to get me to accompany one of his students for exam THIS COMING MONDAY. Either he is not-so-intelligent or he really over-estimated me and my @#$#^*! sight-reading skills. But this is the most last minute assignment that I've ever accepted. I'm just being nice because my mood has been good recently. Anyway, I was very thankful when God just decided to send my angel to save the day.
The Rebuilding has begun...I love my Life
Just did a type-written reflection the moment i stepped into my house and sat in front of the comp. The tots just came flowing in..not a long one...but enough to make myself happy. In short-"The Rebuilding has begun, and I love my life." Ok...my reflection ends here...
Today, I chatted with Na for 2.5 hrs again. C-Nana...i wanna go aussie. Save up and buy air ticket for me ok?
Was at Prayer Meeting tonight, God was gd. Again, He used our inadequacies and turned it into something for His glory. And He chose to do it in a place where everyone was just lost, unprepared and blur, but yet filled with faith. It just took worshippers that chose to focus on what's important.
I've an important task to do....i'm gonna pray abt it....
Winter Sonata Night
Monday
Today i had company for lunch at home....usually i'll just stare at the tv while eating...but today i had the company of my honourable guest. After lunch...i did some work...and then.....Zzzzz....no choice....the best way to kill time....moreover i was tired.
At 5.30pm, we all went out to run some errands, and then dinner dinner dinner. (EC, SS, ET) And we went to Sun Moon Japanese Restaurant...Nice ambience, supposedly authentic Jap food...oh well...who cares...i love love love jap food. It was a great time catching up...Not as if we haven't been la but yeah...gd time to just yank and chit chat...And finally i got my long awaited to-die-for hongkong pictures CD!! Yeah..i've been deprived of admiring my pics since we came back which was like half a month ago already? Gonna get some pics developed soon. Very pretty.
Pandan Reservoir part 3
And yet somemore...and the final few...
Pandan Reservoir
Some more pics which took me hrs to post...because blogger sucks.
My Heart and my Soul....i give u control.....
It's a good day afterall...it's a good day afterall...it's a good day afterall...it's a good good day....
Met Es and Shirley for Macs breakfast...i was quiet most of the time just slowly eating my food. Since when i'm i so quiet ha? i wonder why....
Graham Kendrick is gd! i love his band. Every single one of them...The band took the service today and i think it was really refreshing. The songs ministered, his message ministered, God ministered thru his faithful Servants. Thank you.
Today was an emotional day....prep b4 worship conf pract was gd. Gave me time to just communicate and come into the presence of God once again after that emotional roller coaster of 1 hr. Pract was long but gd. This yr very gd...coz my technical role in the band is very simple...just be there to provide some background..haha...which allows me to worship and focus on God and ministering to His pple.
And then..................................................the time has come!! Today, it's Pandan Reservoir! This is my FIRST time there...i feel like a *ku ku*. But that place is beautiful. Every step u take just allow u to reflect and appreciate the beauty of God's creation. Today was a crazy phototaking day, two silly willies were just trying to act like pro. But in the end....yeah...we took some really NICE pictures!!!! We took some time off to be alone..and stayed till 9? Awesome, very nice.
"Focus on me.....not on yr problems."
LCP3
Saturday
For the sake of myself wanting to track my whereabouts today, i shall enter an entry today.
This morning, received some things from my students for teacher's day. My love language isn't gifts, but i'm touched in their act of love to respect their teacher on this occasion. I'm blessed.
We had lunch at Adam rd food ctr, ran some errands and off to church for LCP3. At the end of LCP3, I was groggy and quiet. Well basically i guess most of the time during the mtg i was quite quiet la..except for some of the lil cranky ideas i had up my head...heehee.
Had dinner at Ivin's, Peranakan food, yum, i like. Anything that causes me to put on weight, i like, coz it's nice and yummy! We attended Dallas' grandpa's wake, Auntie Doreen's dad. As usual, i dislike caskets and those places, void decks still ok, but the casket ones, it's like surrounded by funerals, so scary! And today someone was playing prank on me...to see how frightened i can get right...But i really freaked out la!
Tmr is combined svc....worship conf pract...and i-dunno-wat....looking forward to it =)
I'm (We're) Your Beloved
i just got home. After a LONGGGGGGGGGGGGGG night. What's the best part of my night? I got to eat my favourite jap food, and i got to do what i like to do. (today is day 11 already actually..i counted wrongly..*innocent look*)
Haiz....half of my night was haiz............dunno what to say and how to describe. But it's been a long time since i really got angry. Yeah, i really did want to walk off and run away. Cause i couldn't take it any further. Wah liao, my threshold sucks! But i guess, whatever happened was God's will. Any other tots, to be committed to memory.
Was a great time again, down memory lane, joy, laughter, sadness, disappointment. God holds them all in His hands, before, now and forever.
I'm (We're) Your beloved,
Your creation,
And You love me as I am
You've called me chosen,
for Your Kingdom,
Unashamed to call me Your own
I'm (We're) Your beloved.
Thank U Lord.
Today was quite a personal achievement. I taught 3 students despite my tiredness + practise for wedding item. It's been a long time since i touched my violin, and i think it was quite an achievement that i played it for more than an hour non stop, though it can not be compared to whatever i played 8 years ago. Was a great time of just playing hymns on the violin with Shirley on the piano. When can we ever find the time to do such things??
Went to harbourfront with Shirley to walk. Had quite a bit of time to waste, so walked the whole building. i drank coffee so that it would keep me going for the rest of the evening. The Queen came after work, and we had dinner. Viet food today. Not bad, but not too impressive, i have tried better. Shirley had a high calling today...so we sent her off, waited a gd 40 min for cab, still thank God for the cab. Spent my rest of the evening in Macs.
I'm happy, i'm fortunate, i'm thankful, i'm contented.
Thank God. =)
at 11:23 PM
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhh Choo!!! This is what i've been doing 50% of my time today.
Today was also a pretty short day, coz i got up quite late. No afternoon nap today, that's pretty much an achievement. haha. But today was quite ok, except for my sinus.
Had a pleasant surprise today. Went to teach in the evening, and went to run some errands. Ok, the chocolates my sis gave me helped to curb the runny nose from running even faster. Thanks nette and the 'one' who forbade me from eating the chocolates =)
My long and busy weekend begins tmr. Did i mention...i kinda dun like busyness and packed schedules? Something new abt me....hee.
at 1:26 AM
"But Ruth replied, "Don't urge me to leave you or to turn back from you. Where you go, I will go, and where you stay, I will stay. Your people will be my people and your God my God. Where you die I will die, and there I will be buried. May the LORD deal with me, be it ever so severely, if anything but death separates you and me." When Naomi realized that Ruth was determined to go with her, she stopped urging her."
at 5:03 PM
In my Bedroom.....
Taking a Peek at Pretty Esther in her office...
Successfully uploading the pics i wanna upload. =)
at 9:49 AM
I really hate it when i get mood swings! But i'm feeling really low now...i wonder why...ok, i'm gonna hide in my pillow now. I'm really so not looking forward to tmr. i hope it quickly passes. Ok, i'm starting to throw tantrums. Maybe i'm really 'qualified' to celebrate Children's Day this Sunday!
Does it really mean that when u enter into any relationship of close proximity, u'll tend to struggle with insecurity more often than not? I hate it. Totally.
at 1:42 AM
Today, i was almost impressed with myself for not taking any afternoon nap, because by 5pm i was quite looking forward to get out of my house liao, after trying to pass time in the afternoon doing different things. I read "RUTH", i watched tv, i had a student, i wasted quite abit of brain cells in the morning thinking abt something which caused me to be unable to sleep in peace too..until i received that phone call, i did some reflections etc. Anyway, i ended up taking an afternoon nap from 5-6pm for some particular reason.
Went to church in the evening for Psalmist Core Meeting. Was another gd time of just learning how each other functions and thinks. Yes, things are getting betta, the more we lay things out on the table, the better it gets. I'm looking forward to more. But it's also high time that i started consolidating some of my personal thoughts that i've been having for the past few months.
Anyway, did i mention today's Day 37, and it ends today. Not like we have a choice, but =)
Tmr....a day of teaching.
Friday, let's hope i get some life.
Saturday, the only day for me to make sure i get a life.
Sunday is Children's Day. Do i even fit the bill to celebrate what we call "Children's Day"?
at 12:15 AM
What do you think of when you look @ the scars on your own body?
The past?
How can you use the scars in your own life to bring glory to God?
Remember, your scars are beautiful to God.
Looking back at my scars, and wounds which are still healing, that sour feeling comes back to haunt me constantly. But i know that one day, i'll come out of the battle, victorious, being an even stronger woman of God. =)
Thank You Lord.
at 2:58 PM
The Gerbs are so pretty! Can we grow them ourselves in Singapore????
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at 9:25 AM
I'm looking forward to tmr morning, i wonder why....but i think i owe someone an explanation. Wait till tmr then. =)
at 12:12 AM
Some reflections that i know my memory can't hold:
How many times have we made our feelings conditional?
Sometimes, we use our feelings to determine our relationship/closeness with someone.
Sometimes we use our feelings to determine the health of our relationship with God.
Other times, we use our circumstances to define God's love for us.
We forget that we have an unchanging God.
We forget that His word is everlasting.
Let's fix our eyes on Him, knowing His character, and what a faithful God He is. =)
at 3:10 PM
Ok! i shall do it for the sake of my and your reading pleasure! In the evening, i went for my dance class, today we had 3 students...yay.a lil less tiring than last wk, prob cause i'm a lil more used to it. I left a lil earlier coz i didn't want to keep someone waiting. Went to makan downstairs, yummy, but today, got a lil high on "e-c-s-t-a-s-y". The suaning between two pple already went up to the next level, both pple learnt how to make each other show that sour face after being suaned. But pls dun forget who's the teacher here hor....some things u still have to point back to the master. Hahahaha!!!!
Anyway, after dinner, went to my place to get the car. Then...the rest of the night, shall be committed to my poor memory.
Quoted from a card that was written to me: "When the searing adversity's sun burn their way into our day, there's nothing quite like a sheltering tree - a true friend, to give us relief in it's cool shade. It's massive trunk of understanding gives security as its thick leaves of love wash our face and wipe our brow. Beneath its branches have rested many a discouraged soul."
at 1:22 AM
One thing that i'm stressed abt is that it's ACS (I), an all-boys school, i mean like, what is God telling me man??? Of all schools, instead of giving me MGS, which i'm more familiar with, he gives me ACS!! And they also have this IB programme which houses the freakiest and smartest students in singapore. And i've to teach them music and it's not like some normal secondary school music curriculum. I've to teach them history of the 4 periods of music and much more. But i really thank God, coz i ever mentioned that i'll never want to step into a secondary school to teach music as a subject coz it's just boring. And so, knowing the desire of my heart, he gave me ACS. On top of that, it's a christian environment, and i may have chances to work with the christian band CCA there too.
Anyway, it's been confirmed that i'm starting my one-year contract with them with effect from january next yr. The best thing is that i still have my flexibility in the first quarter of the year coz i don't have to go in everyday. I'm looking forward to it. But i think i'll need perseverance to finish the one year. If all goes well, better things are installed. Thank God.
at 5:14 PM
I thank God, i thank God and i thank God. I received again, this lil princess received again. =)
This morning, i woke up, feeling a lil betta after catching up on my sleep. Managed 6 hrs of rest. Thankfully. i took a bus to church today, after so long, yeah i only manage to do such things whenever i play for adult's svc. But yay, i saved $$ on cab - yes, now i'm in the season of attempting to spend less on myself...but is that ever possible? Haha. =) Anyway, with regards to service today, i thank God because He multiplies, and turn things ard for His glory. And i give glory back to him for whatever happened during svc because end of the day, i know He was the one who drives and leads everything.
After svc, had another round of pract for 'meditative' svc with the Psalmist pple. I thank God for those who were involved today, their gd attitudes just made things so easy. It's God who has formed this band together, and i pray that He will use us as His instruments as a form of svc to the congregation and make us simple worshippers that can worship Him with our lives.
After pract, we headed to Shir's place, erm, reasons are censored but while Shir was at home busily prep etc, Est and I went up to the rooftop carpark and took a nap. We gave ourselves a minimum of half an hr to rest. Thanks Shirley for being understanding =) Shirley brought us out for dinner tonight, we went to Tanglin mall - AH HOI Kitchen. Am glad she's back finally. It was a cool evening out, i enjoyed especially the alfresco dining and the time of catching up. Then decided to call it an early night.
Headed to the ulu swimming pool, but it closes early, so just sat there for 20 min only. Later, we went to WCP. I'm happy, i got to eat my ice-cream and climb my web. This time i did it much faster, and i went all the way up, with some nudging. No sweat! Fear has really been overcome. Yay! Went to feed some mosquitoes at the playgrd. Night of just ....ok elaborating ends here. Got home abt 1am, quite a struggle to blog, there's just so much details. Bumped into Tricia, bro and Roy at Macs. i thank God that He helped prevent a FINE of $400 for parking at wheelchair lot at my place. It's really by His grace. Thank You Lord for prompting the 'sharp eyes'. But the parking attendant is really enthu, 1230am already she's still working, trying to clear her quota.
Anyway, tonight, i got what i needed, and what i asked God for. I'm more than thankful. Next wk will be a gd wk i believe, (though there's this part of me which just feels so sian). I'm just sian that my nights are so packed...and what does that mean????????????? I really dislike the feeling that i've no room to plan to do whatever i'm happy doing because of some pre-arranged commitments i have. Haiz.... no gd. But anyway, one day at a time. I shall work it out. [ouch! sudden chestpain, no pains for a long time, i'm overworked??]
ok, time for bed, i took 2 whole hrs to blog. Oh man, is it really so hard to blog?
at 1:14 AM
i need a big ****************** to start this wk
Yawn....bed time!
at 12:52 AM
Today, i was in the groggy state, due to lack of sleep. i wonder if my faced showed it. But no one mentioned. Haha. Morever i've gotten feedback that i've been smiling a lot more recently, so looks like all tiredness is just buried under those smiles. Though i was tired, and still had to drive, i give thanks for the car because it just made things a lot simpler.
Practice at the adults cong was zzzzzzzzzzzzzz *no comments* coz half the time i didn't know the song..and nothing particularly exciting happened. I was lost most of the time. Quite sad that i couldn't attend cell, coz it's been quite sometime that we had cell. Met Wai for a chat. It's been a long overdue one. Went back to watch Worship Pract and then had dinner. Today, Dals, Paul, Matt, Est and I went to Wah Lai (is this what u call that place?) for dinner. I've never seen Dals and Paul so high b4 over a meal. But this meal really cheered everyone up and everyone just started being so chatty. Even the tired Queen and Princess were happy after the dinner. Affordable and good. Looks like it'll be our future erm...yes eating place. The Queen has already expressed her interest.
Today, i learnt something new again, abt myself, with regards to love. Thank U for affirming me. It meant lots.
Thank you Lord once again for showering love upon me in that way that u chose to. i've been really really blessed and I'm really happy, though i'm sleepy.
at 11:11 PM
at 8:27 AM
Decided to head to milenia to do something that was long overdue, for the sake of my dance shoes. Went to do a lil shopping and then headed for my night activity. i need to blog this down again for remembrance sake. Today's colour is GREEN AGAIN!
Enjoyed my time at IMM this evening, went for hongkong cruisine, yay, with mummy and the Queen. So exciting la. I finally got my lil piggy bank in Daiso. It isn't very "little" in size but i'm extremely satisfied with it! (Shirley, i must show it to u one day when i have the chance, it's only $2 for that big thing!) Someone was even more excited than me....just imagine!
Anyway, we headed home early. Tired la. We spent quite a bit of time looking at my photos. Anyway, it's gonna be a long day tmr. We need sleep. NOW.
at 1:07 AM
Afternoon, after lunch, i started feeling sleepy again, so yeah, i went into the natural process, hahahaha. 2.5 hrs, with no disturbance and distractions. Mind was overwhelmed too, by fears, so natural reaction - Hide in bed.
Had a yummy dinner, Korean food. i am beginning to think that my suaning skills have taken onto a higher level now to the point where i just go on and on non stop...terrible la me....i betta stop. Otherwise the Queen will sentence me to death.
Tmr....should i? i'm lazy....hahaha. i'm looking forward to my night. It's my precious Friday Night!
Press on...we're doing well...one step at a time. *Look up there! =)*
at 10:18 PM
He pulls it away, He takes it back.
Great, i know how it feels, and i've woken up my ideas abt allowing anything to take God's rightful place again. Thank You Lord, i've learnt my lesson. Thanks for that painful smack on my butt. It's gd that i'm still alive today. i made it thru. And i'm ready for more....What's next?
Now may i ask then, is it gone for good?
at 10:31 AM
I'm very tired. I'm zapped physically. i need to sleep!!
Today, i spent my daytime at home. No working today. Yippee!! By the time i got up was already 11am. Spent the afternoon preparing for reflective svc. It's gd coz i finished what i had to do. i'm impressed with myself coz i didn't take an afternoon nap.
Booked movie tickets, but didn't get to watch it. It's ok, it's not abt the show anyway, though it was recommended. Thank God that the evening was planned by Him. Some things u can plan, but most of the times, u just know it's by God's grace that things fall into place. i had a great night at the waterfront. Thank God for whatever happened.
"Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go." Joshua 1:9
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at 2:12 PM
Enjoyed my lunch, food was nice, (yay my fav jap food!) but company was nicer. Soon enough, i was carrying a sleepy face and started feeling tired and i've been sniffing and sneezing all morning. Yesterday's weather was just pure unfriendly, i even had to wear a jacket in my house.
I headed to Greenridge Secondary for choir, and i didn't make it through man. After 1.5 hrs of lesson, i couldn't take it anymore. I just informed the teacher-in-charge i was not feeling well, and i wanted to leave. In the end, she also dismissed the students early. They must have loved me lots man. At that juncture, i just needed somewhere to recover. Called Dallas, was too much of a hassle to drag him home early. I decided to choose somewhere more familiar, was showered with natural warmth, no need to have heater or anything.
Headed to boon keng for dinner. Someone said today that laughter is a gd medicine. i agree, it beats all vit C pills hands down! Haha. And not everyone is capable of making me laugh ok! You have to be willing to be a fool-for-elena. (just kidding) *Muacks* Anyway, i quote Dallas..."The Power of Love"!
Today 1 Samuel 1 got me thinking of many things that i can identify with very easily in this season of my life. It just hit right on the nail!
Some points of reflection:
1) Love of God doesn't depend on our works, it depends on the grace of God.
2) Do we cherish accomplishments, abilities, things, pple more than God?
3) Lack of Fruitfulness - Purposely allowed by God to teach us that there are alot of things beyond our capacity.
4) Give thanks for EVERYTHING that we have and don't have. Only God can bestow, only God can give.
5) Prayer is not just opening our mouths to pray sweet words, it also involves engaging deeply in the spirit, pouring out our heart and soul to the Lord.
6) God can give and take away, our lives are in His hands.
7) "Count your blessings name them one by one..." =)
8) Are we appreciating God enough for what He has done for us?
9) When we pray, many times God will not answer immediately. Over time, finally when He has given us what we asked for, we forget that we have prayed and asked for it. Our challenge is for us to give back to God whatever He has given us - acknowledge the giver, not only the gift.
10) We have no lack, we are so blessed because God provides for our every need.
Technical Abilities to do things VS Foundational character of a person
at 11:07 PM
at 1:32 AM
Oooo...today, i woke up early for a last min assignment. Brilliant. A friend's student, this time is worse, she's a concerned case...very prone to failing her clarinet exam. Today is our first practice, and guess what, her exam is tmr. Well done. These students think that getting a professional pianist can help cover their backsides. But they are so wrong....Even if she pays me like $100/hr i won't be able to bribe the examiner to pass her. Anyway, if i had a pail, i would have a lot of blood to vomit, but i allowed it to just remain at boiling point inside me. Got vapour and steam, but no fire. hahaha....My patience level has increased.
Went out for a while after that...thank goodness i could go out to breathe some acid rain air. Came back, felt soo sleepy. I had a 45 min nap before another of my student came.
In the evening, i went for my class, haha...only me and another girl, who used to attend class with me last yr. But she has advanced lots and i had a hard time catching up with her. All the advanced steps started to appear. It doesn't help that i didn't cut my nails...wahhaha!! It's really quite a big jump in standard coz i decided to try level 1 instead of going back to the beginners class. Nevermind, persevere!!! But it's so silly coz they're gonna close down this monday class next term!! Argh!!!
1130pm: The clarinet girl came again at 8.45pm and just left. 3 hrs of clarinet blowing into my ears, God, pls prevent nightmare. Amen!
Tmr is gonna be a packed and tiring day. One place to another. Morning to Night. No one can say i'm lazy..coz i'm gonna work!! Even had to say no to relief teaching assignment in my sec sch for tmr. sigh!!!
at 10:22 PM
at 9:08 AM
High Tide....I love the sea!
The forever-got-sey Ms EC...On our bumboat there....
Half the group of us who were there at Ubin! I'm sorry if i looked a lil crazy...i just ascended Mount Everest!! (Ya Rite!!)
Right up on the top! Whatever u see behind us is beautiful, peaceful and quiet...
at 1:25 AM
Today's message about LOVE was very timely. I think it's something that God is speaking to different ones of us. I thank God that everything falls in place with everything that is happening ard. Though we always hear the familiar message abt Love and 1 Cor 13, but today the message was brought across in a very different perspective. I was also reminded abt my burdens for the less fortunate in other countries.
Had a good time of fellowship with the Psalmist and Sound pple as we met up for our post-mortem of Worship Conference 2006. i thank God that the spontaneousity of our post post-mortem discussion, gave us the opportunity to bless and communicate some of our thoughts to two brothers in the ministry. We were just bouncing ideas off one another, time really passed very quickly!
Ice-cream to end a sweet afternoon! Thank God for our time. i really appreciate every minute. Sometimes, most times, words cannot express.
at 7:10 PM
Long day again today. After my morning classes, we headed to Pulau Ubin for trekking and cycling.
Overall, it was a gd experience coz i've never been to Ubin before. And i enjoy trekking and exploring new places. I thank God for the weather because it wasn't too hot. There was an interesting place in Ubin that we visited. We had to climb up to this highest point in Ubin? It's called the Quarry. It overlooks this very beautiful lake-looking thingy that was said to contain only rainwater. It's seldom u get to see such a sight in Singapore but i'm glad we made it up there.
We got ard mostly by cycling except for the time where we hiked up to the Quarry. Interesting to see fruit trees (rambutan) along the way, edible flowers/fruits etc. Thank God for bikes with adjustable suspensions.
While cycling, many tots came to my mind. As usual, along came the reflective mood. It's interesting that some of these physical activities can cause a stirring in my emotions and they just pierced right thru my heart.
'Neway, the sky started to suggest that the weather would turn unfriendly pretty soon. We decided to head back to the jetty. We didn't exactly rush, still cycled casually. When we finally got to the jetty, we could already feel drops of water. (Bout 1 drop per 5 seconds) But then, that didn't stop some of us from taking our own sweet time to snap some last shots. From a distance, rain could literally be seen coming towards us from the Changi Jetty. Yet, i was just trying to test the rain's patience by still taking my own sweet time to snap some last photos.
Finally the rain poured. It was SUPER HEAVY and we were forced to run for the shelter!! It's amazing to see how God was so in control of the whole day's weather. He planned everything right down to the details for us. We managed to hop into our little sampan and took a very cooling and entertaining ride back. Thank God for providing that boat that so protected us from the HEAVY RAIN!!! When we reached back to the Changi Jetty in a matter of like 10min? The rain stopped too...that is what i call DIVINE PLANNING.
All in all, i thank God for today, because i know He planned the day for us.
Had dinner at KFC, Sengkang. Walked ard for a while till everyone decided it was time to head home.
We went to Bedok Reservoir. Yes, it's one of the places on my to-go list. i so love the serenity there. i love the swing and the see-saw....my deprived childhood came to light. Thanks, coz ur always bringing that smile to my face. =)
Welcome to the East.
"Leave the world behind......"
at 12:11 AM
Yes, i'm thinking. Give me....3 months to think.
at 1:59 AM
Where's my next destination? Thinking process has started. But i've not discussed this with anyone. If need be, i'll do it on my own. That will really be something new and different...pathetic maybe...
I'm happy because i finally got my hair CUT. The weather has been rather unfriendly lately, when it's hot it's really hot, when it's cold, i can freeze to death. But my haircut wasn't exactly cheap coz this is the first time i'm paying adult price, usually pay student price. So, yeah the cut burnt a huge hole in my pocket. Prob no more cutting till maybe chinese new year 2007.
Went for HE Thanksgiving today. While watching the video, i was reminded how God used the whole process of dancing to heal me, to bring positive energy into my life, and to carry me thru my hardest season. Thank God for the fellowship, it's always such meetups that i get to meet pple intentionally and talk. Sometimes i wonder if i'm alone in my tots, whether my tots are irrational, whether they are silly etc. But it's amazing to know that there are pple who really understand how i feel coz they have been there, done that. It saved me lotsa explanations, direct quote - "u dun need to explain, i know exactly how u feel..." But i know, God is speaking to me, and i learn new lessons everyday. Now i've to ask Him, to give me clear directions with regards to this aspect of my life. Just waiting for something to happen isn't a solution.
i'm not exactly at my peak.
"And i, want to climb up this mountain again, to be with u Jesus..."
at 10:58 PM
Today, ok...have another matter to think about with regards to work and my rice bowl...but i still trust that God is guiding me on this matter, and i just have to hear and listen out for his instructions. I need specific ones though.
Had Core meeting at night. Been a long time since we talked to this extend. But i guess it was a gd improvement. Lots to think and pray thru. It's about time.
Tonight...some tots came into my mind. i hate it when i can't blog it here coz everyone's reading...argh...ok nvm.
Tmr, gonna be a long day. Got to get up early for work.
Some tots for the day:
God loves the way we are and the way He created us.
Forgive and finding compassion towards those who hurt me.
Entrusting myself to God. He is the only one whom i'm answerable to because He judges justly.
at 12:41 AM
Haiz..all that enthusiasm made me the first person to reach...aiya...i came out early coz i scared cannot flag cab mah....but then again i was excited coz i was gonna see grandauntie and granduncle. (The grand-pple family) I was surprised Seet still recognise me....but anyway...papers were from 930-6pm. Though i was there at Republic Poly from 8-6pm. Damn hardworking la. The money isn't really easy to earn coz u have to bear with the freezing-cold air con and walk ard with my painful blisters, though i could sit throughout if i wanted...nobody really cared what i did la. Even the chief examiner come and talk nonsense to me and make me laugh like mad. The time of stoning prove to be a cool time of reflection, sitting in silence. Today, i caught this two young kids cheating right under my nose...was telling grandauntie either they think i'm stupid, or they are stupid, thinking that i can't see. But i should have reminded them that i've been there b4 and i know all the tricks up their sleeves.
After work, i went to Causeway Point for dinner. This is the highlight of the day. Yesterday my entry spoke abt probability. Today i ask again...what is the probability of wearing a same colour top as that same person for TWO CONSECUTIVE DAYS and the colour is NOT COMMON AT ALL --> Bluish Turquoise. The worst thing is that in the morning i was just thinking that it's impossible (Probability=0%) that today we'll wear anything similar! *Scratches Head*
Thank you Lord for playgrounds, thank you Lord for talks, thank you Lord for that particular "animal" that brought me so much joy, thank you Lord for openness, thank you Lord for confessions, thank you Lord for love, thank you Lord for affirmation, thank you Lord for positive changes, thank you Lord for speaking that particular verse this morning that teaches me to have more faith and boldness in speaking yr word.
Thank You Lord for moulding us, refining us; teaching and also reminding us to rest securely in You and You alone. You are the Only One who satisfies.
at 12:07 AM
Have you gotten onto a car, and for two consecutive tuesdays, u see this same person wearing the same colour as u...and of all colours, it's some not-so-common colour like GREEN????
And then on closer look....EYES OPENING WIDERRRR....you realise that u just bought exactly the same top yesterday, same design, same cutting, same size (only difference in colour) Now, what's the probability of that happening?
Thank You for being so sweet. Like i said, it would have been sweeter if i didn't miss u. =) Erm, tmr i'm going to be in woodlands. Try to make it there on time ok? *LOL*
at 6:37 PM
A continuation of my tots from 2 wks ago when i was at Pandan Reservoir...God said to stop focusing on our needs, our hurts, our struggles. Focus on the right ONE up there. Today i was reminded of that again. What is His purpose for me in my life? Just be faithful to do what God has called us to do. He created us in His own image, He wants us to be a gd steward of all that He has provided for us, which includes the love ones He has placed in our lives. Also, we've been called to be His witnesses, have we been doing what we ought to do? Have we been trying hard enough, or just merely doing it out of convenience?
at 10:22 AM
"Ctrl+Alt+Del exemplifies a renewal. It starts with the notion of being controlled, and then the act of choosing a different or alternative approach, and ultimately the deleting or freeing of oneself from the past. To renew is to change, and to change is to find a new meaning in life."
Last minute assignment is over. Went ok. 'Nuff said. Shopping to kill time.
Today, we met Jac for dinner. It's been a long time since we met up. Haha. Cedele has nice sandwiches, and Wheelock has nice ice-cream...whatever-brand-that-is.
I'm not God. I can't multi-task as well as Him, which means i also can't give the same amount of love and attention to every single person i know. Don't ask me why...coz i'm equally clueless. Unconditional love's hard. But i've been working on it....since yearns ago. But yet, i have my limits, coz i'm human.
at 12:39 AM
Today's "keyboarding" was really faith-stretching...no amount of degree certs will carry me thru without God. Saw how God worked, He turned our helplessness into hope, He turned our inadequacies for His glory. End of the day, it's Him that we're worshipping, our playing, our worship, their worship, they are all HIS. =)
Today was supposed to be a really hot day, i was already baking by 2.30pm under my thick clothing. Today, deciding where to go was easier, because u have someone who's spontaneous with u. i'm beginning to appreciate changes, new things, new places better. (But it doesn't apply to relationships and friendships ok..) Went to Mt Fab, started well...quiet, with the slight rustling sound of leaves. Though the view was sea-less and beautifully green (!!!), i love that spot. Today was reflection day again, after yesterday's playing time. But this time i wasn't quite thinking about myself. I was thinking abt my cell grp and what God was speaking to me wrt to what He's doing in the group.
Well done, suddenly within half an hour, God sent rain....(signifying cleansing?) started with really gentle drizzle, so gentle that u can't feel it under the tree. He gave us sufficient time to "bo-chup" and continue doing what we were doing..rain got a lil bigger, He gave us sufficient time to slowly stroll towards a shelter. Within the next 15 min....i was burying my face between our bags. The rain was SOOOOO heavy that we got wet though we were under a pavilion. Dozed off a lil, and then bout 1 hr later, rain stopped. Was interesting, we were reminded again of the song, "STILL". It's interesting how God sometimes teach us big lessons with simple illustrations..like HEAVY RAIN and learning how to be STILL in Him amidst the thunder and lightning just now.
When the rain stopped. we went to do some sightseeing, walked ard the place. This is considered my first time there, considering that previously i was there for a wedding, and didn't really explore the place at all. Mt Fab is big, so there's lotsa to walk. The only thing that i didn't manage to do is to peep at couples.
Went TB Market for dinner, YUM.
"Red and Green beans are good for our health."
~ E-na
*hugs*
at 11:49 PM
Today, had a really long morning of teaching. Had lunch, and then....after much agony..much bullying and brain-cracking, (actually crack already also no use...end up gg with initial plan) headed to WCP. So hot!! But i love the sun!
I wanted to do something in WCP. Something that i always had fear for....last time during cross training, Dallas challenged everyone to climb that spider web...obviously i kinda have fear of heights, and i took years to get up there...and i didn't really climb very high and i decided to give up. Coming down was worse...
Suddenly, 2 days ago...when i was in a cab...just sitting in quietness, God suddenly impressed upon my heart that desire to climb that web once again. To overcome that personal fear, to break out of my comfort level and just go for it. i thank God we went there. Weather was hot, but i did and got what i wanted, laze ard and play!! We headed to the spider web later, i looked up, "AIYO!!" Then, I breathed, and i started ascending. You should have seen the expression written all over my face...frightened until dunno like what...but deep in my heart, i already decided i'll climb, right to the top!! Coming down was much easier this time....and i just decided to test my limits and take risk, anyhow step, descending as fast as i could. SHIOK! That feeling of conquering that puny web...it's not that high la, but it was a personal achievement, that was accompanied by lots of moral support.
It's so relaxing up there......
See, i climb the web like i'm climbing a staircase...it's so easy!
That smile on my face, reflects yr love and God's Love. Thanks =)
at 11:47 PM
We bring the sacrifice of praise into the house of the Lord!
It's been a long day, but i thank God for carrying me thru. Got up early this morning. i knew i couldn't waste time staying in bed. Got up to get myself ready for today. Thank God for putting in my heart a new song...
Worship Nite is finally over! God really came, was faithful, and blew everyone away. As i was reflecting, i knew that everyone really gave their all to God, just giving of themselves to the Lord, letting God take control of everything. Those who were weak and tired just gave it all up for Him. God spoke thru Pastor - that message that we all need to hear..."A Glimpse of Heaven" reminded us that what we are seeing now is indeed just a Glimpse of Heaven and there is so much more when we get there - our destination. It's not abt the music, the instruments, but simply just coming to lift Jesus high. God desires out of us holiness and purity, to come to him with "clean hands and a pure heart". Today....coming into God's presence without an agenda, without burdens in my head, simply FOCUSING ON GOD alone, letting Him move in whatever way he likes. Have u ever played the keybd and suddenly felt like u just fractured both yr hands...and then that thought comes...."What if i really fractured my hands?? It's my rice bowl u know???" But then at that moment...i was like "WHO CARES?? If i fractured my hands, i'll just SING!" But yeah...while playing...i really twisted my hand.. for a while i just couldn't play properly...fingers were all weak. COOL~!
As i was worshipping God, i was just thinking of all that He has put me thru...not just the past 9 months...but even in the last donkey number of years. *Bites lips* I'm assured that God is real...he's my strength, my support, my comfort in time of need...only He can dig deep into our souls.
"When the music fades, all is stripped away, and i simply come.....
Longing just to bring..something that's of worth, that will bless Your Heart...."
Who cares when someone played a wrong note, a wrong chord, or even one whole intro in a completely different key....seriously WHO CARES???
Thank You Lord for this simple fact that we can come to u so freely.. I thank You Lord.
at 12:27 AM
When I am down and, oh my soul, so weary;
When troubles come and my heart burdened be;
Then, I am still and wait here in the silence,
Until you come and sit awhile with me.
You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up : To more than I can be.
There is no life - no life without its hunger;
Each restless heart beats so imperfectly;
But when you come and I am filled with wonder,
Sometimes, I think I glimpse eternity.
You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up: To more than I can be.
at 12:43 PM
I want to know...
How do I breathe without you
If you ever go...
How do I ever, ever survive?
How do I
How do I
Oh how do I live?
If God wasn't there... i would have been crushed. If God wasn't faithful, i would have disappeared. I can't imagine how life would be without God, and thank goodness i will never have to find out.
Our spiritual maturity affects how we view completeness in God. Completeness in God is the byproduct of having a relationship with Him.
at 12:04 PM
Today..I finally spent some time at my piano again. It's been some time that I had the luxury of just spending consecutively 3 days at home in the daytime and I love it. Though one side of me think that i'm probably wasting my life away..another side of me says, that I betta rest now otherwise I may never have this chance to slack like this again. So i'm not that free actually..i'm busy slacking.
I had Indian food for dinner, gd...(I mean the company) and then I had to fulfill my duties - to teach and prepare my student for his Yamaha exam this wk. My schedule at night this wk is just total madness. I only have ONE weekday free to do whatever I want to do.
Did I mention??? It took me a gd 2 hrs to try logging into my internet, until I was so frustrated..I gave up. I decided to finish up something that was long overdue. When I was done with that...I received a silly phone call from a music teacher-friend. To cut the long story short, he's trying to get me to accompany one of his students for exam THIS COMING MONDAY. Either he is not-so-intelligent or he really over-estimated me and my @#$#^*! sight-reading skills. But this is the most last minute assignment that I've ever accepted. I'm just being nice because my mood has been good recently. Anyway, I was very thankful when God just decided to send my angel to save the day.
at 1:51 AM
Today, I chatted with Na for 2.5 hrs again. C-Nana...i wanna go aussie. Save up and buy air ticket for me ok?
Was at Prayer Meeting tonight, God was gd. Again, He used our inadequacies and turned it into something for His glory. And He chose to do it in a place where everyone was just lost, unprepared and blur, but yet filled with faith. It just took worshippers that chose to focus on what's important.
I've an important task to do....i'm gonna pray abt it....
at 11:46 PM
Today i had company for lunch at home....usually i'll just stare at the tv while eating...but today i had the company of my honourable guest. After lunch...i did some work...and then.....Zzzzz....no choice....the best way to kill time....moreover i was tired.
At 5.30pm, we all went out to run some errands, and then dinner dinner dinner. (EC, SS, ET) And we went to Sun Moon Japanese Restaurant...Nice ambience, supposedly authentic Jap food...oh well...who cares...i love love love jap food. It was a great time catching up...Not as if we haven't been la but yeah...gd time to just yank and chit chat...And finally i got my long awaited to-die-for hongkong pictures CD!! Yeah..i've been deprived of admiring my pics since we came back which was like half a month ago already? Gonna get some pics developed soon. Very pretty.
One little, two little, three little Bimbos...oops...where's the 3rd one?
Winter Sonata cast
at 1:51 AM
Taken by Esther.....She and her butterfly...isn't that a beautiful shot...which butterfly will sit there for u to take?
Her "Jia Xiang"
It's 9pm liao....very dark....
at 11:36 AM
Taken by the "long-hand"
The "jia xiang" babe!
U don't get this in Pasir Ris!
Weeds or Flowers? HAHA!
at 9:39 AM
Met Es and Shirley for Macs breakfast...i was quiet most of the time just slowly eating my food. Since when i'm i so quiet ha? i wonder why....
Graham Kendrick is gd! i love his band. Every single one of them...The band took the service today and i think it was really refreshing. The songs ministered, his message ministered, God ministered thru his faithful Servants. Thank you.
Today was an emotional day....prep b4 worship conf pract was gd. Gave me time to just communicate and come into the presence of God once again after that emotional roller coaster of 1 hr. Pract was long but gd. This yr very gd...coz my technical role in the band is very simple...just be there to provide some background..haha...which allows me to worship and focus on God and ministering to His pple.
And then..................................................the time has come!! Today, it's Pandan Reservoir! This is my FIRST time there...i feel like a *ku ku*. But that place is beautiful. Every step u take just allow u to reflect and appreciate the beauty of God's creation. Today was a crazy phototaking day, two silly willies were just trying to act like pro. But in the end....yeah...we took some really NICE pictures!!!! We took some time off to be alone..and stayed till 9? Awesome, very nice.
Taken by the Pro
"Focus on me.....not on yr problems."
at 10:48 PM
For the sake of myself wanting to track my whereabouts today, i shall enter an entry today.
This morning, received some things from my students for teacher's day. My love language isn't gifts, but i'm touched in their act of love to respect their teacher on this occasion. I'm blessed.
We had lunch at Adam rd food ctr, ran some errands and off to church for LCP3. At the end of LCP3, I was groggy and quiet. Well basically i guess most of the time during the mtg i was quite quiet la..except for some of the lil cranky ideas i had up my head...heehee.
Had dinner at Ivin's, Peranakan food, yum, i like. Anything that causes me to put on weight, i like, coz it's nice and yummy! We attended Dallas' grandpa's wake, Auntie Doreen's dad. As usual, i dislike caskets and those places, void decks still ok, but the casket ones, it's like surrounded by funerals, so scary! And today someone was playing prank on me...to see how frightened i can get right...But i really freaked out la!
Tmr is combined svc....worship conf pract...and i-dunno-wat....looking forward to it =)
at 12:25 AM
Haiz....half of my night was haiz............dunno what to say and how to describe. But it's been a long time since i really got angry. Yeah, i really did want to walk off and run away. Cause i couldn't take it any further. Wah liao, my threshold sucks! But i guess, whatever happened was God's will. Any other tots, to be committed to memory.
Was a great time again, down memory lane, joy, laughter, sadness, disappointment. God holds them all in His hands, before, now and forever.
I'm (We're) Your beloved,
Your creation,
And You love me as I am
You've called me chosen,
for Your Kingdom,
Unashamed to call me Your own
I'm (We're) Your beloved.
Thank U Lord.
at 1:58 AM
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