+ 04 Jan
Full time music teacher
Loves God's creation, Loves travels, Loves beaches........
Friday, July 27, 2012
My faith to the test
It's increasingly difficult. I say to myself, what have i gotten myself into?
Did i not have a nice and peaceful life? Why did i choose to jump into this and get married to another family who treats me worse than my own parents?
His father is going too far. He has started calling me names. He is starting to use all his traditional beliefs to dictate what his son does in a marriage. On one hand, i see his point, on the other hand, calling me names is just outrightly waging war. Downright disrespectful unfortunately.
i need to move out soon.
Thursday, January 26, 2012
at 9:16 AM
i never expected to have such serious marriage blues 4 months before D-day.
If i had a choice, i would make a u-turn. It's getting way too difficult, being caught all in the middle of someone else's pain when you yourself have tons more pain to deal with.
This is what happens when someone else tries to play the good guy and try not to offend both parties. You end up offending all parties, and create a bigger problem because of the things you avoided doing.
There are alot of wordsto describe me now...
Irritable, confused, frustrated, regretful, hopeful and very disappointed.
at 11:38 PM
Monday, September 05, 2011
at 11:38 PM
Many nights we prayed, with no proof anyone could hear
In our hearts a hopeful song, we barely understood
Now we are not afraid, although we know there's much to fear
We were moving mountains long before we knew we could.......
There can be miracles, when you believe
Though hope is frail, it's hard to kill
Who knows what miracles, you can achieve,
When you believe, somehow you will
You will when you believe
In this time of fear, when prayer so often proves in vain
Hope seems like the summer birds, too swiftly flown away
Yet now i'm standing here, my heart so full i can't explain
Seeking faith and speaking words, i'd never thought i'd say....
i'd never thought that this song would be the cry of my heart today..
When you believe, when i believe, when we believe....
Will it really happen?
Sometimes it just takes an act of faith, to turn and walk 180 degrees away from it.
Who will do this...?
You or me?
Monday, July 11, 2011
at 12:09 AM
If i had known...how different would this story be?
Saturday, July 09, 2011
at 12:56 AM
i need a break amidst all these.
Someone...take me away...
Thursday, July 07, 2011
at 1:20 AM
When i saw your website, my heart skipped a beat. I thought to myself..."this is it.."but i really don't know..and i can only pray that something will work out.
Meanwhile, i've been thrown weights left right centre. So much expectations, so little time. Neverending pains come in abundance. But the important things in life will always remain important, for as long as they are deemed -important.
Oh God, give me strength..... only you know - i'm about to collapse.
Saturday, July 02, 2011
at 11:54 PM
The count down starts now.
at 2:10 AM