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Full time music teacher
Loves God's creation, Loves travels, Loves beaches........
+ 04 Jan
+ elenatan@gmail.com
Full time music teacher
Loves God's creation, Loves travels, Loves beaches........
Monday, July 31, 2006
"WHY"
A dance that i'll never forget. Something that gave me true joy. Dancing---for God =)
MORE TO THIS LIFE LIFE LIFE LIFE LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WHOOPEE!!! It's over!! Not that i'm really happy...but i'm relieved. Indeed a lot of hard work and time has been put into this whole thing for the past one and a half months. It's amazing how that whole jigsaw puzzle looks after it's been pieced nicely. From the bottom of my heart, i'm really encouraged and touched by every person that is involved. Their dedication of service unto God has been really a great great testimony.
My students came, though i didn't get to see them. One of them commented..."super super crowded. My friends and i were stunned. i couldn't spot u." Maybe it was my make-up? My hair??? hahaha....but oh well...i'm glad both of them came with their friends. I believe the seed has been sown. In God's timing, it'll grow and hopefully bear fruit. Dance wise...alot of mistakes lor....but it's over..who will rememeber me and my mistakes anyway?
I'm very happy today. Coz my cousin came. I've never exactly invited him for a church event b4. This is his first visit to COR. He's not into dances, he loves music bands...Whoopee! Worship Conference!! Just for you!!! HAHAHAHA. Anyway, was really glad to have dinner with him, my bro, Shirley, Janice and IsAdora. It was a gd time though it was the first time that my cousin and bro saw shirley's sisters but nevertheless, it wasn't too awkward.
After dinner, cousin, bro and me went to raffles city to walk walk...the basement's quite cool, with lotsa food, will check that place out again soon, with an empty stomach. Wahahaha. Then headed for ice-cream and some chilling. I enjoyed my time....it was a fantastic time of getting to know my cousin betta and vice versa. Really, the time was really God-provided. [For your information, i only see him once a yr, talk to him on msn prob 10 times a yr and have never gone out with him b4]. This is the beginning, only the beginning. More to come man!! More to my life!!!!!!!
On a whole, really wanna thank those ard me who have constantly been there to support and encourage me in my whole experience of dancing for the Lord. Thank u esp my two faithful girlfriends, yes u two!! (my avid blog-reader and my avid travelling-partner) Actions really speak the loudest.
*Today i even managed to shock someone with my dancing, until that person almost fell over the balcony of the Cultutral Centre. Haiz...my face only can play piano meh?? Thanks lor........
Ok, that's all for now....it's time to get SOME REST!!
MORE TO THIS LIFE
I'm good....coz i know how to post this up!!! WHOO HOO!!!!!!!
Counting down...fri..sat..SUNDAY!!!
Just a Car Spin....
Went for a half an hr car spin just now..all over the place...just the right music i needed. Thanks for speaking to me...enjoyed the reflections. Thanks for Your time..I should do this more often. Helps me to relax =)
"Captured" by Him and for Him
I'm bored. So i decided to do some open reflections apart from those jotted down regularly in my book.
1. Am I willing to be totally CAPTURED by God's plan for my life?
-Yes, coz i know with my own strength and efforts, no matter how hard i try, i can't/won't know the big picture. All i know is that God wants our faith, our little faith, to just walk in step with Him and hear each guided instruction He's giving. It's been proven..and i'm happy. Anyway, what's His plan for our lives? It's definitely more meaningful than we think. i'm beginning to look at my life. Am i constantly inward-looking (only in the house of God), or am i looking outside, at the lost sheep??? I was reminded today, that "Salvation is the work of God for man; it is not the work of man for God." by Lewis Sperry Chafer. When we gather the harvest...we are not doing God a favour. This is our responsibility. This is what God has placed us here for.
2. Am I willing to just rest in God as the storms of my life pass?
-I have to. Coz if i don't, i'll be on the verge of breakdown. Why is God larger than my life? Because he is the air we breathe. He is our daily bread. He is our all-sufficient provider. Many times, we know this, but occassionally we let our human feelings get the better of us. We need daily conscious effort to wait, be patient, rest in the Lord, and believe that He knows what we need, what we want, and he'll provide.
"When the oceans rise and thunders roar, i will soar with u above the storm, Father u are King over the flood, i will be still, know you are God."
Hark the Herald Angel Sing.....
This is the 2nd post of Hark Music...the first one was done by Shir in PIC Blog...
Yesterday (Mon), no dance pract..Whoopee! Really a gd break...went to Hark for Dinner and Music. Yesterday was a "class" night meaning that some of the students were having their lessons there and getting some performing tips. But obviously the teacher huh....didn't really have alot of "liao" so he was just talking nonsense. Looks like i'm not too bad a music teacher then...haha. Though my brother and sisters always say i cheat pple's money..(Eh..i think i'm really not too bad..at least can pull off la!)
The 2nd part of the night was audience night as usual...pple in singapore are really spontaneous man...not paiseh one lor...pple kept gg up one by one. Opposite our table were these 3 guys....was telling esther i saw 2 of them b4 but just can't make up where...and one of them kept looking over....as if he remembers seeing me somewhere too..and just kept on exchanging glances...but my memory didn't make it la. Finally that same guy went up to sing...and boy...cannot make it!!!!!!!!! Haha...i concluded that he prob wasn't from one of those "mu chuan" or "ai qing hai" that i tot he could have been from. Me and esther were stunned...oh well...."you yuan hui zai jian" haha.
Yesterday, many guys went up to sing and they can really sing...overall performance was betta than the ladies.
Must go back soon la...on the right day...
More to This Life Rehearsal
Rehearsal was fun, physically and mentally tiring but was really fun. Thank especially my 2 friends who were not physically involved but yet stayed to wait...Thanks. Yr presence made a whole lot of a difference. An interesting conversation started yesterday...but didn't have much time...we'll talk again soon =)
Reflections of the Practice:
1) I really screwed up my first run-thru cause i think my legs were numb, body cold and brain dilapidated...and perhaps too relaxed, didn't concentrate? i dunno haha....
*Thanks to the person who said that he was looking at me all the way (u not concentrating right? or issit i concealed the mistakes too well?) and said i didn't make any mistakes...a compliment but hahahha...i really did screw up my first run thru.
2) 2nd run thru was much betta...no major mistakes though i think i've to work on my balancing and spacing. But i really really (x1000) thank God that the stage was not as bad as we thought. On sat afternoon some of us tried turning on the floor on our knees and it was impossible. During the pract later on, we just turned and it was so smooth! Really, i thank God.
3) Time waiting behind the stage was haha wow....since i am in the last dance somemore, i almost dozed off liao.
4) The singers sang really well. Got outstanding 'one' somemore. i'm impressed...want to join Psalmist? Haha...
5) Thanks to the welfare team for the light snack and drink. Small amount but the sugar in the cakes kept me going...haha...
6) Thank Esther who drove me home at 12 midnight...despite how near she was to home already. Muacks.
After the first run thru, God dropped a burden in my heart for backsliders. These pple are the ones who can have learnt, experienced and can understand better abt the whole crucifiction story. I really hope God will speak on that day thru the various performing arts.
Also, i've invited couple of pple...some have rsvp and said that they'll be coming with a couple of friends. Whoopee! These pple are whom God have placed in my life in this season.
Lord, i leave them in yr hands, in Your Divine timing...do as u will.
Sentosa-asotneS
Though Fri night sucked (not the fri night outing) but the post outing reflections that i had at home....and though the night ended with me tear-eyed...ooh...but a brand new day was awaiting.
Saturday! Extended mass dance pract + Wasting time in LT + Practice in CC. Cools. i'm looking forward to tmr's rehearsal. God i need strength, mental and physical, but the joy u've given me thru dancing is more than sufficient for me.
Worship Practice was chop chop, familiar band with familiar songs. And off the PIC went for dinner!
"Where should we go for dinner huh?"
"Where??? Left or Right??? (the split rd near Potong Pasir, one that would go to town the other will go to PIE....)
Within 1o seconds, we were heading to Sentosa....WOW! Shir's friend told her that there's this Jazz concert in sentosa by the beach...(ya...the one i saw when i attended Gene's Wedding at Rasa) Anyway, it's really seldom we make up our mind that quickly...and boy...it's shocking that Esther was like "OK! Let's go!!" Wah.....at that moment i was =) Insane. Reached there..hard to find parking and coz we couldn't find the bus that goes to siloso beach...gave up and had dinner at Palawan...then after dinner...we were ding-donging our way to dunno where..just sitting ard tram bus stops...ended up taking a tram to transfer to another tram to bring us to siloso beach. Not that we planned to go and watch the jazz concert anymore but ok lor...as the spirit leads. Wow...we reached our destination and managed to catch 2-3 more songs by the band..."Walking on Water".
While watching and listening this 'guy' in Orange Tee caught my attention..(dunno why also)..Hmm...from backview, he looked like JX...then i looked again...it was really dark la...but i really think it was JX....then i was looking for his shoes...mmm....CROCS. Then i told Esther..."Esther, i've got something to tell u....look at that orange guy...does it look like JX?" Then she looked then she said "quite, but not sure"....but this guy really looked as if he was enjoying the music alot alot alot! I decided...ok...confirm it's JX la...haha.
Anyway...yeah...it was fun. Music and band was really good. Short time but with gd friends..it meant lots. Thank u pple for every little thing...(even the lift home).
Thanks.
Polina Seminova!!!
My Inspiration....my prev post has gotten lost in the archives.....1 month ago...
Praise You In This Storm by Casting Crowns
I was sure by now
That You would have reached down
And wiped our tears away
Stepped in and saved the day
But once again, I say Amen, and it's still raining
As the thunder rolls
I barely hear Your whisper through the rain
Im with you
And as You mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away
I'll praise You in this storm
And I will life my hands
For You are who You are
No matter where I am
Every tear I've cried
You hold in Your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm
I remember when
I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry
You raised me up again
My strength is almost gone
How can I carry on
If I can't find You
As the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
I'm with you
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away
I lift my eyes unto the hills
Where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord
The Maker of Heaven and Earth
All for You...
Me...How True is this?
Tuesday Night tots....
Do you know the feeling of being betrayed?
What if you found out that yr friend is doing things behind yr back? or....
What if u found out that the guy/girl ur gg out with ever had a history of crossing a certain boundary even between friends?
Would you be afraid that the same thing could happen again?
Does this then call for insecurity?
Or does this wake u up to see the real world?
Scary.
It's time to go down to the deepest part of yr soul to ask yrself...what truly fills u...
Spritual Warfare has long started, it will only get more challenging...
Today is a ................................ day. Went to spend my day with c-na at her place, with the usual gang.
Went to church for dance pract. Spiritual Warfare is raging, let's remember to put on the armour of God daily man. We can't allow ourselves to be defeated at this point of time! My fellow dancers, let's continue to pray, pray pray!
Had dinner with e-cheong. A time of reflection again.
Sunday today is Sunday...
""""Bob says that we may discover that we are always secretly drawn to men who expose areas in our lives that we need to work on. "They push your buttons,"Bob says. "The men you date or marry will expose your unresolved issue - always.""""""""
WAH....INTERESTING...............................
Anyways, today, wooo...chilling-out day. Sitting ard everywhere, sit until butt also painful. Royston is mad, Vincent is mad, Marcus is mad, all the crazy photography fanatics. Had a great time out with mad pple and my lovely PIC again...love love love u guys.
Dinner: Nice song huh....i'm sorry i just went crazy...i DID IT AGAIN!! in front of u guys....but yeah, it was a really meaningful song...looks like it wasn't Royston, it was the song!
Everybody need a little time away
I heard her say, from each other
Even lovers need a holiday
Far away from each other
Hold me now
It's hard for me to say, I'm sorry
I just want you to stay
After all that we've been through
I will make it up to you, I promise you
And after all that's been said and done
You're just a part of me I can't let go
Couldn't stand to kept away
Not for a day, from your body (baby, I can't live without you, not even day)
Wouldn't wanna be swept away
Far away from the one that I love
Hold me now
It's hard for me to say, I'm sorry
I just want you to know
Hold me now
I really wanna tell you
I'm sorry I could never let you go
After all that we've been through I will make it up to you, I promise you
And after all that's been said and done
You're just a part of me I can't let go
My tots? Hmm...I wonder................i just know i love dancing. Muahahhahahahhaha!!!
Love C-na Campaign
It's the time of the week again, where i need to blog to say how much i love dancing. Dancing makes me REALLY happy..Dancing helps me forget the suffering i'm gg thru...and no one can understand the joy in my heart when i dance. Thank You Lord for this Joy. With this in mind, i must say, this is only the beginning....more to come...great.
Was an eventful day today, went for mass dance pract, short "why" pract, cell, and night's out at esplanade. Thank God for the car again. Had a dinner feast with c-na, just the both of us, at the hawker outside esplanade. Gave c-na the liberty to buy whatever she felt like having... all the unhealthy but yummy hawker food! Proceeded to V-tea rm where the two other PIC and JC joined us. It was an interesting nite.
Interesting....with a smile on my face. =)
Friday-Out
And......it was movie time again! Watched Pirates of the Caribbean...wah 3hrs long...nice show..what an abrupt ending....confirm will have part 3 haha!
Went to handlebar at night...i just luv that place...I LUV IT!
Anyway...dear friends, i'll be setting up a Love-Elena-Fund, to fund my exotic lifestyle...pls cooperate with me...remind me to save regularly ok!! Need to think of ways to raise 1.5k in three wks.....sooo soon hor..how ah? Beg, steal, rob?????
Ok fine, I'll work harder. =)
K-ing, Hk-ing....
Went K-ing in the morning with cell guys and C-na. Thanks ah Royston for choosing "such" songs, got my emotions moving haha. Lunch was great, can't ask for anything betta. Now i'm putting on weight again big time. Anyway, did some shopping and walking, and off i went to church. Drama/Dance pract was so cool. U know my pattern, i'm stiff, shy and can't act for nuts, but when Andrew got us to display our emotions "Sad" / "Angry", wah.....tears welled up in my eyes...i really felt the "sad" emotions in me....and this was for real...no acting involved.
Today, i made a very important decision of my life. This decision will remain with me all my life. It's an experience. First time in my life....God, please give me yr blessings.
My Wednesday
Yesterday was earning money day. Thank God for this lobang....really really blessed. Had dance pract also....my conversations with WT is getting more and more scary.....but interesting. Thank God for this new friend.....really interesting. I really admire her patience when she's teaching dance...she's really cut out to be a childcare teacher.....=)
Ok, today will be a long day, but it'll be a HAPPY day! Happy Happy day.......=)
Divine Strength in the Midst of Suffering....
Have u ever heard of a person, who's gg thru so so so much, yet can dance, can sing, can worship, can live, can laugh, can joke, can smile, can love, can comfort, can give, can cry..............where did she get this divine strength from? i wonder..........
Ask God.
Reflections from M'kk Retreat 2006 -- Wellness as God intended
Retreat is finally over! It's been radical, something very new and fresh. Some like the light schedule, some feel that there wasn't enough outdoor games etc. But end of the day, it's how u want to make the best of the retreat right? One thing i'll never forget is the game that Marcus brought, aiyo...in prep of the casino that is opening soon. U can see the bimbotic-ness of the pple playing...but yes, Marcus makes a really gd banker man...can sure make everyone go bankrupt.
There are a few things that happened which i wanna give thanks to God for:
1) Thank God for even providing the place, just book one day later, we prob would not have been able to get it.
2) Thank God for inspiring/speaking to the core and guiding us on how to move.
3) Thank God for bringing Royston to m'kk.
4) Thank God for Marcus who graciously helped to finish up the video for "More to this life".
5) Thank God for the time spent sharing with Esther and Amber, u guys have really been a support. =)
6) Thank God for providing enough funds, how can we survive with that amt? But yes, God stretched the dollar's worth.
7) Thank God for the availablilty of the car. It made things so much easier.
8) Thank God for everyone who helped up with anything and everything at the retreat. Enjoyed the time spent with every person that i had interaction with...
9) Thank God for speaking to me, challenging me, convicting me in his own way.
10) Thank God for sustaining my emotional, physical, mental, spiritual health.
Dear Lord, i'm weak and imperfect, i waiver, but my spirit is willing. Please give me strength to persevere. I NEED TO PERSEVERE FOR A BREAKTHROUGH!!
What a life!!
Phew! What a hectic wk! It's only thursday and i can feel it all over me. Anyway...today went for job interview...had to listen to a whole lot of i-dunno-what-to-say...but anyway...i've no mood to think abt finding job now. Thanks for the offer, but i'll think abt it only next wk. Now no time.....
Today had dance pract again...ooo...getting betta...but as usual the perfectionism in me was displayed again...must practise until purrrrrfect...hehe...anyway...really want to give my all and do it well.
Anyway, watched soccer yesterday, Germany vs Italy...i wanna cry...as if it wasn't painful enough that Italy scored, they had to put a complete end to Germany's hopes. Score was 2-0. Can cry...
Teochew Mui
Today, after a morning of teaching, and some work in the afternoon, went out for dinner with PIC and thomas. The discussion that was going round during dinner time was quite "wrong" though it concerns my lifelong happiness. Haha.
Had a long long talk with c-na downstairs her place...oh man...how similar can our thinking get????
It's Soccer Time again!
Today had mass dance pract in the morning...woa...the formation is sooo cheam but if we can master it, boy, it'll look gd! Sarah has given green light for my outfit for mass dance...die la..i'm an official bimbotic mamasan in the making! After cell, had worship pract. And yes, i enjoyed worship pract..=)
Once again..it was a mad rush to catch soccer! Crowded crowded, but guess what, we found seats in Paulaner and i really thank God again for the seats. God is really good, really good =)
Today, England vs Portugal, this one started quite well...and began to slow down after the 1st half, which led me to think that i was prob better off declaring "bedtime". Anyhow, it was a penalty shootout again, yucks, just the way i dislike a winner to be declared. But oh wells, someone's quite unhappy that England lost, poor thing...he was so scarily fierce while watching the match...looked as if he wanted to kill every Portugal footballer. Almost scared the s*** out of me!
Now France and Brazil playing....i wonder how, i wonder why....
Some things have been bothering me. I need time and God's wisdom to sort out.
Germany Rulez!!!
Haha...what an eventful day! Started the day with colouring my hair...haiz...still not happening enuff a colour...i need real BLONDE hair..haha. Afternoon went to a wholesale ctr, got some cheap cheap utensils for retreat...really made me so satisfied for the entire day! Haha. Anyway today was errands day, collect NDP Tix, get outfit for mass dance also. I can't believe it..i'm gg to look like a "san ba" wearing that whole outfit!
Anyway, highlight was night activities...went to Great World to meet the Zara fanatic for dinner. Then we went Merchant Court Hotel for Soccer...Germany vs Argentina. It was stressful watching the match, ya...many times i "threatened" Germany that i'll go home if Argentina scores...hahahaha. But in the end they didn't let me down =) Most importantly, thank God for providing the comfortable seats for us. It was indeed a luxury.
Tmr will be a crazy long long day, mass dance pract, cell, worship pract, shopping, soccer again...die lar....hahahhaa.....
Anyway, got to slow down and rest in the presence of the Lord....i just love it when i hear Him speak.
at 1:09 AM
My students came, though i didn't get to see them. One of them commented..."super super crowded. My friends and i were stunned. i couldn't spot u." Maybe it was my make-up? My hair??? hahaha....but oh well...i'm glad both of them came with their friends. I believe the seed has been sown. In God's timing, it'll grow and hopefully bear fruit. Dance wise...alot of mistakes lor....but it's over..who will rememeber me and my mistakes anyway?
I'm very happy today. Coz my cousin came. I've never exactly invited him for a church event b4. This is his first visit to COR. He's not into dances, he loves music bands...Whoopee! Worship Conference!! Just for you!!! HAHAHAHA. Anyway, was really glad to have dinner with him, my bro, Shirley, Janice and IsAdora. It was a gd time though it was the first time that my cousin and bro saw shirley's sisters but nevertheless, it wasn't too awkward.
After dinner, cousin, bro and me went to raffles city to walk walk...the basement's quite cool, with lotsa food, will check that place out again soon, with an empty stomach. Wahahaha. Then headed for ice-cream and some chilling. I enjoyed my time....it was a fantastic time of getting to know my cousin betta and vice versa. Really, the time was really God-provided. [For your information, i only see him once a yr, talk to him on msn prob 10 times a yr and have never gone out with him b4]. This is the beginning, only the beginning. More to come man!! More to my life!!!!!!!
On a whole, really wanna thank those ard me who have constantly been there to support and encourage me in my whole experience of dancing for the Lord. Thank u esp my two faithful girlfriends, yes u two!! (my avid blog-reader and my avid travelling-partner) Actions really speak the loudest.
*Today i even managed to shock someone with my dancing, until that person almost fell over the balcony of the Cultutral Centre. Haiz...my face only can play piano meh?? Thanks lor........
Ok, that's all for now....it's time to get SOME REST!!
at 11:37 PM
Counting down...fri..sat..SUNDAY!!!
at 12:39 AM
at 10:32 PM
1. Am I willing to be totally CAPTURED by God's plan for my life?
-Yes, coz i know with my own strength and efforts, no matter how hard i try, i can't/won't know the big picture. All i know is that God wants our faith, our little faith, to just walk in step with Him and hear each guided instruction He's giving. It's been proven..and i'm happy. Anyway, what's His plan for our lives? It's definitely more meaningful than we think. i'm beginning to look at my life. Am i constantly inward-looking (only in the house of God), or am i looking outside, at the lost sheep??? I was reminded today, that "Salvation is the work of God for man; it is not the work of man for God." by Lewis Sperry Chafer. When we gather the harvest...we are not doing God a favour. This is our responsibility. This is what God has placed us here for.
2. Am I willing to just rest in God as the storms of my life pass?
-I have to. Coz if i don't, i'll be on the verge of breakdown. Why is God larger than my life? Because he is the air we breathe. He is our daily bread. He is our all-sufficient provider. Many times, we know this, but occassionally we let our human feelings get the better of us. We need daily conscious effort to wait, be patient, rest in the Lord, and believe that He knows what we need, what we want, and he'll provide.
"When the oceans rise and thunders roar, i will soar with u above the storm, Father u are King over the flood, i will be still, know you are God."
at 12:58 PM
Yesterday (Mon), no dance pract..Whoopee! Really a gd break...went to Hark for Dinner and Music. Yesterday was a "class" night meaning that some of the students were having their lessons there and getting some performing tips. But obviously the teacher huh....didn't really have alot of "liao" so he was just talking nonsense. Looks like i'm not too bad a music teacher then...haha. Though my brother and sisters always say i cheat pple's money..(Eh..i think i'm really not too bad..at least can pull off la!)
The 2nd part of the night was audience night as usual...pple in singapore are really spontaneous man...not paiseh one lor...pple kept gg up one by one. Opposite our table were these 3 guys....was telling esther i saw 2 of them b4 but just can't make up where...and one of them kept looking over....as if he remembers seeing me somewhere too..and just kept on exchanging glances...but my memory didn't make it la. Finally that same guy went up to sing...and boy...cannot make it!!!!!!!!! Haha...i concluded that he prob wasn't from one of those "mu chuan" or "ai qing hai" that i tot he could have been from. Me and esther were stunned...oh well...."you yuan hui zai jian" haha.
Yesterday, many guys went up to sing and they can really sing...overall performance was betta than the ladies.
Must go back soon la...on the right day...
at 11:18 AM
Reflections of the Practice:
1) I really screwed up my first run-thru cause i think my legs were numb, body cold and brain dilapidated...and perhaps too relaxed, didn't concentrate? i dunno haha....
*Thanks to the person who said that he was looking at me all the way (u not concentrating right? or issit i concealed the mistakes too well?) and said i didn't make any mistakes...a compliment but hahahha...i really did screw up my first run thru.
2) 2nd run thru was much betta...no major mistakes though i think i've to work on my balancing and spacing. But i really really (x1000) thank God that the stage was not as bad as we thought. On sat afternoon some of us tried turning on the floor on our knees and it was impossible. During the pract later on, we just turned and it was so smooth! Really, i thank God.
3) Time waiting behind the stage was haha wow....since i am in the last dance somemore, i almost dozed off liao.
4) The singers sang really well. Got outstanding 'one' somemore. i'm impressed...want to join Psalmist? Haha...
5) Thanks to the welfare team for the light snack and drink. Small amount but the sugar in the cakes kept me going...haha...
6) Thank Esther who drove me home at 12 midnight...despite how near she was to home already. Muacks.
After the first run thru, God dropped a burden in my heart for backsliders. These pple are the ones who can have learnt, experienced and can understand better abt the whole crucifiction story. I really hope God will speak on that day thru the various performing arts.
Also, i've invited couple of pple...some have rsvp and said that they'll be coming with a couple of friends. Whoopee! These pple are whom God have placed in my life in this season.
Lord, i leave them in yr hands, in Your Divine timing...do as u will.
at 1:23 PM
Saturday! Extended mass dance pract + Wasting time in LT + Practice in CC. Cools. i'm looking forward to tmr's rehearsal. God i need strength, mental and physical, but the joy u've given me thru dancing is more than sufficient for me.
Worship Practice was chop chop, familiar band with familiar songs. And off the PIC went for dinner!
"Where should we go for dinner huh?"
"Where??? Left or Right??? (the split rd near Potong Pasir, one that would go to town the other will go to PIE....)
Within 1o seconds, we were heading to Sentosa....WOW! Shir's friend told her that there's this Jazz concert in sentosa by the beach...(ya...the one i saw when i attended Gene's Wedding at Rasa) Anyway, it's really seldom we make up our mind that quickly...and boy...it's shocking that Esther was like "OK! Let's go!!" Wah.....at that moment i was =) Insane. Reached there..hard to find parking and coz we couldn't find the bus that goes to siloso beach...gave up and had dinner at Palawan...then after dinner...we were ding-donging our way to dunno where..just sitting ard tram bus stops...ended up taking a tram to transfer to another tram to bring us to siloso beach. Not that we planned to go and watch the jazz concert anymore but ok lor...as the spirit leads. Wow...we reached our destination and managed to catch 2-3 more songs by the band..."Walking on Water".
While watching and listening this 'guy' in Orange Tee caught my attention..(dunno why also)..Hmm...from backview, he looked like JX...then i looked again...it was really dark la...but i really think it was JX....then i was looking for his shoes...mmm....CROCS. Then i told Esther..."Esther, i've got something to tell u....look at that orange guy...does it look like JX?" Then she looked then she said "quite, but not sure"....but this guy really looked as if he was enjoying the music alot alot alot! I decided...ok...confirm it's JX la...haha.
Anyway...yeah...it was fun. Music and band was really good. Short time but with gd friends..it meant lots. Thank u pple for every little thing...(even the lift home).
Thanks.
at 11:36 PM
My Inspiration....my prev post has gotten lost in the archives.....1 month ago...
at 11:41 AM
That You would have reached down
And wiped our tears away
Stepped in and saved the day
But once again, I say Amen, and it's still raining
As the thunder rolls
I barely hear Your whisper through the rain
Im with you
And as You mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away
I'll praise You in this storm
And I will life my hands
For You are who You are
No matter where I am
Every tear I've cried
You hold in Your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm
I remember when
I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry
You raised me up again
My strength is almost gone
How can I carry on
If I can't find You
As the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
I'm with you
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away
I lift my eyes unto the hills
Where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord
The Maker of Heaven and Earth
at 11:26 AM
I love staying at home...and nowadays...i really dun have enough chances to stay at home. And when i do...i really love it..and u'll find it hard to drag me out...sorry! Now i finally understand why i've "some" friends who really love staying at home.
Yesterday, had a relaxing afternoon out...doing my fav activity...gives me time to really slow down and reflect. N then off i went to church. Thanks to the increase in taxi surcharge for peak period...yes!! i took bus to church...i couldn't believe myself!
Danced for 3 1/2 hrs...but wow...shiok is the word! I love it!! Practising in the room and in worship hall is SOOOOO diff...in the room..i tip toe...in the hall...u literally run. Got bruised on my knee again by a hard knock. But it's cool =)
Gotta brace ourselves up for saturday and sunday. Very long 2 days...jiayou jiayou!
God, is for u. Though i wanted to give it all to u...u blessed me with such joy even b4 the event...
THANK YOU.
at 11:26 PM
| What Your Soul Really Looks Like |
 You are a warm hearted and open minded person. It's easy for you to forgive and forget. You are a grounded person, but you also leave room for imagination and dreams. You feet may be on the ground, but you're head is in the clouds. You see yourself with pretty objective eyes. How you view yourself is almost exactly how other people view you. Your near future is in a very different place (both physically and mentally) from where you are right now. For you, falling in love has never been easy. You can only fall for someone who is very patient and persistent. |
at 10:31 AM
What if you found out that yr friend is doing things behind yr back? or....
What if u found out that the guy/girl ur gg out with ever had a history of crossing a certain boundary even between friends?
Would you be afraid that the same thing could happen again?
Does this then call for insecurity?
Or does this wake u up to see the real world?
Scary.
It's time to go down to the deepest part of yr soul to ask yrself...what truly fills u...
at 11:11 PM
Went to church for dance pract. Spiritual Warfare is raging, let's remember to put on the armour of God daily man. We can't allow ourselves to be defeated at this point of time! My fellow dancers, let's continue to pray, pray pray!
Had dinner with e-cheong. A time of reflection again.
at 11:20 PM
WAH....INTERESTING...............................
Anyways, today, wooo...chilling-out day. Sitting ard everywhere, sit until butt also painful. Royston is mad, Vincent is mad, Marcus is mad, all the crazy photography fanatics. Had a great time out with mad pple and my lovely PIC again...love love love u guys.
Dinner: Nice song huh....i'm sorry i just went crazy...i DID IT AGAIN!! in front of u guys....but yeah, it was a really meaningful song...looks like it wasn't Royston, it was the song!
Everybody need a little time away
I heard her say, from each other
Even lovers need a holiday
Far away from each other
Hold me now
It's hard for me to say, I'm sorry
I just want you to stay
After all that we've been through
I will make it up to you, I promise you
And after all that's been said and done
You're just a part of me I can't let go
Couldn't stand to kept away
Not for a day, from your body (baby, I can't live without you, not even day)
Wouldn't wanna be swept away
Far away from the one that I love
Hold me now
It's hard for me to say, I'm sorry
I just want you to know
Hold me now
I really wanna tell you
I'm sorry I could never let you go
After all that we've been through I will make it up to you, I promise you
And after all that's been said and done
You're just a part of me I can't let go
My tots? Hmm...I wonder................i just know i love dancing. Muahahhahahahhaha!!!
at 11:28 PM
Was an eventful day today, went for mass dance pract, short "why" pract, cell, and night's out at esplanade. Thank God for the car again. Had a dinner feast with c-na, just the both of us, at the hawker outside esplanade. Gave c-na the liberty to buy whatever she felt like having... all the unhealthy but yummy hawker food! Proceeded to V-tea rm where the two other PIC and JC joined us. It was an interesting nite.
Interesting....with a smile on my face. =)
at 1:26 AM
Went to handlebar at night...i just luv that place...I LUV IT!
Anyway...dear friends, i'll be setting up a Love-Elena-Fund, to fund my exotic lifestyle...pls cooperate with me...remind me to save regularly ok!! Need to think of ways to raise 1.5k in three wks.....sooo soon hor..how ah? Beg, steal, rob?????
Ok fine, I'll work harder. =)
at 1:53 AM
Today, i made a very important decision of my life. This decision will remain with me all my life. It's an experience. First time in my life....God, please give me yr blessings.
at 11:50 PM
Ok, today will be a long day, but it'll be a HAPPY day! Happy Happy day.......=)
at 9:49 AM
Ask God.
at 2:01 PM
There are a few things that happened which i wanna give thanks to God for:
1) Thank God for even providing the place, just book one day later, we prob would not have been able to get it.
2) Thank God for inspiring/speaking to the core and guiding us on how to move.
3) Thank God for bringing Royston to m'kk.
4) Thank God for Marcus who graciously helped to finish up the video for "More to this life".
5) Thank God for the time spent sharing with Esther and Amber, u guys have really been a support. =)
6) Thank God for providing enough funds, how can we survive with that amt? But yes, God stretched the dollar's worth.
7) Thank God for the availablilty of the car. It made things so much easier.
8) Thank God for everyone who helped up with anything and everything at the retreat. Enjoyed the time spent with every person that i had interaction with...
9) Thank God for speaking to me, challenging me, convicting me in his own way.
10) Thank God for sustaining my emotional, physical, mental, spiritual health.
Dear Lord, i'm weak and imperfect, i waiver, but my spirit is willing. Please give me strength to persevere. I NEED TO PERSEVERE FOR A BREAKTHROUGH!!
at 10:23 PM
Today had dance pract again...ooo...getting betta...but as usual the perfectionism in me was displayed again...must practise until purrrrrfect...hehe...anyway...really want to give my all and do it well.
Anyway, watched soccer yesterday, Germany vs Italy...i wanna cry...as if it wasn't painful enough that Italy scored, they had to put a complete end to Germany's hopes. Score was 2-0. Can cry...
at 12:50 AM
Had a long long talk with c-na downstairs her place...oh man...how similar can our thinking get????
at 1:55 AM
Once again..it was a mad rush to catch soccer! Crowded crowded, but guess what, we found seats in Paulaner and i really thank God again for the seats. God is really good, really good =)
Today, England vs Portugal, this one started quite well...and began to slow down after the 1st half, which led me to think that i was prob better off declaring "bedtime". Anyhow, it was a penalty shootout again, yucks, just the way i dislike a winner to be declared. But oh wells, someone's quite unhappy that England lost, poor thing...he was so scarily fierce while watching the match...looked as if he wanted to kill every Portugal footballer. Almost scared the s*** out of me!
Now France and Brazil playing....i wonder how, i wonder why....
Some things have been bothering me. I need time and God's wisdom to sort out.
at 3:19 AM
Anyway, highlight was night activities...went to Great World to meet the Zara fanatic for dinner. Then we went Merchant Court Hotel for Soccer...Germany vs Argentina. It was stressful watching the match, ya...many times i "threatened" Germany that i'll go home if Argentina scores...hahahaha. But in the end they didn't let me down =) Most importantly, thank God for providing the comfortable seats for us. It was indeed a luxury.
Tmr will be a crazy long long day, mass dance pract, cell, worship pract, shopping, soccer again...die lar....hahahhaa.....
Anyway, got to slow down and rest in the presence of the Lord....i just love it when i hear Him speak.
at 4:15 AM
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